300 Confessions Way

I will always love my friends but it's just becoming increasingly clear that there are others they would do more for than me. I told them about doing a birthday trip back in January and everyone was down for it until I ask again today and one of them said she's planning a Puerto Rico trip and doesn't have any days (despite the fact that I also don't have vacation days and made it clear it's a weekend trip only). Way to choose other friends/trips over me, I guess.

I'll always remember this lol. Thankfully, other more real friends apparently are down still.

You're on thin fucking ice, dude. Not only am I going to minimize any interaction with you when you move in (which I am still mildly upset about, but I'm trying to convince myself the savings is worth it), but if you so much as breathe in Ashley's direction, I will strike you down before you even knew what hit you. My best friend is not here for your gaze, plus she's engaged.

it's a beautiful day outside, yet everyone seems to be in an asshole mood today. i am so over it

I just feel so....shitty.

I feel like crying. My gf works night shift nearly 60 hours a week Mon-Fri and she's just been told that she needs to work Saturday evenings until 11pm too.
I feel like I never see her anymore and I'm ngl it's putting a strain on our relationship. I feel lonelier at times now than when I was single.

I knew today was going to suck when I remembered it was the anniversary of MCR's break up. My suspicions were confirmed. Work sucked, I feel lonely, but I don't really feel like complaining. I hope everyone feels better than I do currently. I'm hype for this pizza I'm about to eat though, that's a big positive - and we're all about not ignoring the positives round these parts.

This past weekend was a total blast with everyone, especially my husband and him. We drank, we partied a little, we cuddled a LOT. We got called out on shit by outsiders, we called each other out on our own shit. We binged The Umbrella Academy. We cooked awesome dinners and had awesome dinners out. We fell asleep holding one another. I played with his hair so much.

And now we're going to go from seeing each other every single weekend for 4 days in a row to not seeing each other for a month. Im sad. Im already going through withdrawal. Im hung up on him whispering in my ear promises of shells and taffy and fresh caught seafood that they're going to freeze and bring back. When he gets back we have to make up for lost time, no doubt about it.

Kinda wish I didn't cancel my date yesterday b/c was looking forward to seeing her lowkey even though she's a bit full on but she is cool and would make for some fun times before she leaves in June. But our date to the aquarium next week will be super cute, I hope.

Oh yeah. I'm bi now. That's a new development.

I feel as if the last week has been out for my blood and I don't know when this string of horrible luck and unpleasant feelings will end. I finally stopped biting my nails and grew them out but I was so stressed today that I lost two of them. Having a defeated mindset really bums me out because I know life could be worse, it's way better than it was before, but certain things I used to be content with now frustrate me and I just want ~change~
But change is so scary, y'all.

The dopamine withdrawal is horrible.

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I never realized how depressed I was until something disrupted the cycle.

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two dumbass girls got fired today bc they took a video of themselves screaming & manhandling parts and then posted it on instagram. good riddance. they were bad parts, but it doesn't take away the fact that these 20 y/o's should have the common decency to not do stupid shit like that. now neither of them have jobs and my supervisor/friend got a bunch of shit from the big boss at work. she was already stressed enough as it is.

why is it that people like them complain about supervisors being 'too strict' but once they find a really lax one they treat them like trash and do dumb shit? you're the reason a lot of supervisors suck, my dudes.

My father is such an interesting blend of city and redneck.

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Ugh the boy sent me a picture of him and a fish he caught and the look on his face is so proud.

Note to self. NEVER CHECK WORK EMAILS when you have a day off. Like, literally never.

I can’t believe I actually finished my story. I didn’t think Id finish it but here we are 46 chapters later damn. My emotional ass don’t know how to deal right now, I got attached to my characters

It feels like its been an eternity. A literal eternity.

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