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Zacky moaned out, reaching down to rub her clit. He really wanted to make her orgasm. He wasn't sure if she'd ever experienced an orgasm before, so he wanted to give her one. He pressed his forehead against hers, kissing her lips. "Have you ever orgasmed before?" he asked, moaning softly.

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Sparrow frowned deeply. "That's awful," she mumbled. "She doesn't deserve that." She shook her head. She wanted to suggest going to the authorities, but what if they didn't believe her, and Rae got hurt even more? She sighed softly and looked up at Jimmy. She smiled slightly at him and leaned up, kissing his lips. She placed her hands on his shoulders and hoisted herself up, wrapping her legs around his waist.

It took a few moments for her to process what Zack had asked before she gave him a shake of her head to tell him no. "It feels so good," she moaned. "Please don't stop." She had only ever dreamed of feeling so good and almost euphoric in her life and now she finally knew it was possible. She dug her nails lightly into her back as she felt a hot white ball of pleasure begin to form in her lower abdomen. She could feel her body tensing but didn't question, simply moaning out Zack's name as the ball unwound and her orgasm washed over her body.

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Jimmy wrapped his long around around Sparrow's was it, kissing her back. He knew it was probably wrong to be kissing her but he didn't care. Even if she was just using him to get over her brother's death he didn't care. He just wanted to not feel empty anymore and he was sure he was helping Sparrow feel the emptiness her brother's death left her with too.

Zacky groaned when he felt her walls contracting around him, thrusting into her a bit rougher and a bit sloppier as he reached his orgasm, quickly pulling out and spilling his load onto her stomach. He panted softly as he rolled off of her, falling into the sand and cursing as he did so. "Shit," he panted. "I'm gonna have sand in places sand should never be."

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Sparrow definitely wasn't using Jimmy at all. In fact, she was thoroughly enjoying kissing him. She'd only ever kissed one other guy before, and that had been her boyfriend, last year. He'd taken advantage of her in more ways than one, and she'd always blamed herself for it. She'd never told anyone because she didn't want people to think differently of her. Maybe that's why she was so bitter nowadays. She kissed him and pulled back, running her fingers through his hair. "Will you have sex with me?" she asked bluntly.

"I promise next time we'll do it somewhere that isn't sandy," Rae giggled. She panted softly, a smile plastered on her face. She hadn't smiled in so long, even before Johnny had died she hadn't been smiling. It was honestly a rare thing for to even attempt a half assed smile and now she was giving a real genuine smile. "I know somewhere we can shower in peace if you don't want to deal with your grandparents just yet."

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Jimmy's eyebrows raised and furrowed together in confusion. He was extremely shocked and confused at how quickly things seemed to be escalating with Sparrow. First she was kissing him and now she wanted to have sex with him. "Are you sure you want to have sex," he asked.

Zacky chuckled, looking over at her. He was glad she was mentioning a next time, because that meant that she really did like him. He could see them becoming really good friends. He nodded his head. "Yeah, that sounds great." He sat up, grabbing his boxers and his jeans and pulling that on. He made a face as he stood up, cringing when he felt sand crunch between his ass cheeks and under his balls. "Oh god," he muttered.

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Sparrow knew she was moving quickly, there was no doubt about that in her mind. But she wanted this so badly. She really didn't know why she was wanting these boys all of a sudden. She wanted Jimmy and Brian. Maybe it was because they had been close to Johnny, but she wasn't really sure. All she knew was that she wanted them. "I'm absolutely sure," she murmured. "I want you, Jimmy."

"Take your clothes back off," Rae stated. "I have a faster way we can get some of the sand out." She quickly dusted her clothes free of sand and set them down on a rock in the cave before she walked towards the entrance where waves were crashing. She peeked out of the cave, grinning when she saw the coast was clear. She was definitely glad the beach cave was a bit of a ways from where normal people would wander. She grabbed Zacky's hand and lead him closer to the entrance. "Care for a skinny dip to get rid of all the sand?"

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Jimmy nodded, pressing his lips to hers once more. He planned on taking things extremely slow unless she told him to do otherwise. He wanted her to feel safe with him. He may have failed at doing that at times with Johnny but he refused to let Sparrow feel the same way with him.

Zacky chuckled softly, nodding his head. He set his clothes aside and followed her to the water, shivering slightly. It was cold at first, but once they got deeper, it got warmer from the heat of the sun. He reached between his legs under the water to brush the sand off his thighs and his ass, looking around them. "You know, I've never been to a beach naked before," he joked.

