Calum watched when Athena’s brows furrowed and her head tilted, but he chewed on his lip nervously when he saw her frown, worried that it meant that she was still angry at him, that concern growing when she shifted away from him and removed her hand from his. If she was still angry at him, could he really blame her? After everything he’d said, after leaving without a goodbye, he was sure that he probably deserved that anger, but he was determined to make everything right again, to make up for every cruel thing he’d said to her. When she began to speak, though, and she asked who he was, he could feel his heart sinking, breaking, almost shattering, and he stared at her in mild shock, unsure of what to do or say, especially when she shifted away from him more and looked frightened of him. “I…” he started, unsure of how to explain, of what he could possibly say to her, and he could feel his eyes burning with tears, though he chewed on his lip to try to force them back, swallowing thickly as he ducked his head, trying to gather himself, because he didn’t want to make things worse for her. Clearing his throat, he took a few moments to calm himself before he lifted his gaze back to her, shaking his head slightly. “I don’t have the wrong room,” he told her quietly, his teary eyes running over her features as he took her in, examining her, before he shifted a bit, retracting his hand to avoid making her even more anxious than she already seemed to be. “I’m Calum Hood,” he explained gently, trying to be as gentle as possible in what he had to tell her, in what he had to explain, because he didn’t want to startle or frighten her, but he wanted her to know the truth, and he wondered just how terrified she was without her memories. His heart ached with the thought that she didn’t remember him, though - that she didn’t remember what they were, what they meant to each other, that she was the one person he always wanted in his life, even when he said things that made it seem otherwise, but, worst of all, that she couldn’t remember the argument that had started this all, because how was he supposed to explain that and explain how fucking sorry he was? “You’re Athena Poole. You’re my fiancee.” His eyes ran over her features for a few moments. “I’m 23, you’re 22, but, um… We started dating just after your 17th birthday and we’ve been together ever since.” He chewed on his lip for a moment, then, but settled his gaze on hers, wanting her to know that he was telling her the truth, but his tears spilled over again. “And you’re the best thing in my life, Athena. I love you with everything in me, you’re my soulmate, and I just… Even if you can’t remember, I want you to know that, okay? Because you deserve to know it and I just… I can’t lose you, Athena, I can’t…”
When Lavinia woke in the recovery room, her vision blurry at first as she slowly became more aware as the anesthetic left her body, she peered around weakly, a part of her hoping to see Luke, hoping that she’d already been taken back to her cubicle and that he would have been there, but she realized too quickly that she wasn’t in her cubicle and that there was the chance that Luke hadn’t even been informed that she was there, that she’d been hurt. And, for a moment, she thought of the possibility that he could have been informed and just hadn’t shown up - after all the cruel things they’d yelled at each other that morning, she couldn’t be sure what to expect, - but she tried to quickly force that thought from her mind despite the fact that it already caused tears to force their way past her eyes and down her cheeks. When a nurse walked in to check on her and saw that she was awake, she set up the pain relief before dealing with the sheet of paper at the end of her bed, soon getting help to cart Lavinia back to her cubicle, and Lavinia anxiously lifted her hand to swipe at her tears and she closed her eyes, almost afraid of opening her eyes again, terrified that, if she did, she’d open them in an empty room, and she wasn’t sure she could bare it.
Michael could feel his anxieties getting the better of him the longer he waited, the more time passed, and he anxiously ran his hands through his hair, occasionally tugging, scrubbing at his face, his tears still falling, leaving his cheeks almost soaked, and he could taste the salt on his lips, but all he wanted was for his lips to form the apologies he so badly wanted to tell Rae. But he knew he could only do that if she pulled through and the very thought of that reminded him that he might not get the chance to hold her again, to breathe her in, to taste her lips instead of the salt on his own, or to apologize to her. And thinking about all of that just made more rounds of tears rack his body because the last words either of them had said to each other were full of hatred and anger, and he wished he could take them all back, that he could make everything right again, that it was him who’d been in a car accident and not her, that he could take her place with any and all of this. But, with all of that, he found himself wishing that whoever had started those rumors that had forced the argument to happen would suffer a horrible fate, because maybe this could have all been avoided if those rumors, those awful lies, had never circled around to Rae. His shoulders quivering, shaking with his tears, he ducked his head, only to get distracted by the sound of somebody approaching and he lifted his gaze just in time to see the door open, his heart racing when he saw Rae getting brought in. “Rae,” he murmured almost breathlessly, his voice cracking, but he didn’t get in the way as the doctors got her into the hospital bed and set everything back up. The moment they were gone, though, he quickly moved to her side, taking her hand gently into his hand, his eyes watering once more. “Hey, baby, how are you feeling?” he asked in a quiet murmur, chewing on his lip, “I’m so sorry about this morning. God, I thought I was going to lose you and I just - when I got the call, all I could think about was everything I said before and I swear I didn’t mean a word of any of it, Rae, truly. I love you, with everything in me - I always have and I always will and I’m so, so sorry that I let you think even for a moment that I didn’t.”
Makenzie lifted her gaze to peer up at Ashton when she heard him start to speak, though seeing the tears in his eyes made the guilt in the pit of her stomach grow and, sniffling, she swiped at her eyes with slight frustration, almost angry at herself for forgetting. And, the more Ashton explained everything, the worse she felt, because how in the world could she forget somebody that she’d apparently been with for five years? Somebody who she was apparently engaged to? Somebody who seemed to truly believe that she was the love of his life? It wasn’t fair and she swallowed thickly, ducking her head slightly as she chewed harsher on her lip, wringing her hands nervously, anxiously, and she wished that whatever had happened to cause her amnesia hadn’t happened at all. “It’s nice to meet you, Ashton,” she managed eventually, clearing her throat before she lifted her gaze to him, her eyes running over his features, and she wished more than anything that she could fix her memories, force them back, because the thought of hurting this man pained her, even though she couldn’t quite understand why. “I’m sorry, I - I really don’t know what to say… I don’t… I don’t know how to make any of this better, but I wish I could, I really do.”
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