Atticus Bralen |
Only happy when your sorry head is filled with dope“
Take five,” The muffled voice cut through on the opposite side of the sound proof glass. Atticus shrugged off the tension in his shoulders as a few bones popped and crackled, placing the guitar back onto its stand. A small sigh escaped his lips as his heavy eyes turned to the couch on the opposite side of the wall. What he wouldn’t do to take a nap. “
This album’s gonna be awesome,” Brandon, the band’s bassist, exclaimed while tossing his hands overhead with a resounding woo. Over the past few months, their band, With Eyes Sewn Shut, was starting to gain momentum in the music world with sold out concerts and platinum albums galore. They could barely leaving any building with screaming fans waiting for them, which they all blamed Brandon for since he updated his Twitter wherever they went. Their manager encouraged that they ride on this motion by tossing them back into the recording studio, waiting for their creativity to kick in. After finishing their first American tour last week, all the group wanted was some rest but they had to power through. It meant many sleepless nights on the road with his fellow band mates, making Atticus exhausted and irritable practically all the time. “
Mate, turn it down,” He groaned, rubbing his temples with a shake of the head from a lingering hangover.
Throughout his entire life, Atticus struggled with drug and alcohol addiction. The white powder did wonders, making him numb and foggy to every pain. While he preferred the drugs, the alcohol filled that void whenever he couldn’t find a fix. He managed to get clean multiple times from rehab, but, with the stress of touring and maintaining an image, he inevitably slipped back into old habits. His band mates could only monitor their troubled member, praying that he didn’t slip off the deep end. Luckily, Atticus never overdosed or needed his stomach pumped but the edge always haunted him. Last night was no different. After tossing and turning in his bed for hours, he found the whiskey in his suitcase calling to him. Atticus willed everything in his body to not get up, remembering the group therapy he went through. There were people with worse complication than him that didn’t rely on the numbing wonders, reminding him that he didn’t need alcohol to make it through the night. However, the urge to drink overwhelmed him and he downed the bottle in a few gulps as possible. This brought him back to the beginning of his thirty day cleanse once more. Despite the initial guilt, Atticus fell into a peaceful slumber.
Crap. They all knew what a short-tempered Atticus meant. Brandon cast worried eyes to him, wondering why their guitarist had relapsed this time. “
Sorry,” Brandon quietly mumbled, ghosting this fingers over the strings. Feeling the pounding in his head, Atticus downed the glass of water just in time for the producer to come back. For the remainder of the day, the band holed themselves up inside of the studio. Despite pushing through the hangover, his events from the previous night inhibited his motor skills. “
Shit, sorry,” He apologized for the umpteenth time after strumming the wrong cord. The producer already decided it would be an instrumental day after Atticus’ voice cracked, ruining the entire song. “
You know what? Let’s call it a day. We’re not getting anything done here. Atticus, pull yourself together for tomorrow,” The man harshly ordered, leaving the sound booth. Fuck, he had ruined everything. “
It was a rough night, guys. I-I’ll get my shit together for tomorrow,” Atticus vowed, placing his guitar back onto its stand. Why did he have to do that? Take one good thing and make it awful. Everything that he touched seemed to crumble and destroy itself.
Returning back to the hotel, Atticus collapsed into the bed with a groan as he turned to face the ceiling. What the hell was wrong with him? He had been clean for almost half the month and he ruined it with one gulp. The next thing he knew, his ringer went off. Reaching out, he fumbled around till his hand enclosed around the cool metal. “
Lo?,” He spoke, pressing the phone to his ears. The other end of the line was silent for a moment till an American accent broke the silence.
Hello. A female nonetheless. How had she gotten his number? The last fan that managed to find out his personal line needed a restraining order. Two number changes and a bodyguard later, he thought he was safe. Clearing his throat, he pushed the sleep away as he sat up in his bed. “
Who’s calling?” Atticus questioned, leaning against the bed frame. His eyes lingered over toward the time to see it was half past midnight. On a usual day, he would be up sitting at a bar somewhere but he must have fallen asleep.
Um… Nydia. We- we hung out about a month ago? I was just wondering if you were still stateside?” Nydia? He racked his brain at the familiar sounding name until he finally hit him.
That Nydia. “
Nydia? Yeah, I’m not leaving until next we-“ He was cut off by the woman’s giddy yet nervous voice. By the end of the phone call, they managed to figure out a place to meet for tomorrow.
The next day was better. They managed to record one song without any problems, significantly improving the morale of the band. It made Atticus a little bright-eyed and lighter. At their timed meeting, Atticus slipped away from his responsibilities to meet with Nydia. Knocking on her door, it opened for him to see the hazel-eyed woman. He offered a grin before taking her into his arms, giving a light squeeze. “
It’s nice to see you again. I was actually surprised that you called me. It’s been a month,” He rambled, stepping away to settle his eyes on her. Despite the time apart, she looked well but seemed oddly nervous. Of course, she was a fan but they had gotten to know each other during the tour in more ways than one. He figured that they could be friends and left his number. “
So, what’s up? Did you want to go out or something? If not, I can order food,” Atticus offered, fishing out his phone from his pocket. When she shook her head, he cocked his head to the side and found an odd silence in the room. The next slew of words went by like a whirl until the last two came out clearly:
I’m pregnant.
