Confess on My Wayward Son

I'm not gonna let negative emotions affect me today. Like she said, I should celebrate the life we had and remember it can only get better. He's only looking out for me because he cares about me and wants me in his life for the long haul and that's what I want too. Don't lose focus, Raveena. Be better.

Wow.

I've never related to a show more than this one. Though she makes a terrible nurse (not that she IS one) and it makes me cringe because of just how natural it is to me.

Been talking to four guys. And two of them appeared and came out of the woodwork yesterday. Musta been a lonely Valentines for them

My grandpa passed away suddenly this morning. He's had Alzheimer's for quite a few years and has been in a home so I guess it wasn't thay suddenly, but we weren't expecting it to happen right now. M6 sister and I spent so much time at their house and travelled with them every summer and I can't believe he's _gone_.

I want to call my grandma but I have no idea what to say. It's been quite a few hours and she called everyone but me, but I still want to say something. I dunno.

I freaking cat my boyfriend's cat. She's peed on the floor twice in the past hour! She has no medical problems and her litter box is clean. I hate her so much.

Our tax return is officially big enough for a mattress, tattoos, and we're able to still save half of it. I'm finally getting my Resistance tattoo.

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"Oh thank god, he's only 34." WHEN DID 34 BECOME A YOUNG AGE OT ME?

I don't think it's supposed to be this difficult, right?

There have been countless moments in my life where i’ve Been the parent and my mother hasn’t been and i just really wish that it would stop. I 100% understand being upset and angry and scared but....i dunno. I really don’t.

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The way that Adam calls Hannah “Kid” melts my heart.

I think this is the most content I've ever been, honestly. Please don't let anything fuck this up.

Im not handling this well.

It's totes fine. I really wanted to work open to close on a Saturday, especially considering this is the second time you've called off in a week and left me hanging.

there. there there there. I changed my last username. now you can't reach me at all. I hope you don't ever bother but in case you do, I want you to know just how fucking done I am. just how much I want nothing to do with you

Someone apparently told my ex that I never wanted to marry him and I'm fucking disgusted right now. And the people calling me abusive was just... idk. I did shit that wasn't good when I was in that relationship and I know that, but for someone to blatantly lie about something like that pisses me the hell off. so angry i can't type lmao

I love my job but I just don't want to go in today: it's a lazy factor, not a hatred one. But nonetheless I’d much rather work on a 15 page project than go in.

Had the time of my life tonight, honestly. So blessed to be surrounded by great friends.

Saw Black Panther and oh my actual god

and Michael B. Jordan could honestly murder me and I'd be okay with it

I keep telling myself I'll text you. I lie to myself about it. It's not that I don't want to. I look at the time, and think, no it's too late to bother. Or I'll think you have better things to do. My personal favourite is how early I've got to go to sleep.

In some ways, I do hope you wonder if I will reach out again. and in others, I'm hoping you aren't thinking how disappointing it is that I haven't. I'm so bad about reaching out.

I miss you, but I'm too chicken. Isn't it just a little pathetic? Is it too much to ask to hope that in some small way, you miss me too?

I need a fucking break.

I'm starting to wonder if this is a kind of life I want...to constantly be afraid to speak my mind about certain things in front of you. I'm wondering, can we be as close as we want to be? I'm an outspoken woman, I don't have any qualms with speaking out about injustice except in front of you. So...why is that a life I should live?

I don't have to surround myself with people who don't understand the fundamentals of being a minority (especially when you yourself are a minority). Your friends knew that too, that's why they ousted you. Maybe I should see it too.