I Am You

@Im.JB

I helped my best friend out of her chair and we hooked arms as we walk out of the restaurant with the others. I had something planned for Carmen and I when everybody else would go back home. Carmen was leaving to go back tomorrow and I was going to miss her. Carmen was ready to head to her hotel but I pulled her towards the roof. "Felix what is going on?" She asked and I smiled at her. "Star gazing from the rooftop." I said as I watched her eyes light up. "Over the city lights." I say walking her to the elevator. We kept our arms hooked together as the elevator went up. I had Yang Jeong-in and Lee Min-ho come up here earlier to set everything up. I couldn't knock the smile off my face. Tonight was going to be a special night.

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I had fallen asleep video chatting with Han Jisung, my best friend. I didn't expect to be still on videochat with him as he had fallen asleep too. I watched him sleep for awhile then heard some noises on his end so I ended our video chat. He was allowed to have friends and people knew about how close I was to him well with all the other guys as well. I got up and stretched then headed to the kitchen. I started the coffee and poured myself a bowl of cereal as I waited for my coffee. I had just sat down on the couch when someone knocked on the door. I stood up and smoothed my shirt out and brushed my hair a bit. I walked to the door and opened it. "My bestest of friend. You ended our chat?" Han flung his arms around me into a hug. I laughed and hugged him back. I forgot him and Bang Chan was coming over to hang out. "Where is Christopher?"

@ mitty xx felix

I smiled as Felix led me up to the roof top of the hotel I am staying at to star gaze. I had been in Korea for a week and a half now, so I could visit Felix and spend time with him in person since it's been a while, but tonight was my last night here before I would fly sometime in the morning to go back home in New York. I kept my arm hooked with his and I leaned closer to him as we rode the elevator all the way to the top. "This has been so nice, being able to spend time with you. I know I'm going to miss you and your freckles so much when I go back home." I said as I rest my chin on his shoulder, then sigh softly. Soon I felt him let go of my arm and grabbed my hand, instantly intertwining our fingers together, making me smile even more, but also making my stomach flutter with butterflies. I've started developing feelings for Felix a few months ago, but I never acted on them because I knew he couldn't date due to how strict his agency is about dating when it comes to their artists.

Anyway, Felix and I made it to the roof top and I followed him out of the elevator, but frozed when I saw the little set up that was there. "F-Felix?" She managed to say as she looked in awe.

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"I actually showed up here on time, and you only ask about him and not me?" I said, giving Jocelyn a fake pout. But then I let out a small chuckle when he heard her laugh and asked about him. "Christopher will be here in a few. He was still getting ready as I left." I said and then plopped onto the couch, placing his feet on top of the coffee table. "Did you get any sleep?" I asked as I eyed her body up and down, admiring her beauty and wishing to myself how much I want her to be my girl. Unfortunately I was chicken to say anything and I just didn't think that Jocelyn would even like me like that.

@Im.JB

"Yes?" I chuckled softly as we walked over to the little set up. "You can thank Lee Know and I.N for the set up. Thats where they were the first half of our dinner." I said as I helped her sit down on the blanket. I sat down beside her and we laid back, looking back at the night sky. I looked over at her as she was staring up at sky. "So beautiful." I whispered softly causing her to look over and catch me staring. She never said anything but I could tell she was blushing. "Carmen, can I ask you something?" I asked before she nodded. I pulled her up to sit up and I grab both of her hands. "We've known each other for sometime yet and I'd say you are one of my bestest friends but I have feelings that just go past friendship. Will you be my girlfriend?" I asked looking at our linked hands then back into her eyes. I was so nervous she would say no because of the long distance.

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"Yeah, man. Make yourself at home, too." I laugh as I saw him frown slightly when I said man. I sit down next to him, my shorts a little shorter but I wasn't about to point out the obvious. I rest my head on his shoulder after I picked up my now soggy cereal. I made a weird face when I took a bite. I got up and walked to the kitchen. "Thanks now I have soggy cereal." I teased him. He walked over to me and I couldn't help but wonder if he checked me out. I mean why would he do that. We are best friends, no matter how much I want more.

