are you afraid of being alone?

Annie Wilson
played by harley. quinn

He woke up in a cold sweat. He had nightmares almost every night now, they were recurring and always about the same thing. Rogers. He was gone. Bolting up in his bed, Bucky screamed out in frustration before looking around his dark bedroom. He let out a deep breath and dropped his head, his hair cascading down in front of his face. "It's just a nightmare." His voice came out in a whisper, but he knew it wasn't really just a nightmare. He was relieving that horrible moment every night in his sleep.

Throwing the blanket off of him, he found his way on to his feet and pushed his hair back away from his face. His bionic arm still felt unusual to him sometimes, sometimes it gave him a little shock. Making his way into the kitchen of his little apartment, he flicked on a single light that didn't do much when it came to lighting. The man walked like a robot, without thinking about it, he grabbed a glass from the cupboard and turned on the faucet. Pressing his back against the counter he lifted the glass to his lips and chugged the water before wiping his mouth with the back of his hand. He knew sleep wouldn't be an option again tonight, but he knew there was one person he could call.

The phone rang multiple times and on the fourth, he began to plead to himself in his mind that she would answer. He hadn't even though to check the time, it was well past three in the morning. His mind was already starting to come up with alternatives in case there was no answer from the other side of the line. He could for a walk, possibly find a bar that was still open. He just didn't want to be alone with himself in these walls.

When Bucky heard the phone pick up, his breath caught in the back of his throat. "Annie?" He whispered before she could even try to answer, "Did I wake you up? I'm sorry..."

Annie was left heartbroken, the moment Steve abandoned her. Oh he had said he’d be back. What a liar. As soon as she had realized he wasn’t coming back, she ran. From everyone and moved out of the compound within the week, she’d been crying for days. She didn’t want to speak to anyone, this man who she trusted and loved for a decade or so just left. Without even thinking about how this would affect her. Apparently he didn’t care, she realized that maybe Steve never loved her. She was just someone to keep him company when he was lonely. She felt used and betrayed and wasn’t sure what to do now.

Sam tried calling her so many times but she wouldn’t answer, he had mentioned how Steve passed the shield to him. Old Steve. What a bastard, Annie didn’t even want to look at him, at all. She had loved him deeply that now that turned into hate. He broke her and she could never forgive him for being so selfish. He also left behind his childhood friend, and he was the only reason Annie was still coming to the compound. Hell, Bucky had gotten his own place now.

Annie was tossing and turning when Bucky called she jumped up and reached for her phone. “Hey Buck, it’s fine you know you can call me whenever you need me.” She knew she could trust Bucky after all he was having the same abandonment issues she was. His might be different “I couldn’t sleep so you didn’t wake me up. You okay? What’s up?”

@ dezzy

Bucky was relieved to hear her voice through the speaker. He hadn't heard from anyone in a few days. He had been holed up in his new place, secluding himself for what felt like weeks.

"Just..." Bucky felt bad at just the thought of unloading all of his emotions onto her. She had lost him too, and it probably hurt her a lot more. "More nightmares ." His voice came out in a whisper, he didn't want to hear himself speak. "I keep having them."

He hadn't had a full night's sleep in months. If it wasn't something threatening their way of life, it was the sadness that followed it. "How are you holding up?" He wanted to switch the focus to her, not wanting to make her carry his issues too.

@ Harley. Quinn

Annie say up wiping the tears from her eyes she hasn’t realized she had been crying again. “Oh Bucky, I’m Sorry, want me to come over and keep you company? I know how bad they can get sometimes.” As Annie listened to Bucky she sighed “I’m heartbroken buck, I feel like a part of me is missing, we were together for so long so this came out of nowhere.”

She started to sob softly “I’m sorry Bucky I just., i can’t believe he did that, like I loved him and I’m trying to get my shit together.”