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Sparrow kissed him back, running her fingers through his hair. She smiled as she pulled back to look at him, resting her hands on his shoulders. She gently set herself down on her feet and sat on the edge of the bed, reaching under her shirt to unhook her bra. She slid it out from under her shirt and tossed it aside before she moved back on the bed.

"Surprisingly today has been a lot of firsts for me," Rae admitted. She got closer to Zack, wrapping her arms around his neck and pecked his lips. "Thank you," she mumbled. "For being gentle. I know I owe you an explanation." She knew he had figured out some of why she had freaked out when they had originally started having sex. Rae was just extremely nervous and scared to tell Zack why.

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Jimmy watch Sparrow, impressed by her skills. He had never seen another girl do that before and he had been around plenty of them. "So are you a virgin," he asked bluntly. He wanted to just exactly what he was in for.

Zacky shook his head. "You don't owe me anything," he said, reaching up and running his fingers through her hair. "But just so you know, I'm always here to listen. I'm pretty shit at giving advice, but I am a good listener." He smiled and pecked her lips before he pulled away to finish rinsing the sand off his back.

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Sparrow bit her lip when he asked, unsure of how to answer. She'd always been unsure of that answer, ever since that night last year. And she'd never told anyone about it either, not even Johnny. But now she wished she had. "Uh, no," she finally mumbled after a moment of awkward silence. "I'm not."

Rae watched Zacky for a little bit, smiling as she began rinsing off her body as well. She bit down on her bottom lip, smiling as she watched him. She felt happy around him and he was practically a perfect stranger besides the fact he lived next door to her now of course. "One day I promise I'll tell you everything," she mumbled. "I'm just not ready for you to look at me differently yet." She swam back to shore and pulled her clothes back, noticing how dark the sky looked all of a sudden. That's when it started to rain. She watched Zack rush back to shore and handed him his clothes. "We should probably head home," she suggested.

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"It wasn't a good first time," Jimmy asked. He figured his assumption was right just from the way she answered about not being a virgin. He reached forward and ran his fingers through her hair. "I'm not going to push you to do something you're not comfortable with," he stated.

Zacky frowned as he followed her. He put his clothes on and stopped her by grabbing her wrist. "Wait," he said, pulling her back to face him. "I barely know you, but from what I do know, you're an awesome chick and I really like you. Whatever it is that you think will make me look at you differently, I promise it won't. And I don't want you to tell me right now. I want you to tell me in a year from now, when we're good friends, and we're sitting on the couch laughing at each other's stupid jokes. You don't owe me an explanation for anything."

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Sparrow looked up at him and shook her head. "Please don't treat me like I'm some fragile doll," she pleaded. "It was a mistake and I've wanted to forget about it ever since." She grabbed his hand in hers and got up on her knees, leaning up to kiss his lips. She placed his hand on her right breast before she slid her arms around his neck. She didn't want him to be fragile with her. She wanted him to treat her like any other girl.

Rae smiled at Zack, cupping his face in her hands and kissed him again. She heard thunder sound in the distance and slowly pulled away from him. "We should probably get home," she mumbled. The brunette lead Zack out of the cave and back to her car, giggling when she realized how wet they both were between the rain and swimming. She turned her radio on, taking her time with driving them home.

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Jimmy pulled his hand away from her breast, holding her face in his hands and made her look at him. "You aren't just a quick fuck to me Sparrow," he stated. "You're not someone I could care less about seeing again. We need each other. I don't want sex to ruin that."

Zacky smiled at her, resting his head against the window and looking out of it as they drove home. He dreaded walking inside that house, but he knew it was time to do so. He just prayed that maybe his grandparents were still out to lunch. He could shower, raid the kitchen and then curl up on the couch and take a nap. That sounded fantastic right now.

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Sparrow looked up at Jimmy, feeling tears form in her eyes. Nobody had ever said anything like that to her before. Nobody had ever showed that they really cared about her like that except for Johnny. Gabriel hadn't even showed her cared about her like that. Of course her parents told her they loved her and sure they bought her things but this was different. She sniffled, nodding her head. "You remember Chuck McAllister?" she asked, biting her lip gently.

Rae parked her car in its normal spot, getting out and walking back over to Zack. She wrapped her arms around him, giving him a hug and smiled at him. "Please tell me you're going to Huntington Beach High too," she mumbled. "I don't want to suffer school with Brian and Jimmy by myself." The brunette was honestly surprised both her friends weren't both expelled by now because of how much they were in detention.

