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  • Unown

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    February 25th, 2019 at 12:05am
  • mikrokosmos.

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    I've been on edge with anxiety over the past few days and nothing is worst than feeling like everyone who's present in your life is angry at you, or wants to get rid of you. Nothing is worst than feeling like a burden.
    February 25th, 2019 at 12:20am
  • the god of mischief.

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    And I'm suddenly relieved of all stress. THANK GOD.
    February 26th, 2019 at 02:24am
  • Brittt

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    I stopped giving a fuck a long time ago. Bitch about buying me conditioner, but can go to the casino. lmfaooo unreal.
    February 27th, 2019 at 02:34am
  • lonely girl.

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    I feel like I'm going to vomit I have to get on a plane in 7 hours
    February 28th, 2019 at 12:28pm
  • Lonely Luna

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    I'm high as fuck and somehow am writing.
    March 2nd, 2019 at 10:27am
  • swell

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    On the feelings front, I feel so much better. They're not all gone but for the most part I've been able to work through them and actually (somehow) maintain a friendship (and still fuck, lol) but lose feelings at the same time. Honestly, knowing that he's moved on plus being hella busy with work and now uni and gym and just trying to find time to decompress after work and uni gives me no time to think about anything besides myself, which is the best course of action for me atm.

    Besides, I always said he was a good time, not a long time XD
    March 3rd, 2019 at 03:25am
  • the god of thunder.

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    mmm nevermind. c;
    March 3rd, 2019 at 05:31am
  • the god of mischief.

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    The senioritis is too real.
    March 3rd, 2019 at 07:14pm
  • the god of thunder.

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    I just realized what my name is when I'm male (I never even thought about giving myself a name for those moments) and it just... fuck?? clicked everything into place in a way I never thought it could? it was so obvious, it was there the whole time. this is a moment.
    March 4th, 2019 at 03:51am
  • VixL

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    March 4th, 2019 at 06:20am
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    There is quickly coming a day when I'll have the time to write fandom dissertations about Star Wars and the world had better watch out. Coffee
    March 4th, 2019 at 06:29am
  • VixL