@ dezzy

Bucky hated to hear her cry, but he knew sometimes you just had to let it out. Maybe if he could learn how to shed a few tears every once in a while it would make him feel better. "I know, Annie, I know ... I think we're all still trying to get our shit together."

He was surprised to hear her invite herself over. In truth, he had been trying to figure out how to invite her himself, but he wasn't sure how without it coming out weird or inappropriate. "I would love the company, actually. I could pay for your cab?"

Bucky couldn't recall a time when he and Annie had ever spent time together alone. He didn't want it to be awkward, but at the same time, he felt like he needed someone to be there with him and he couldn't think of anyone else he'd rather have.

@ Harley. Quinn

Annie sighed, standing up as she got redressed to head to Bucky’s they both needed each other. Sam wouldn’t understand, sure he had been Steve’s sidekick or whatever, but he didn’t know him like she or Bucky did. It was deep and it hurt, now they were picking each other’s broken pieces up. Trying to mend what had been tossed aside.

Annie acceptée Bucky’s offer and onze she was at his place he came out and paid the fair. Annie always liked Bucky, he was so warm in ways people didn’t notice not even Steve. He had “rough” edges, but he was so gentle. Annie felt some type of way about Bucky. At the time it wasn’t anything more than friendship, it was so surreal because he was always so caring and selfless about things.

“Thanks Buck” she basically through her arms around him and hugged him tight, tears still in her eyes. “I’m glad we have each other,” she breathed softly, he was much taller than her. While he was at six foot something she stood at five feet and two inches.

@ dezzy

Bucky had been pacing his apartment waiting for her to arrive. When he heard a soft knock on the door he wasted no time checking through the peephole. He opened the door quickly and caught Annie in his arms. "Don't cry." He whispered in her ear, having caught a glance of her glassy eyes. He brushed her hair back, continually running his fingers through the strands.

"Let me make us some coffee." His hands drifted down her sides, holding her for a moment by the hips before he let her go. He had to fight the urge to keep holding her. He had to fight back the emotions he was feeling, it wasn't right to put them on her. She was still trying to heal from losing Steve and so was he.

He led her into the kitchen and began to brew a pot of coffee. He needed something to keep himself distracted. "I haven't slept right in days," he told her.

@ Harley. Quinn

Annie stayed in Bucky’s arms for a few moments she felt so secure and comfortable with Bucky.she could smell his aftershave and cologne. She looked up at his tired blue eyes and smiled weakly. Bucky has been nothing but good to her, such a good friend. She couldn’t understand why Steve would leave the one person he had spent years looking for and even starting a civil war for just to abandon him. She just didn’t get it. All for a damn woman he barely knew in the forties.

She nodded and followed Bucky to the kitchen, Annie didn’t want to rebound on Bucky. I’d she was feeling things she wanted to make sure they weren’t just something out of sadness and rebound. Annie sat down “I haven’t slept much either Buck I get it, I’m so exhausted and sad ugh.”

@ dezzy

Bucky listened to the coffee maker, hearing it heat up and start to brew. "I don't know how to get past this." He leaned against the counter, staring out the window in his kitchen. It was hard for him to break down his walls, be vulnerable in front of someone else. What if she disappeared too?

Once the coffee was finished, he grabbed two cups from the cupboard and poured them both half full. "Sugar or anything?" He asked before sliding the mug in front of her before taking a seat next to her at the table.

@ Harley. Quinn

Annie looked up at Bucky, “I know how you feel, he left me too Buck, I wanted to start a family with him.” She whispered, tears were welling up on her eyes again. “I wanted to marry the bastard, then he just decides I’m not good enough for him and goes back to that woman.” She hissed. Annie sighed “sorry Buck I just feel so bad.”

She was trying not to get so angry but it was difficult “just creamer o guess. Thanks Buck. You’re the only other person to understand what this is like..”