@ mitty xx felix

I was a little confused on why Felix would have had Min-ho and Jeong-in set up this display, but then again she remembered that she was leaving in the morning and maybe Felix wanted my last night here in Korea to be special. I smiled and looked up at the stars and let out a soft sigh in content when. I smiled in agreement when Felix made the comment about the stars being beautiful, but I didn't realize he was talking about me until I saw that he was looking at me instead of the night sky, making me blush. Soon my hands were in his and our fingers intertwined once again and I was sitting up now as he began to speak up. I was now at a loss for words, because Felix had asked me out. I wanted this, but I thought us being together as a couple could never happened because of his agency and because of their distance. I was sure that we could keep our relationship away from his agency and to the public in general, especially since we were the type of people who like to keep a low profile. Distance may be hard, but if they were able to make it work while they were friends, I'm sure we can make it work even now.

So to answer him, I nodded and leaned forward to press my lips softly against his. "Yes, I would love to be your girlfriend."

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"You're such a guy." I teased back, trying to cover myself up so that I wouldn't reveal my feelings towards her. I know that she was just being playful like she is normally when we hang out and it really isn't a big deal, but because my feelings for her are more than just friendly it just sucks that she may never actually have those same feelings for me. Not wanting to make her suspicious of my behavior, I just smirked and watched her get up to go to the kitchen. "Make me something too. I'm starved" I said dramatically, but my eyes were checking her ass out in those shorts that barely covered her supple ass, making hard to keep the groan in my throat so that she wouldn't be suspicious.

@ Im.JB

I grinned widely when she agreed to be my girlfriend. I leaned into her and pressed my lips against her softly. I was the happiest guy alive right now. She made me that way. I cupped her face as we sat there, making out for a while then she pulled back and looked at me. "We just have to keep our relationship quiet. Are you okay with that?" I rubbed my thumb over her cheek gently as we stared into each others eyes.

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I frowned a bit when he called me a guy but I shrugged it off. I walked tonthe doorway of the kitchen and folded my arms. "Are your legs broken or something?" I teased him when he asked to make him something. He looked back at me and grinned. My eyes widened when he jumped up. I turned around and walked quickly through the kitchen, down the hall, and to my room. Trying to find a hiding spot.

@ mitty xx felix

I smile as we broke our kiss and admire his features, my smile growing as I see his freckles that I adore. It was one of the things made me fall for him. I look at him as he spoke. "I know and I understand. I am okay with us keeping our relationship private." I say and lean into his touch as his thumb grazed my cheeks gently. "Stay with me tonight. I want to spend the last few hours before my flight with you."

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I laugh when she asked if my legs were broken. "Nope, they are just fine." I say and jump up to my feet, but I give her devious smirk. "Run" I warn her, giving her a head start. I take off her after. I grab her before she could hide and placed her on the bed with me on top of her. "Too slow." I say and let my eyes roam her body.

@ Im.JB

I kissed her lips gently and nodded. "Of course I'll stay with you tonight." I said as we laid back and looked up at the sky for a little bit longer. I didn't want this night to end. I had a beautiful girl in my arms. Not just any girl but my girl. She was finally mine. I pulled her closer into my chest until I felt her yawn. "Want to go back to your hotel room?" I asked her and rubbed her back gently.

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I laughed loudly as he caught me before I could hide and he put me on my bed with him on top of me. I looked up at him, blushing bright red. I tried to hide it but he held my arms above my head. If anybody were to come in here they would think that we were about to make out or more. I looked down between us where our hips were pressed together. "Han..."

@ mitty xx felix

I smile as I look at my boyfriend. "Yeah let's go. It's a little chilly." I say and kissed his cheek and smile. I let him pull me up and lead us to my hotel room. Once we were inside, I sat down on the edge of the bed and smile when Felix stepped in between my legs. My arms wrap around his neck. "I am the luckiest girl in the world." I say and lean up to press my lips to his.

