June 28th, 2018 at 06:16pm
Aislinn..
I woke up with a splitting headache, the aftermath of hard partying. Nothing new. Judging by the headache, there had been cocaine involved, and a lot of tequila. Again. Nothing new. I told myself I'd take a break from the partying yesterday. Leanne, a good friend of mine, had asked me to help set up for some bands last show on tour tomorrow. Tomorrow would be crazy, so we needed to start getting everything ready today, and here I was in hangover recovery. Nice one, Ash. I got up, dragging my feet to the bathroom so I could pop some Advil and take a cold shower. This had been my life for years; party all night, crash, drag myself through the next day, party again that night. I'd been to rehab twice already, and told myself countless times I'd go back. I'd bailed on all of the Narcotics Anonymous meetings. I didn't have an excuse. When I didn't have to face the downward spiral, this made me happy.
I could hear the text tone going off on my phone; one, two...five times. I hopped out of the shower, my phone displaying what seemed to be a frantic Leanne, wondering where I was. I had agreed to meet her ten minutes ago. "Shit," I quickly got ready, and headed over to the amphitheater. Leanne greeted me, complete with her hands on her hips and her brows furrowed together. "Please no lecture," I asked, causing her to sigh. She knew; everything. Most addicts lost all their friends, because people get tired of dealing with your bullshit. Leanne had a line, and I'm sure I was just a couple of inches from crossing it.
"I'm just happy you showed...and that you're safe," she handed me a throw-away cup of coffee, already cold. I smiled at her thankfully as she began going over everything that needed to be done.
Ryan..
I was never able to sleep on the tour bus while it was moving like the other guys could. Not only did the motion sickness keep me awake, I felt like the driver purpose hit every pot hole on the road on purpose. I could hear it now, Are you tired, Ryan? Well too bad, fuck you. I'd sleep once we finally ended up back in L.A. while the guys went out to eat. I sat up from the small bunk, looking around me for something to drink even though the narrow hallway was dark. There were water bottles all over the place, so I grabbed one lying by my foot, and unscrewed the cap. As soon as it was in my mouth, I instantly knew it wasn't water. Jumping up, I bee-lined it to the bathroom, spitting it into the toilet. I turned on the faucet and stuck my head under it to try to get the taste out of my mouth, and then looked at the bottle in my hand.
Yellow.
Ricky was notorious for leaving his piss bottles lying around, and part of me thought about going to his bunk and pouring it on him. Instead, I threw it in the trash bin and headed to the front of the bus to open a window and get some air.