@ little tea-pot;
I understand this so much.
Take care of yourself and try to disclose personal bits of information slowly, if you can. It's so fucking hard when you can't share what you're going through with the people around you, it suffocates you until it feels like drastic actions are the only way to express how you feel. I'm trying so hard to do this right now. You can always talk to me as well, if that's something you'd be interested in.
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I have no energy to get out of my bed today.
I know I'm festering in my fear and sadness and it's going to evolve to worse, but I don't have a lot of support out here and I can't face people today. The people in my life are going through a lot of their own crap and don't have time for mine, and I know if I interact with them it's just going to make me feel angry/~indignant because aa no one cares about me everyone's self-absorbed~
I wish my boyfriend was around. I need him to get me a good meal and talk to me and soothe me. I don't know where he is. I'm angry and sad.