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"What about the douche bag," Jimmy questioned. He hated the kid and had gotten suspended before for getting in a fist fight with the prick. He was such an asshole and the tall teen wouldn't have cared if he went to jail for kicking Chuck's teeth down his throat.

Zacky chuckled, nodding his head. "Yeah," he said. "I start next Monday. Thankfully, my grandparents let me have the week to settle in before they force me to go to school." He shook his head. "At least you'll be there, and maybe we'll have some classes together." He smiled at her and reached up, pushing a loose strand of hair behind her ear before he leaned in and kissed her lips. When he pulled away, he smiled at her. "I'll see you later." He pecked her lips again before he headed into his house.

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"We dated for a while last year," Sparrow said. "He took me to a party and I got really drunk. I blacked out, and when I woke up, I was laying on a bed naked and he was on top of me." She sighed softly. "I couldn't remember anything that happened, but he told me that I wanted it. So I just thought that he was right, and I had been a virgin then. I still don't remember anything that happened, and I've felt guilty about it ever since."

Rae smiled, watching Zack walk back into his house before she walked into her brother's house. She was completely wet and she was probably going to get sick because of it but she didn't care at all. She had fun and she couldn't stop smiling. She had a new friend and he made her feel butterflies in her stomach in a way only Johnny had before. She closed the front door, quickly and quietly rushing up to her room, stripping naked in her ensuite bathroom and turned on her shower.

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Jimmy's hands clenched tightly into fists and his jaw tightened. As far as he was concerned Chuck was a dead man I walking. Brian would even have his back on that and Johnny would have as well. Hell Jimmy was sure Rae would even kill the bastard. "He's a fucking dead man," he hissed.

Matt slipped into Raelyn's room quietly. He stripped his clothes off before he walked into the bathroom, shoving her against the wall. "What the fuck was that, Rae?" he hissed. "So, you sneak out of the house and go whore it up with the next door neighbor, huh?" He grabbed her jaw tightly and pressed her head firmly against the wall. "What gives you the right?"

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"Jimmy, it's okay," Sparrow said, grabbing his hands. "I don't want you to do anything to him. Please. For all I know, I really did want to have sex with him." She obviously didn't understand the fact that if she had been completely under the influence, she couldn't have given consent regardless of it she wanted it or not. And for all she knew, someone drugged her drinks. She leaned up and kissed his lips softly. "I just want to move on from it."

Rae cried out in pain, tears quickly beginning to fall down her face. "Stop please," she pleaded. "It's not like that," she sobbed. The brunette managed to get away from her brother, rushing out of her bathroom, quickly trying to grab something to cover her body up with. She cried out in pain when she felt Matt grab her hair tightly. That was when the brunette felt her brother's naked crotch against her lower back and butt. She let an audible sob, struggling again to get away from him to get away. "You promised," she sobbed. "You said you wouldn't rape me ever again."

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Jimmy shook his head. "Being fucked up while he's sober is not consent," he hissed. "He shouldn't have touched you if you weren't sober. Plus how can you know for sure that piece of shit didn't drug you?" He was seeing red at that point and wasn't really thinking about how what he was saying could upset her.

Matt shoved her onto the bed, pinning her down. "That was before you decided to go whoring around town," he snapped. "I told you, Raelyn, you are mine." He reached between her legs, pressing his fingers into her. "Did you have sex with him? Hm? Tell me right fucking now." He was extremely fucking pissed and if she didn't cooperate with him, he would make her regret it.

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Sparrow sighed softly, sitting back on the bed and pulling her knees up to her chest. "I shouldn't have told you," she mumbled. "That's why I never told anyone. I knew it would just get in the way of things. I don't want to be a charity case, I don't want to be treated differently. People out there are getting murdered and starved and tortured, and here I am complaining about having sex when I was drunk. It doesn't matter, it's in the past. I just want to get over it, Jimmy."

"No," she sobbed. Rae's fists clenched her bed sheets tightly as she felt pain in between her legs. "I only kissed him I swear." She still had nightmares about the last time Matt had forced himself on and now she was going to be force to relive it again. "Please," she pleaded. "Please don't do this."

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Jimmy tossed his lamp against the wall, feeling some of his anger disappear after it crashed against the wall. "Sparrow that was sex that was fucking rape! Being in denial won't change what that piece of shit did!" He ran his fingers through her hair as tears began to form in his eyes. "I'm so sorry," he sniffled. "I should have broken his face the moment I heard he was even thinking of asking you out."