Taste Of Forever

She nodded a little then smiled a bit, "Hm yeah it'll go back to normal soon. I'd like to relax tonight it'd been a while since it's just been us," she murmured.

He sighed, "but I will, I know it - there is no way I'd not wake up.. not when I have forever to spend with you,"

It was clear he thought about it for a long time. She didn’t think she’d be able to get through to him. “I’m going to go make you that chicken now. Do you want anything with it?” she asked curiously getting up to find a tissue to wipe her eyes.

“Yeah that sounds nice,” he said. “maybe even we could go out go to a movie or play just the two of us.”

She nodded a little and smiled, "Yeah, that'd be fun," she said to him sighing as she grabbed an abandoned cart and began to put the things she'd grabbed into it.

He sighed and shook his head,"Nothing in particular," he said gently.

She nodded a little and sighed, pulling on a robe and going down to the kitchen. She didn’t know what to do, she was terrified of losing him.

---

He smiled a little as he followed her, looking around at the store demos. “What do you think of doing our bedroom like this?”

She looked and smiled, "this is nice, I bet with concrete floors it'd look nice," she said to him.

He sighed then laid back down staring at the ceiling before closing his eyes.

She cooked and set the food on a plate, saving the rest like she always did for him and going back to the bedroom. "Here," She said softly, setting it in front of him and sitting on the bed next to him, not sure what to say.

---

"I think so too, but concrete would be hard and kind of unforgiving," He said to her. "Maybe not something so hard?"

He took the plate and sighed as he began to eat, he felt sad she didn't want to at least try. Part of him knew he'd have to ask Ana, she was like super old - she'd know what to do right?

She shrugged a little, "I suppose," she said as she thought about it then wet her lips, "I don't like carpet, it's messy and there is often red liquid in the room I'd hate to stain it,"

She sat down next to him and sighed, playing with her hands. "What do you want to do? You said you want to make a difference, what kind of difference do you want to make?"

---

"How about wood? Tile or marble?" He suggested, pointing out alternatives for themt o use.

"Wood is good, maybe the fake wood as it'd be easier to clean," she murmured lightly as she thought about it.

He sighed, "I want to reformat the education in our country, I want to make it fair for everyone to have an equal chance - make school based on ambition instead of constant good grades. " he said as he looked at her, "I want to make music and dance too. I want to travel the entire world and live in each country for a number of years. I want to help youth and prepare them for life beyond angsty teen years," he rambled on, "I want to learn to cook properly but not just korean food but all sorts of food from every country,"

"I want to watch the sun set with you in every country and watch it rise too," he murmured.

"We can do that though," She smiled a little. "We can travel, we can reformat the education system, we can build a school, do all those things, we can go to every country you want to, let me help you do it." She said, hopefully. "Everything you want to do can be obtained, and I would love to help you do it. You just don't need the bite to do all of those."

"It would look nicer too. We can get gray toned wood too," He suggested, smiling a litte. "And how about a new bedframe and mattress?"

"I won't be alive or in good condition to do all of those things," he said to her seriously then rubbed his face a little then stabbed the chicken as he ate his food, "I'll be old, and cripple and I'll have mountains of paper work. We won't be able to have the kids I want because I'll be too busy with work, with travel, with being turned I have all the time in the world,"

She nodded a bit,"Sounds like a plan to me," she said as she ran her hands over the decor.

"I can help you with the paperwork, and you won't be cripple if you're in good health," She reminded him. "Besides, I can't have children anyway," She said to him. "And age is but a number I would love you the same at 83 as I do at 19. Nothing would change in my eyes."

---

He wrapped his arms around her and kissed her neck gently. "I kind of want to go home, can we?"

She smiled a little then nodded,"Sure, we can go home," she murmured as she leaned into him, "You okay?" she asked him gently.

He set his plate to the side, "You've already made up your mind so it doesn't matter, I want to be changed, but just like your choice was taken from you you've taken mine from me," he said to her as he crossed his arms over his chest. "It wouldn't change for you but for me... it would," he murmured, "Cancer runs in my family both my grand parents died of cancer, my mom got it when she turned 40 - my dad died of a brain tumor when I was 12," he said to her.

"My odds of living past 50 are slim, and I don't want to be changed when I'm old and ugly, if I'm changed I want it now," he said to her.

"If the cancer gene presented itself I would change you, but there's no guarantee it would." She said to him. "I wouldn't ever see you as old or ugly, you would be the same as when I fell in love with you the first time." She reminded him quietly. "And I'm not taking away your choice. I can't stop you from changing yourself, I just said that I wouldn't do it. Though Ana likely wouldn't either," She sighed. "I don't want to end your life, you're only 19 and if you die then I'll mourn regardless."

---

He nodded a little. "A lot of people here but I just want to go home and spend time with you," He said softly, holding onto her.

Ana nodded, "Okay, lets pay and go home," she said to him as she pushed the cart to the front of the store then sighed, "I think I want soda," she said nodding a bit then opened the cooler. Sometimes she indulged in human items - they had no effect on her anyway, but they tasted good.

He shook his head then rubbed his face, "You're so sure I'll die," he mumbled, "You have no faith in me,"

“And you’re so willing to risk it, because being with me like this isn’t enough,” She said quietly. “Please Yugyeom, I’ll give you anything, we can travel, get married , have a child, just not this. Please don’t ask that of me.”

“Do you have a favorite?” He asked curiously, walking with her to the register. “Do they taste the same?” He wondered aloud reaching around her for a Mountain Dew.

"Hm well I don't know," she said sheepishly,"Ive only had soda while I am this way so I can't say for sure," she said to him smiling, "but I like cherry flavored items,"

"It's fine when I'm dead you'll be free of me, but if thats the case we can end it now I'd hate to be a burden to you," he murmured as he moved to stand up he grabbed his boxers and pulled them on.

She glared at him and stood up from the bed. “If that were the reason I wouldn’t be here pleading with you to let me spend your human life with you!” She said angrily. “I wouldn’t have mentioned marriage I wouldn’t be here talking with you if I wanted to be free of you. But you think so little of me am I sure I want to spend forever with someone who sees me this way,”

“Cherry? Do you like cherry desserts?” He asked curiously, walking with her out of the store. “I loved soda but you never let me have any of them,” He whined a little

She nodded a little, "It made you taste gross," she said to him snorting a little ,"and I love cherry tarts and pie, but mostly the artificial stuff tastes good to me the most," she said sheepishly.

He rolled his eyes a little, "that'd be the case but you're so willing to watch me die, you're so willing to watch me age and grow old then just wither away why not just turn me, it'd be easier," he said to her, " I know I'll wake up because there is no way in hell I'd pass this up,"

“Don’t you get it?” She said sadly. “I’ve told you countless times I wish I could be human, that I wanted someone to grow old with, I found you and you don’t want it with me. There’s nothing to this life, what part of that are you missing?” She said angrily. “It’s a cycle of finding something to do because you have money, you have time, there’s no sense of urgency because there’s nothing to want. Human life is filled with struggle you laugh and you cry because time is precious and I want that with you, Yugyeom. I know my time with you is precious because it’s numbered. If you died, I wouldn’t do anything after you I would probably just stop eating so I could follow you,” She said, a tear of blood spilling out and landing on the sheets.

---

He smiled a little. “I’d be interested to see the difference in taste of someone who eats trash versus someone who eats well like you had me,” He said nodding a little