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This position I am with Jocelyn was what I wanted. I love her and I wanted to let her know so bad, but I didnt want to ruin anything that we have if she doesnt feel the same. When i heard her say my name, i look back down at us and cleared my throat as I removed myself from her quickly. "Sorry" I say, but then try to act normal. "So are you gonna make me breakfast?" I teased.

@ Im.JB

My lips were attached to hers for what seem like hours but I knew it wasn't that long. "I'm the luckiest guy in the world. You are so beautiful, Carmen." I say cupping her face in my hands. I press light kisses all over her face. I pushed her back onto her back and crawled over on top of her carefully. My heart melted when I heard her giggle softly. I kissed her gently on the lips as I tried to keep things behaving.

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"Uhhh no! I'm going back to sleep." I laughed as I rolled over onto my side, facing away from him as I blushed even brighter. Its moments like these that I think he might like me but I know he couldn't have feelings for me. We have been best friends for so long. "You can make yourself at home like you always do, man." I was only pretending to get a rise out of him.

@ mitty xx felix

I giggle as Felix kept kissing all over my face as he leans me back against the bed and him hovering my body. "And you're so handsome." I say as cup his cheeks with my hands. "I wish I wasnt going home, but I know we are going to make this work. Plus with us being together, it will give me the opportunity to come visit more. Hopefully during your downtime you'll be able to fly to visit me." I say and lean up to capture his lips with mine.

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I playfully roll my eyes at her, "Yes, but I'm a guest and you make the best breakfast." I say then move back over to her and flip her back onto her back. "Come on, or else I'll drag you out myself. You know that I will remember the last time?" I say with a wink.

@ Im.JB

I laid down next to her as we kissed, my hands roaming her body carefully. I didn't want to push her into anything too fast but I really wanted this night to be special. I kissed along her jaw and down to her neck, nibbling softly and sucking gently. I could hear her little gasps and whimpers snd knew she was enjoying my moves. I pulled back, looking at her and licked my lips. "Can I make this night even more special, gorgeous? " I leaned in and kissed her nose.

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"Oh okay, big boy. What you going do...spank me?" I climbed out of my bed, looking back at him then walking out of my room and back to the kitchen. "What do you want to eat? Also, shouldn't Bang Chan be here already?" I looked at the clock on my kitchen wall. I turned around and saw him standing in the doorway, looking at me with a grin on his face. Him and his smile seriously melts my heart. I wish I could get up the nerve to tell him my true feelings for him but I didn't want to ruin what we had. He was so special to me already as my best friend.

@ mitty xx felix

Soft moans and giggles escape my lips as I felt his lips move from my down my jaw and neck. My hands would roam under his shirt, feeling his warm skin and the slight muscles he had. I was enjoying his loving touches and I'm sure that Felix could tell. I brought my hands back to his shoulders as he spoke. I had an idea of what he wanted to and sure their relationship was fresh, but she wanted to feel him as much as she can tonight. "Please" I say to him, a tone of desire escaping her lips but also the same desire was in her eyes, giving him permission.

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I smiled when Jocelyn gave in and went into the kitchen to make me food. "He'll be here. You know him he likes to take his sweet ass time." I chuckle. "You should fix me my favorite, like always." I say, knowing that she knew what I meant.

"What do you mean i take my sweet ass time?" Christopher says as he walks inside the apartment.

@ Im.JB

My hands moved up under her shirt slowly and carefully. I didn't want to spook her too much but I couldn't wait to feel her come undone beneath me. He slowly tugged her shirt up as he leaned down to kiss her stomach lightly. He pull her shirt off snd tossed it to the ground next to the bed. I kissed my way up between her breast and back to her neck. I kissed all over her exposed skin and I could her little laughs as I hit a ticklish spot when I kissed down to her stomach.

