I'll theoretically - based on uni guidelines anyway - get my first End Course result next week. The first big grade of this year. Just realised today that it's been nearly four weeks since I handed it in. Then the week after is the second big grade. If I fail either of them, I don't get a graduation at all; I'll graduate late without the celebration and with a capped grade. If I fail either of them, the 2:1 dream is gone 'cause there'll be no pulling back from it. If I fail either of them, all motivation for my dissertation will go out the window 'cause I'll no longer see the point. Why did I have to check? Why did I do this to myself? There's nothing I can do to change things now, what I get is what I deserve and if I'm not happy I should have worked harder then. But now I'm gonna be on edge until they're out. Why am I like this.
February 3rd, 2018 at 02:09pm