Atticus felt his jaw go slack while his heart practically stopped beating in his chest. But Nydia promised she’d be on birth control. That’s the only reason why they had fallen into bed without a condom. While he didn’t think she went around with others, the thought crossed his mind but she shot it down. So, this kid was really his? Running a hand through his curled locks, he let out a shaky breath. His eyes automatically dropped to her stomach, realizing that it was his child growing in there. Atticus could feel his legs beginning to tremble and took a seat on one of the chairs while his world turned upside down. “
I, uh,” He trailed off, struggling to find the correct words. It would be easier to step away from this now before it spiraled out of control. He could bury his head into all of his music, forgetting about this child. That would be the best path for him to take. But how could he just walk away? Like his child wouldn’t be out there in the world without him. “
So, so, you’re having the baby?” He questioned, knowing that there were more options. “
Look, I know that I’m probably not the best role model in the world…and I sure as hell don’t know how to be a father. But I can’t walk away from this. I wouldn’t be able to forgive myself. I guess, what I mean to say is that I’m here for whatever you need. Honestly.”
Hazel Reeves |
Baby, you’re simply lostThree years. That was the last time she had been home. After graduating from college, Hazel practically ran from the suburbs and went headfirst for the busiest city in New York, Manhattan, to work for one of the most well-known banks as an accountant. She craved the excitement, needing the fast-paced lifestyle. Back in her hometown, she disliked the small dynamic and the biggest news that ever happened was who won the local fishing competition. Every time all she could do was roll her eyes, unable to understand it. Moving to the city changed her life for the better. Hazel could still vividly picture the vibrant, blinding lights and the indistinct voices filling the streets on her first night. The smell of garbage filled her nostrils, making her stomach flip, but she easily decided that this would be home. And, so, it had been until Hazel heard about her grandfather’s drastic decline in health not to mention the lack of business at the bed and breakfast he owned. The prospect of quitting her new job and leaving all of her friends scared her, considering she would be starting over for the second time. However, the last thing she could do was sit back and relax while everything ran into the ground. Biting the bullet, she dropped everything to return back home and help.
Settling into her seat on the flight, butterflies filled her stomach as she gripped onto the arm rest of the chair. “
Nervous, sweetie?” The older woman questioned to her right, holding a sympathetic gaze. “
Something like that,” Hazel responded with an uneasy laugh, turning her head to look out the window. She was actually going home. Back to where every person knew each other. Back to boredom. Back to Carter. A shiver rippled down her spine at the thought of that arrogant jerk. Growing up, it seemed that the chef went out of his way to make her life as miserable as possible. He put gum in her hair and worms in her food just to mention a few. Her own personal bully throughout childhood. In turn, Cater constantly reminded her of what a pretentious girl she was. Their relationship consisted of constant bickering...and that was it, right? Hazel’s grandfather even informed her that he would be picking her up from the airport, making her groan. Attempting to push out her thoughts, she picked a movie at random and prepared herself for the four hour flight ahead.
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God, where is that man? I swear, he can never be on time for anything,” She thought aloud, impatiently tapping her foot against the tiled floor. Her flight had landed an hour ago but there was some time between finding her luggage. Hazel figured that Carter would be waiting for her and rushed through the crowd, practically pushing over another passenger to reach for her red case. Yet here she stood with a cell phone in one hand and her luggage in the other with no Carter to be found. “
Grandpa, he’s not answering the phone,” She complained to Jack, unable to hold back a sigh. She should have known that he wouldn’t be waiting for her. “
Just give him a break. I’m sure he hit traffic. Remember, be nice. He didn’t have to drive out there to get you.” Right. In her mind, Carter was still the same boy with the same antics to piss her off. Of course, when given the task to pick her up, he had to take advantage of the opportunity and be late. “
I guess… Oh, I see him,” She seethed, angrily hitting the end button on the call. Just in the distance, she found the same piercing blue eyes adorned with that stupid smirk. It was Carter alright.
Drawing in a deep breath, Hazel cut through the throng of people with a tight jaw and narrowed eyes.
Hey, sorry about being late. “
Yeah, right. Just leave me here waiting for almost an hour,” She sarcastically replied, placing her free hand on her hip. He definitely enjoyed the annoyance clearly written on her expression.
If your delicate New York pallet can stomach it I got you some snacks in the car Well, she was hungry. On the flight, they offered ridiculously priced snacks, which she definitely couldn’t afford spending money on. Being unemployed did that to a person. “
Maybe. Depends on what you have.” Maybe she did need to cut him some slack. Nodding the second question, she followed him back out to the car and placed her luggage into the back of his pickup truck. “
Wow, you still have this thing?” She remembered the first time Carter ever pulled it up to the B&B. He bragged about how he purchased it with his own money, which she was slightly jealous of. Because he was a couple years older, Hazel didn’t even have a permit to practice driving and here he had his own car already. It took a while for her to live it down. She hopped up into the passenger side, buckling up. It was odd being in a car, considering all of the public transportation in New York.
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So, how bad is he?” She finally summoned the courage to address the elephant in the room. Constantly, she worried for her grandfather and the business that he had built from the bottom up. Hazel saw every ounce of effort that he poured into the B&B and could only hope to have that same kind of passion for her profession. The thought of it closing up made her heart ache. She was too nervous to meet Carter's gaze, afraid of what the answer would be. Did he have months? Years? He sounded weary over the phone, making her more upset with the situation. She turned her eyes out the window to scan over the familiar landscape, feeling the nostalgia. As much as she hated to admit it, she really did miss this place. After the twenty minute ride, they arrived at what appeared to be the B&B. Her felt her jaw go slack, leaning forward in her seat to view the fresh coat of paint. It looked more modern and friendly, even with screens to keep insects out in the summer. From one look, she would have sworn that it was newly built instead of from the mid nineteen hundreds. When she finally made it inside, the quaint little B&B reflected the outside and had a refreshing appeal. “
Wow, this looks… really amazing,” Hazel approved, knowing that they could turn around from this. But this must have cost them a fortune. She didn’t even want to think about how much debt the place was swimming in.