@ dezzy

Without thinking, Bucky placed his hand over hers. "Don't think like that. I'm sure something different was going through his mind. I know that's not helpful, but don't think it was because you weren't good enough." He looked down at his hand placed over hers and he felt a weird tightness in his chest. Pulling his hand away quickly he stood up to grab the creamer from the fridge. He placed it down in front of her before sitting back down.

This time, he kept his hands firmly around his cup of coffee. He didn't want to make her uncomfortable.

@ Harley. Quinn

Annie sighed softly “I can’t help it Buck, I feel abandoned, I just didn’t think he’d be capable of doing something like that.” She looked up at Bucky, “then why would he go back? Leave us here, after everything you went through ugh.. let’s not talk about Steve anymore..”

“Do you want me to stick around, we both clearly need sleep.”

@ dezzy

"Do you want to stay?" The words just rolled off his tongue without giving it much thought. He immediately cursed himself in his head. He shouldn't have said that, but it was too late now. "I could make the couch up for you or you could take my bed."

He looked up at her, a few strands of his dark hair falling in front of his face. He was hoping she would accept his offer. Maybe not being alone in his apartment would help him sleep.

@ Harley. Quinn

Annie smiled softly, she pushed the strands of hair out of Bucky’s hair with her fingers “I’d like to stay, thanks. I mean either way is fine, I mean we could even share the bed if you.. want. Sorry that was weird” she rambled. Her cheeks glowing pink. Annie finished her coffee “thanks for listening to me and for the coffee .”

She wasn’t sure why these feelings were coming up, she swallowed hard , not sure how to feel about this.

@ dezzy

"No, if you want that's okay!" Bucky practically jumped at the chance. He wouldn't try anything, he just thought it would be so helpful to feel someone close to him. He was sure it would help him sleep better.

"Let me go grab some more blankets and get it all fixed up." He lifted his coffee up to his lips and took another sip before he stood up and disappeared to the hallway. He kept all his extra blankets and pillows there.

@ Harley. Quinn

Annie smiled softly at Bucky “great, do you have something i can sleep on then? I didn’t bring anything with me.” She hoped she would sleep better this way, Bucky just made her feel less lonely and sad.

Annie nodded as she followed Bucky after putting her mug in the sonó, she looked st his apartment very clean and organized. You could tell he was in the military at some point because of how best the place was. “Thanks Buck”

@ dezzy

Bucky felt his face heat up at the thought of Annie wearing something of his, but he quickly shook the thought from his mind and walked back into the living room, holding the pillows and blanket in his arms. "Yeah, I should have something, come on." He turned away to lead her into his bedroom. He placed the pillows at the head of the bed and spread the blanket out for her, before he turned to his closet and rifled through it.

"How about these?" He turned around, holding out an old black t-shirt of his and a pair of sleeping shorts. "They might be a big baggy on you, but... I don't have much else."

@ Harley. Quinn

Annie smiled taking the shirt, “thanks the shirt will do fine I don’t need the shorts” she smiled softly. “You’re muscular and I’m not it’s to be expected “ she giggled softly. Before turning around and began to undress, she was completely comfortable with Bucky. “Let me know if I’m making you uncomfortable with me undressing ans I’ll uh hide in your closet?” She let out a laugh.

Annie hasn’t laughed in awhile so this was nice forgetting why she was so sad. Bucky made the pain and numbness disappear for some reason and you’d think his presence would make it worse. He was Steve’s best friend after all, but Bucky wasn’t like Steve. He cared.

@ dezzy

Bucky wasn't able to make a sound as he watched her. He just stood, with his lips slightly parted watching Annie undress. He took a few steps back towards the bed and slowly slid himself on to it, his eyes never leaving the beautiful woman in his room.

Was he dreaming? "You're not making me uncomfortable." He told her as his eyes ran along her curves, just moments before his shirt draped over her frame. He was finally able to pick his jaw up off the floor and look away. Bucky hoped she hadn't seen him staring like some creep.

@ Harley. Quinn