Confess on My Wayward Son

I DID IT. I REDEEMED MYSELF. VICTORY IS MINE.

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She's just so pretty.

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It's almost a shame he's never had his life together: if he did I'd probably be engaged to him just for the sole fact we've known each other longer than I have my fiance.

I recently found out that sexual abuse could most likely be lumped in to the rest of the abuses that I endured as a child and I desperately want to talk to him about it but I can't make myself say it out loud.

About to jump off the edge.

I'm just so fucking cold. I hate when he leaves.

I can't carry this heavy burden. I think I'm going to tell someone, because I can't hold it in.

This is the sort of thing I needed after all the shit that's gone on. I was starting to fear never see a light or a rope at this point. It doesn't seem like much, but it means the world to me. It seems petty, doesn't it? An album drop.

Six months is not enough. I still can't get over the fact you're gone.

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I hate that I felt so bad as to type such awful things. I wish there weren't times I felt like that. But thank you, for being decent the last few days. Please keep being this way.

Son of a bitch! People are asking for that much virtual gold just to do one piece of art for fellow members? Jeeez! Gaia, get your crap together (please!)

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Whoop! So excited to finally meet you after all these months!

Let me help you.
Please...let me help you.
You think you're not worthy but fuck you really are.

Continuing to succeed: got a 90% on my latest pharmacology quiz and a 90% on my latest nursing computations quiz. YAAASSSSSS. Gotta finish strong.

I fucked up so bad and I lowkey wanna die.
I desperately need money, and Im fairly sure im gonna be docked so much. If I only get yelled at, I'll be lucky.
fuck fuck fuck fuck

Pathetic
Hate
Lie
Worthless

All the things that'll accompany me for life.

The tension was too much, I'm sorry.

Am I really second best if I protect myself first before I let myself be chosen second?

I love my Grandma so much.

This is why I can't get Instagram back. I'm not going to be able to resist, every single time.

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Ugh, I don't wanna be back to reality.

Looks like its a lazy day. Tried to write and got bored in an instant or i just couldn't find any inspiration. I'm going back to playing video games now.

I think I'm going to try a write two versions of the same story this summer....