300 Confessions Way

Sure, you can move in now. But like hell am I going to accept you there for at least a month. For the weeks of stress and re-budgeting I had to do because your flaky non-committal ass changed your mind at the last second. Oh, what's that? Someone's changed their mind about you guys' place and are planning to sell it, and now it's convenient for you to move out? It's hard isn't it? Having the rug pulled under you like that?

Fuck off. Move in so that it'll lower my bills. But fuck any civility I owe you as a roommate.

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Ugh lol. People like you are the reason why I don't have friends. Friends for seven years and as usual, its dick over your friends who have known you longer. You are so desperate to be with someone so they can pay all your bills since you can't seem to get a job. Block me all you want, but you're not all that special and never will be. Does he know that you're not in love with him? does he know that you're talking to other dudes? lol, I just can't. Good riddance.

I finished Wonderland. Like it's actually done written-wise. And now it just needs to be edited and revised and on its way to being published.

We close y'all

Just thinking about this makes my stomach knot. I can't wait for it to be over and for us to be settled on our own. My house, my rules, no argument. Shit on my floor I'll rub your nose in it, basically. I know you don't respect me, but you will respect my home and my property. I already have to pretend I don't dislike you, I will not hesitate to put my foot down with your behaviour. I've compromised my feelings for yours enough for everyone else's sake but mine, so you will follow the rules of my house. No ifs, no buts, and no damn coconuts.

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Today really hasn't been that bad but I can't shake the feeling that it's just been shitty....

For me, the song All Night by Beyonce is a love song to myself. I always get into so many feelings about it.

The anxiety I get from watching my bank account and waiting for an automatic bill pay to go through is unreal. Especially since the bill we got has so many incorrect things on it (ie amount due, due date) that I won't be able to tell if it's because I'm short on the bill or if they're just taking their sweet time. Hopefully it's the latter.

Adulting sucks.

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We see Ninja Sex Party tonight and I don't know if I'm gonna be able to hold in my emotions/tears. They helped me through a particularly bad year and having the chance to see them live in my home state feels like a dream. here's hoping the squad is down to wait out back afterwards to try to meet the band

So I’ve never been good with money in the past. I’m actually striving and paying bills before buying anything for myself. I pay rent and car payments every week and car insurance every month, while the Golden Child doesn’t have to do a fucking thing. Does she pay rent? No. Does she have a car payment? No. So why is it that she can go out and buy things for a girl she likes that she ‘doesn’t even know’ but when I do it it’s like the end of the fucking world. God forbid I actually spend money on friends or, gasp, myself. How irresponsible and outlandish! I should be put to the death!

but I'll never say 'I love you, dear' just to hear you say it back

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I'm crumbling away.

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Lying in bed 2:11 safe under the mountains of Norway. I think of this site 5 6 8 10 years ago and who I was and what I was. I celebrated my 13th and 14th birthday here on this website. People made a thread for me and told me I was beautiful and amazing. This year I'm 25 and I'm getting married this year or next

If anyone remembers me I probably remember you too. I still have Mibba people on Facebook but I'm not in regular contact. This place used to be such a sanctuary for me but I'm so much older, so much different, in a different country, speaking another language, doing it for him and for myself and for us. I read my profile and it says I'm 17 years old but I haven't been 17 years old for 7 years now and it seem so far away. 17 year old me had no idea the worst was yet to come

But the best came with it and I love myself

I am happy to wake up and know I am here I am me

Watch the quiet night sky of Scandinavia and know I am here. I want to lose myself in the woods and live the self-chosen dream of eternal stars in my head

@ angus young
This was the most beautiful thing I've read in a long, long time. It's good to hear you're doing well.

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This is the best night I've had in a while and it comes along with what's probably the start of my quarter life crisis? I'd just really like for it to be 2008 again please, that's all.

@ angus young hey, ella it's good to see you, and congratulations on your engagement.
one of the best things I remember about this site is the friendships that we all made.
and to see all those friends growing up happy and healthy is all I could ever ask for

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I'm not sure why I still come back sometimes. it's strange here, but still somehow familiar.
this is like my hundred acre wood. heartbreakingly different.

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I am so beyond frusturated. Either handle your fucking liquor or dont fucking drink at all.

Self harmed in almost a year lolololololol

I don't want to kill myself but I end up thinking about it constantly.