and i’ve lost who i am.

Matt reached up and pushed his fingers through her hair, moaning softly into her mouth as he pushed her back onto the bed. He moved both his hands down to grab her hips, squeezing them gently. He pulled away for a breath, looking down at her. “Fuck, I need you, Carrie,” he mumbled through quick breaths, his fingers moving to start undoing the button and zipper on her jeans.

“Don’t make me wait,” Carrie pleaded. “We both need this.” They definitely did too. The redhead needed to feel something good even if it was just for a moment and she knew Matt had been dreaming of being with her for a while now. She watched him undo her pants, helping him slid them off of her body.

Matt nodded his head, kissing her lips again before he proceeded to take off the rest of her clothes and his as well. He spread her legs, moving his hands up her thighs and squeezing them. He used his fingertips to brush over her slit, biting his lip when he felt she was wet already.

Carrie moaned out Matt’s name softly as she watched him through her half closed eyes. It had been so long since she had been with someone and now here Matt was giving her what she hasn’t realized she missed. She missed the intimacy and ecstasy she got from being with someone and having sex.

Matt watched her expression change as he began to toy with her clit, licking over his lips. He hadn’t gotten in laid in so long, it was almost painful. But he wanted to take his time and enjoy this because it was something he’d been craving for so long. He pressed his lips to hers, kissing her feverishly as he moved his fingers to dip inside of her.

Carrie moaned out Matt’s name against his lips, hating that he wasn’t already fucking her. She knew they both needed to savor the feeling but she also didn’t want to wait any longer. “Fuck me,” she pleaded. “I need you inside me now.”

Matt moaned softly at her words, pulling back to look down at her. “Do you have any condoms?” he asked, biting his lip. He didn’t have any on him, and he was sure that she probably didn’t either, but it was better to ask than to just assume.

Carrie shook her head. “I haven’t needed them,” she mumbled. She hasn’t had sex since Zack disappeared and she had just stopped taking her birth control after that happened. She had stopped doing a lot of things that used to make her happy.

Matt nodded his head. He moved between her legs, wrapping them around his waist. “What do you want me to do then?” he asked softly, pressing kisses along her jaw and her neck. “Pull out?”

Carrie nodded. She didn’t think she could handle an accidental pregnancy at that moment. She still had so many things she still needed to do with her life. “Are you okay doing that,” she asked timidly.

Matt nodded his head. He definitely didn’t want any unexpected pregnancies. He was nowhere near ready for that yet. He lined himself up at her entrance and pushed into her, moaning softly. “Fuck, you feel good,” he groaned.

Carrie moaned out Matt’s name, swearing softly under her breath as she tried to get used to the size of his length inside her. Matt was stretching her out in all the right ways and it felt amazing especially since it had been so long since she had been with anyone.

Matt moaned, gripping her hips as he began to thrust into her. He pressed his face into the crook of her neck, nipping and licking softly at her skin.

“Harder,” Carrie moaned out softly. She wanted him to mark her and leave her sore in the best ways possible. She wanted to wake up the next morning knowing her and Matt having was real and not just a dream.

Matt started to thrust into her harder, biting down on her neck as he moaned against her skin. He dug his nails into her hips, definitely leaving bruises and scars for later. “You have no idea how badly I’ve wanted you,” he mumbled.

Carrie opened her mouth wanting to tease Matt but found herself only able to moan out his name. Everything he was doing felt so good and she never wanted it to stop.

Matt couldn’t help but smirk when she moaned his name, nipping at her earlobe before he pulled back to press his forehead against hers. He let go of her hips and grabbed her hands, pinning them on the bed beside her head. He pressed his lips to hers in a heated kiss, moaning softly into her mouth. He let go of one of her hands after a moment, reaching between them to rub her clit. “Come on, baby,” he whispered into her ear. “Come for me.”

Carrie practically screamed Matt’s name when he began playing with her clit. Everything felt so good and she was so close to an orgasm that when Matt told her to come she did.

Matt groaned out when her muscles began to contract around him, quickly pulling out as his climax hit. He tilted his head back and let out a low groan as he came all over her stomach, thanking god he remembered to pull out, because he’d almost forgotten. He’d gotten so lost in how amazing the sex was that he nearly came inside of her.

Carrie moaned out softly when she felt Matt finish on her stomach. She had honestly forgotten he hasn’t been wearing a condom but she was glad he remembered to pull out.