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    Talking to my bipolar, infp Grandma is fun. Even when she’s drinking like three acholic drinks and I know she can get wild. We have really deep, introspective conversations. Even if they’re all over the place. It’s funny how the most mentally unstable of my family is the realest, genuinest one and can read through the bs just like me. But I can’t deal with her for long, because then she starts acting like a baby. Or trying to get me to give her some money so she can buy drugs. Or she’s snaps at me because of her manic state. Facepalm
    Just not feeling it today. Literally had a mental breakdown where I thought about suicide all because my mom came into the back room and interuppted my peace. I was literally having a good fucking moment blocking out my reality, depression, and the fact that it’s spring break but I have nowhere to go or no friends...and the fact that if I would have stayed in school I would have a degree and possibly my own place by now instead of struggling to battle depression just to turn in assignments for a Associate’s Degree in a program I’m pretty sure I no longer want to do anymore. I guess this is just a result of Major Depression Disorder. I’m just having a episode. But damn that mood swing was crazy. I just can’t stand when someone I don’t necessarily likes comes in and tries to take away the only good thing in my life. She ruined the moment. It’s like when you love a name, but then you meet an asshole with that name and you no longer love it anymore. That’s how I feel. She wouldn’t just leave me alone and let me watch my show with her homophobic, conspiracy theory, judgemental, fake ass. I can’t stand her. I just wish I could leave this house and be on my own. I hate people. Even family. They just ruin everything. I can’t deal with them. And now my aunt and cousin are here, which makes my day even worse. Let me be a loner and unhappy in peace. It’s hard enough I’m depressed and suicidal. But then I have to deal with my family and people. It just makes it even worse.
    I’m scared this bitch is going to try to steal my money just because I said I was going out to get some hot cheetohs. So, now she thinks I have money to spend. She had the audacity to ask me to check the fridge to see if we have any milk. She was acting like she polices my wallet. Excuse me, miss. But I paid Grandma for this month. I’m NOT living with you anymore. Ontop of that, I’m literally in debt because I used $3,000 to pay YOUR RENT. Not to mention ALL THE OTHER TIMES I’VE GIVEN YOU MONEY. I haven’t given you any money this month, because I NO LONGER LIVE WITH YOU. I told you that you and I are done. So, I don’t owe you any more money. The only person I’m paying money to from now on is my grandma. NOT YOU. Also, I do your laundry and my siblings laundry if you want to get stupid and say, “But you eat my food”. P.S. YOU HAVEN’T EVEN BOUGHT FOOD WHICH IS WHY YOUR KIDS GO HUNGRY. Then you always have the audacity to ask me what did I eat instead of worrying about what your kids are eating, because you know they’re not eating (which is why you ask me to check to see if it he made anything. If it wasn’t for him making them some food...they would only be eating bread.)You want to act like I have money to blow, yet you’re the one driving up and down to go to basketball games and flirt. Also, you’re wearing new clothes. So, where’s your money going? It’s YOUR responsibility to feed YOUR KIDS. Not MINE. I eat whatever Grandma and he has in the house BECAUSE I PAY THEM RENT AND THAT’S GRANDMA AND MY’S AGREEMENT.I hate her.
    I’m tired of being around small, closed minded people who literally are the basis of every depiction of hateful people depicted in TVs and movies everywhere. You literally see this type of shit and think, “It can’t be that bad. No one can be that hateful. No one can be that ignorant yet think they know so much”. Then you meet my fucking family and you’re like, “Yes. Yes, people really ARE this fucking disgusting”. These days I don’t even believe there are open minded, non judgmental people anymore. Is it really that hard to just live your own fucking life and stop sprouting hateful bullshit under the guise of “God”. Funny thing is YOU’RE BLACK. How the fuck can you say gays and trans people don’t deserve “rights” or that they are pushing a “gay agenda” when IT’S NATURAL, BASIC HUMAN RIGHTS?!?! You sound as ignorant as the people who used to say blacks didn’t deserve ro vote, or interracial marriage should continue to be outlawed, etc etc. Yet you want to say, “I’m not homophobic, but...” That’s like saying, “I’m not racist, but...” THERE ARE NO BUTS. YOU’RE A HATEFUL PERSON who watches Youtube videos that promote and make you feel like you have a right to be hateful. You think you’re so “educated” and “enlightened” when really you’re no better than the white supremists who sit on the internet watching videos that promote their white supermist agenda and make them feel like it’s ok for them to continue in their hate. YOU’RE SICK. And I hope to God I get out of your vicinity so I no longer have to hear your disgusting, psuedoreligion bullshit anymore. The best you are is a whore who just wants male attention. Stick to that and stop trying to pretend you’re some fucking prophetess when all you are is a vain, disgusting, hateful sour milk smelling pound of flesh who doesn’t know what to do with herself because no men want you anymore like they used to when you used to run around having unmarital sex (WHICH YOU STILL DO AND ALWAYS WILL DO because all you care about is male attention). You’re not a real Christian. Real Christians aren’t manipulative, controlling, selfish, fake, or as judgmental as you are. YOU’RE GOING STRAIGHT TO HELL. And that hell is this: when you die and realize that there is no God, Heaven, or anything. You’re just choosing to be a disgusting human being and using religion as your way to make you feel better about yourself. There is no God and even if there was: He wouldn’t fuck with you or the people like you.
    Felt really shitty these past weeks because of the mess they always leave behind. Especially in the back room. But now I’ve moved into the computer room. Where no one else is going to stay but me. And I feel happier again. This is where I was at when I used to live here a year ago. Before I moved in with my mom. This was my room. I’m back in the same place I was at...but in a way I’m not at the same time. I know better now how to ignore Linwood. How to ignore Audrey and Micah. How to ignore all of them. I feel stronger, too. This is a better solution until I get a good job and my own plce. I no longer care what my mom and my younger siblings do. I told my great grandma not to even count me in with them any more because I’m not with them anymore. Love them to death. But let them do their own thing. They always do. I’m not cleaning up after them anymore or any of that ish. I’m done living with my mom. I’m done trying to get along with her. It’s just not going to work. Also, let her raise and worry about her own damn kids. She’s never here anyway. But no longer will they be my problem or my headache. I’m going in my room, shutting, and LOCKING the door. Thank God I feel so much more peace than what I felt last night when I was literally feeling suicidal because I felt like I can’t go on living like this. But I made a change. Change is good. Thank God.
    Will I ever rest easy? I need to give myself permission to breath and just stop trying to push against a solid brick wall. It’s never going to go anywhere and the energy spent pushing is a waste. My God. Facepalm. Tomorrow I swear it to myself that I am really going to try to just be free.
    Aoki Lee Simons is the mixed race/black young woman I needed to look up to when I was back in HS in 2009-2013 XD Zendaya, Yara, Amandla, etc. NONE of them existed four years ago. XD
    They’re coming over No I really don’t want them to Sad
    March 4th, 2019 at 11:29pm
  • the god of mischief.

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    The tension whenever our eyes meet is real. Embarassed
    March 9th, 2019 at 08:08pm
  • Brittt

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    I'm sick of feeling like i'll never be good enough. sick of feeling unwanted. nothing I do is good enough for anyone.
    March 9th, 2019 at 10:17pm
  • VixL

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    Seeing my great grandma looking at her Bible...as if she’s getting ready to die. Then seeing this asshole who’s treated her like shit and still does. Eighty something years old and she still talks about how one of these days she’s “really going to live” one day. It’s so fucking sad. And he makes me so fucking sick. But it’s her choice to be with him. It’s her choice to let people use her and abuse her. It’s her choice to just sit there everyday watching the Price is Right and TV shows she’s seen 100 million times (which she doesn’t even pay attention to anymore) instead of going to do a little bit of what she really wants to do with what little bit of time she might have left. Sucks that she ended up living so long but lived so little. She’s spent her life being a doormat to her family and to a manipulative, abusive asshole like him. It’s really sad. Depresses the hell out of me. But live and let live. If she likes it...I love it. It’s her choice to live the way she does.
    March 9th, 2019 at 11:42pm
  • Lonely Luna

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    My sister is part of a DND group, and there was just drama unfolding and I had to sit there and not laugh. LMAO
    March 10th, 2019 at 02:03am
  • the god of mischief.

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    I officially have a new cuddle buddy and it’s the best thing ever because he’s not used to human contact and actively seeks it.
    I dont think he realizes that I can hear the sounds he makes when I play with his hair.
    He keeps calling me his best friend. Cry In Love
    March 11th, 2019 at 05:55pm
  • Unown

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    March 14th, 2019 at 08:54pm
  • lonely girl.

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    Carol Danvers is so so so gay and no one can convince me otherwise
    March 17th, 2019 at 08:15am