Confess on My Wayward Son

If it didn’t affect everyone else, I’d probably let it out. I’m so sick of this.

I thought I had managed to cut this shit out of my life last month, but apparently not. This is why I can’t ever think in shades of gray. For as much good as I have in terms of people in my life, I also have a consistent bad too.

We talked for hours on the phone yesterday, which is the first time we had done that in months (for obvious reasons). I miss you so much, it's ridiculous. I almost didn't want it to end, I even asked my parents to get food without me so we could continue to talk/watch Brooklyn Nine Nine.

I like the place we're trying to get to together, but holy fuck I miss you like crazy sometimes. I wish I could rewind the clock or hop into a time machine and go back to a fun time.

Fuck it.

Today has been a shit storm.

I am sorry, I know and understand. I'm depressed too. I don't want you to be depressed and if I could fix it, I would. I'd do anything to see you happy.

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The migraine is scaring me. Nothing even takes the edge off it let alone actually helps the pain substantially.

my appetites been off lately. why??? S:

I'm useless.

Fuck me. I'm so incompetent and stupid. I feel it painfully when I'm around other people, how poorly they must think of me.

I'm just gonna edit my original comment. Holy shit, I'm exhausted. But I did it.

Round two. Ding ding.

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Last test and then I’m playing Sims all day and cleaning.

Depression hurts, crying like a lil bitch and eating beef & a martini with friends can help.
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I finally put my hours in so maybe I can get freakin PAID lmao.
I kinda want to buy my little cousin Skyrim b/c he got me Mario Odyssey.

my hockey team hates me
i hate me
why can't i find this thing called motivation?

Wine and cat cuddles fix everything.

I feel so detached

When you find out that your favorite shampoo and dry shampoo are going on sale for $2.99 down from $7 tomorrow:

.... .... Why am I watching youtube videos on ant keeping? It's kinda making me play that one Ant Simulation game....

Why am I not more content with life right now? I'm moving next week, my dad literally just up and bought me a smart TV, my friends are coming back to town this weekend. I'm blessed and yet I'm not content or even fully happy. What's wrong with me?

So that's what we're gunnah do today? Fight? Though, admittedly, I really shouldn't have said that in the first place: especially behind your back.

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"Would you kiss a boy wearing lipstick?" Uhm. Duh.

I really need to stop. This is getting ridiculous.

Seeing The Maine last night has reignited my love for them