I Am You

@ mitty xx felix

Jordan and I were in my living room watching tv and drinking wine. "I needed this." I say as I sip my glass but then I heard the buzzer for my apartment. "Did you order anything?" I ask my friend.

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I rolled my eyes at the waiter. "What he doesnt know, is that I get to have you in my bed..well in your bed every night." I say, knowing that he could hear me.

@ Jay.B

I bounced my knee the whole flight. I was so nervous about seeing her. I knew she had only been gone a few weeks but I was missing her like crazy. Luckily she gave me her address last time I was in New York. BangChan went to the hotel right away and here I stood waiting to be let into her apartment. I was shaking and my palms were sweating.

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"Han!" I slapped his chest playfully as we stood up to leave but I couldn't help to laugh when I saw the waiters eyes widen when he looked back at us briefly. I followed Han out of the restaurant and we walked a few blocks to the park but we kept our decents.

@ mitty xx felix

When Jordan said he didnt ordered anything, I shrugged and got up to open the door. And when I opened the door I froze when I saw Felix. "F-Felix? What are you doing here?" I say with a soft voice.

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I laugh at Jocelyn's and the waiter's reaction, but smirk. "That what the guy gets." I laugh softly. "I think he's jealous though." I tease.

@ Jay.B

"Surprise! " I say waving my hands up when I heard her say my name. I went to go into hug her but I saw a guy sitting on the couch. "Uhh did I interrupt something?" I step back feeling my heart break a little. Did I really hurt her enough to make her run into another guys arms?

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"Why would he be jealous?" I asked as we sat on the bench and watch the peeople walk by and the kids play. I looked over at him, smiling. We didn't stay there long. We headed back to my place. I knew he had to go soon but I just need a hug from him quickly.

@ mitty xx felix

I look at Felix then at Jordan, before sighing, knowing what he was hinting. "He's my best friend, Felix. Besides you're the one who stopped talking to me for two weeks. He's only here to hang out and cheer me up and he's gay. So no I'm not cheating on you...I thought you knew me better than that." I say sadly, feeling hurt.

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"He's jealous because I'm with you instead of him." I tease. "I mean have you seen how hot I am. Everyone wants to be with me." I joked, although it was kinda true since the fans were a little obsessed. "But just know my heart and my love belongs to you only."

@ Jay.B

"I never said you were cheating. How am I suppose to know? I've been trying to get ahold of you for the last two days but nothing." I say folding my arms and looking at her. I look behind her to see Jordan stand up and walk over. "I guess since I'm such a shit boyfriend I'll just leave." I turn to leave.

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"Of course everybody wants you. Have you looked in the mirror? I'm having a hard time keeping my hands to myself as I unlock my door. I know we couldn't do anything but maybe make out for a bit. I was totally fine with that. I opened my door and felt him quickly push me inside and shut the door.

@ mitty xx felix

I felt my face scrunch slightly in anger. "Yeah well i have been trying to reach you for two weeks and i havent heard anything from you. Dont turn this on me Felix. You made me feel like you were having second guesses about our relationship." I say but then turned around to run into my room, crying. I slammed my bedroom door shut and locked it.

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I smirked as soon as we got inside her apartment. Once the door was closed, I pinned her against the wall, immediately crashing my lips onto hers. "God you are so fucking sexy." I moan into the kiss.

@ Jay.B

"Shit." I sighed, rushing into the apartment and followed her to her room but she had got to it and locked it. "Babe, please open up. I'm sorry." I knocked on the door. I pressed my ear to the door and listened. "Please open up." I ask knocking again.

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I gasps softly as soon as the door was closed he pinned me against the wall and his lips were on mine. I wrapped my arms around his neck as we stood there kissing. My fingers found there way to his hair as we make out. I could feel him against me and so badly wanted to take care of him. "You are so hot."