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I turned back to the fridge, blushing as Bang Chan walked in probably catching our light flirting together. He knew about my feelings for Han. I bent down to grab the ingredients for Han's favorite breakfast food. I heard one of them hit the other one. I knew Bang Chan smacked Han when Han said ouch. "Hey, no fighting or no food." I say turning back to them as Bang Chan winked at me. I shook my head, rolling my eyes. I glanced over at Han and he was frowning. He probably thinks I like Christopher with how close I am with him too.

@ mitty xx felix

Moans and meals escape my lips as Felix was kissing down my body after removing my shirt. My eyes followed him, a giggle coming from me when he kissed a ticklish spot. However I noticed that he stop and I met my eyes with his. His lips were at the hem of my panties, but he had this look in his eyes, asking for my permission but also with lust. I nodded before softly speaking. "Please." I begged softly.

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I saw the way Jocelyn smiled at Christopher when he winked at her. I knew my friend knew about my feelings for Jocelyn, but it hurts seeing her smile at him like that. I sighed and took out my phone pretending I received a text. "I gotta make a phone call. I'll be outside." I say to excuse myself, so I can get myself straight.

@ Im.JB

I looked up at her before hooking my fingers in the waistband of her panties and sliding them down her legs. I pressed light kisses against her thighs. I smirked softly as I heard her moan softly. I couldn't wait to hear her gasps my name in pleasure soon. My fingers traces like feathers over her thighs as I pushed her legs apart a little further.

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I watched as Han stepped out of my apartment. Christopher walked over to me and grabbed a cup then poured him some coffee. "I wish I could just tell him how I feel." I frowned as I started plating up the food. Christopher flung an arm over my shoulders and kissed the top of my head. "You are one of the best. Thank you for always being here." I looked up at him and I heard a door slammed. I jumped and saw Han standing there.

@ mitty xx felix

I watched him remove my panties and place light kisses against my inner thighs. My moans were becoming a little louder as I felt the tingles go up to my core. "Felix" I moaned his name as I felt his lips move closer to my heart.

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I stayed outside for about five minutes to get my emotions in check before going back in. However when I walked in I saw Christopher kissing Jocelyn's forehead and hearing her say that he was one of the best. I dont know why, but hearing that made me mad. So I slammed the door shut. "What the fuck Bang Chan" I growled out lowly before turning back around and leaving the apartment without another word.

@ Im.JB

I smirk as I heard her moan my name. It sounds so sexy and I couldn't wait to have her unleashing under me. I kept my eyes on her as I slip my tongue between her folds as flicked over her core immediately hearing a soft whimper in pleasure. I couldn't believe after all this time I was finally getting a taste of her.

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"Han, wait." I rushed after him as he reached the elevator. I grabbed his arm but he pulled away from me. "Han, please. Bang Chan is one of my best friends. You can't be mad..." I said as he turned around real fast and glared at me. I stepped back as the elevator door dinged then opened. "I'm sorry."

@ mitty xx felix

The moment I felt his tongue swipe against the slit of my core before pushing it inside, my eyes rolled into the back of my head as my moans became louder from the pleasure. "Oh my god Felix!" My toes curl and mewls continue to leave my lips as Felix keeps pleasuring my core.

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"Yeah but you like him more." I grit, my glare is harsh as I was seething with anger. "More than me...I-I should've know you wouldnt feel the same for me." I continued, wishing that the elevator would hurry the fuck up. I was then grateful when the doors open. I pulled my arm away from her grip and shook my head as she said sorry. I didnt say anything else, but kept my angry gaze on her until the elevator door closed.

@ Im.JB

I wrapped my mouth around her core and sucked gently for a few moments then flicked my tongue over hers quickly and looked up at her, watching her makes noises I've always dreamed of hearing. I felt her grab my head and tug on my hair only making me work my mouth against her faster and harder.

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"Han, please." I cry out just as the door closes and he disappears. What did he mean feel the same. I stood there until the elevator came back up but frown when it was empty. I turned around and headed back into my apartment. Tears running down my face. "Did you guys finally...oh Han is gone?" Christopher said stopping in the hallway. "He thinks we have something going on. Christopher, do you know something?" I asked getting the feeling he knows something.