@ mitty xx felix

I didnt move move from my bed, still upset that he accused me of cheating on him. Jordan got up from the couch. "Hey, man." Jordan says softly. "Let's go sit in the livingroom and just wait until Carmen calms down, okay." He says to Felix, hoping that he and Felix could start on the right foot.

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"No baby, you are." I moan against her lips as we continue our heated makeout session. However, my phone begins to ring and I sighed in slight annoyance. But I knew it was the guys calling me to hurry up. "I'm sorry babe. I gotta go, but I'll come back here when I'm done."

@ Jay.B

I didn't move from my spot for a few moments then sighed and walked into the living room and sat down on the couch. I put my head in my hands as I tried hard not to cry. I didn't want to hurt her. I knew she would never cheat on me. This was all my fault.

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I pouted softly but nodded. "Alright babe. I'll have a surprise for you waiting." I say pecking his lips and smirk. I look up at him as I pulled my arms away from him and kissed his cheek lightly. I had something plan for him when he came back tonight and I couldn't wait.

@ mitty xx felix

"Hey man, I'm sorry we're meeting like this. I knew you that you wouldnt cheat on her. Although we havent met, I can tell that you love my best friend. And she loves you too, more than anything in the world." Jordan tells him and pats his shoulders. "I know you mean well dude. It just didnt go as plan."

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I smirk, giving her a big wet kiss on her lips. "That should last us until I come back over tonight." I promised, but grabbed her hips gently pulling her towards me. "I cant wait for my surprise. But until then, be good." I tell her, placing another kiss on her lips.

@ Jay.B

I put my head in my hands and shook my head some. "What should I do? Do I leave? Do I stay?" How long will she be pissed at me?" I kind of thought out loud. I didn't want to leave until we fix this. I had to fix this. She can't be mad at me.

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I kiss him back a few times then watched him walk out of my door. I frowned softly as I turned around to head in for a nice bath. I grab my speaker, some wine, and a book as I filled the tub. I left my phone in my room and went in to relax for an hour. I heard my phone ding a few times so I hurried to get out. I rushed my room and looked. I smiled as Min-ho sent me a photo of Han working hard. I saved it to my phone. I laid in my bed wearing only a towel. Thinking I'd have time but tiredness washed over me andd I fell asleep.

@ mitty xx felix

Jordan looks at him "You should stay. She wont stay mad for long I promise. She'll realize this was just a misunderstanding." He says, and pat his shoulders. "Let's go talk to her. Because I know deep down that she is happy to see you."

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By the time me and the guys finished working on the music for the night, it was 7 in the morning. I didnt realize we were going to work that late because I didnt get the chance to text Jocelyn in between session to let her know I would be coming over later than I said. However, when our manager told us that we were free for day, I got my stuff and headed straight to Jocelyn's apartment.

@ Jay.B

I nod quickly then stood up to go to her room and talk to you. I don't want her to be mad at me. I just want to be able to hold her, kiss her, and tell her I love her a lot. I knocked softly and waited, looking over at Jordan then back at the door. My eyes were probably red because I was crying and I hurt her.

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I woke up and stretched then sat up. I looked around realizing I fell asleep then got super sad when I saw the time was 7am. He never showed up. I looked through my phone and got no text messages. I got up and dressed. I worry about a shower later. I went into the kitchen to grab some food then went to the living room and sat there in silence eating my food. Once I was finished with my food. I sat it on the table then laid out on my couch and scroll though my phone.

@ mitty xx felix

I wiped my eyes with my hands to get rid of any tears before sitting up in my bed. I heard a knock on my bedroom door, knowing that it was either Felix or Jordan. I figured it was better for me to answer the door and talk things out with Felix. So, I got up from my bed and opened the door. As soon as I saw Felix, I hugged him, burying my face into his chest. "I'm sorry for freaking out on you Lix. I just want you to know that I would never cheat on you." I say, but more tears fell from my eyes, making his shirt wet from where I buried my face.

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I finally made it to Jocelyn's apartment and knocked on her door. I just hope she isnt upset at me and that she knows that I wouldn't leave stand her up like that, but if she is upset at me, I did buy her flowers and breakfast hoping that would get her to forgive me. When I saw the door open, I sigh softly glad to see that she was still home, but I immediately begin to apologize. "Hey baby. I'm so sorry for not coming over like I said I would and that I didn't text you back. Our manager didnt give us much of a break. But I'm here now and I'm want to make it up to you."

@ Jay.B

"No baby, you don't need to apologize. I need to apologize to you for being a dick. I accused you of cheating and I know you would never do such a thing. I'm so sorry. Please forgive me." I cupped her face, wiping her cheek with my thumb as she cries. "I love you and I'm so so sorry for making you cry." I kiss her forehead and pull her close to my chest again.

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I wrapped my big blanket around me tighter and stepped aside to let him inside. "It's alright, Han. I ended up falling asleep so I wouldn't have been much fun." I shrugged. I walked to my living room and sat down on the couch. "A text would of been nice to wake up to though but I understand." I looking up at him. He looked so tired. I pulled him down next to me and held him. "You need to sleep, baby." I wrapped him up with me in the blanket.

@ mitty xx felix

I nod my head when he asks me to forgive him. "Its okay Felix. I love you." I say as he pulled me into his chest.

Jordan smiled at the two. "See, everything turned out okay." He says. "I'll let you two have your time together. We'll have our girls night in another times, sweetheart." He tells me and I went to give him a hug before going back to Felix's arms. "Take care of my best friend, Felix. It was nice to meet youm" he says and waves before leaving my apartment.

I look at Felix and kissed his chest. "Let's go lay down in my bed. I know you must be exhausted."

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"But I want to give you what I promised." I say, but was mixed with a yawn. I mentally cursed at myself. I was really exhausted, but I wanted to please her. "Okay, okay we'll take a quick nap, but when I'm up, your pussy is mine." I smirk deviously with a seductive wink. I lay down next to her and placed a few kisses against her lips. "I love you."

@ Jay.B

"I'm just so happy to be able to hold you in my arms." I kissed the top of her head before we walked into her room. "I love you too, baby. I'm here for a week." I say tugging my jacket off and placing it on her chair. I looked at her and she looked so beautiful.

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I smack his back playfully as he said what he did and I couldn't stop laughing. I wrapped my arms around him and held him. "I love you too, Han." I say as I kiss his neck gently, biting on his neck softly. I smirk when I heard a noise come from his mouth.

@ mitty xx felix

I smiled and gave him a tight hug before he let go to remove his jacket and shoes. I moved towards my bed, I was only wearing one of Felix's t-shirts that I stole from him and panties. Although the shirt was long, it was short enough for Felix to see the bottom curve of my ass underneath the shirt. "I get to have you all to myself for a week?" I say with before climbing on top of my bed, resting on my knees. "I cant wait to show you around, but I know I have to be careful so our relationship is not out to the public. But for now, I want you right here with me." I say and fist his shirt, gently pulling him down to me.

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I laughed when she slapped my back. I love teasing her like this because I know she enjoys my dirty side. I then growl when she bit my neck. "Woman, we wont be getting any sleep if you keep doing that. Because I have enough stamina to fuck you all day." I smirk and flip us over so that I was hovering over her.

@ Jay.B

"You in my shirt is so damn sexy but I really think it would look better on the floor." I grab her waist and pulled her closer to me after we fell back on her bed. I hovered over her as I kissed her deeply. I pinned her wrist above her head lightly as I work my mouth to her neck, biting gently. "You are so fucking beautiful, baby girl " I growled into her ear.

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I blush bright red and wrap my arms around his neck. "You are so naughty, Han." I laugh softly then pulled him down to kiss him. I remove my arms around his neck and slid my hands under his shirt. I rub my hands up and down his torso as we made out. I pulled his shirt up to try and get it off.