Write a letter to yourself...

New letter to myself.

Dear Dru one year from now,

Did you get out of Nebraska yet? How did the lawsuit go? Did you find him? Is he beautiful? Do you have a roommate? How big of a whore are you now? Are you still in the same bandom? You better be. New tattoos? New ones planned? How much more weed do you smoke now? (At the time of this, when you could get it, no more than twice a day.) What job do you have?

Are you seeing anyone? Screwing anyone? A few someones?

Are you any closer to the threads and strings, the moon and the pulse? Where's the rabbit-hole, Dru? Did you find it? Are you looking? Has the metaphor come undone?

Right now you have 274 stories on Mibba? How many do you have when you reread this? What's changed with the way you write? More or less sex? More or less weed? Have you reverted back to present tense or still mostly past? Dabbling in new pairings? Still mostly oneshots?

How many times have you seen Panic now? Any new favorite bands? Last concert you went to? Next concert you'll go to? Met any internet friends IRL? Have any friends IRL? Gotten so drunk you blacked out again? (Please say no.)

What are you hoping for? What do you wish for on 11:11? Is there any need for 11:11 wishes or are you giving them away? I'll pray that next year's letter has better answers than this year's.

Love,
yourself

Dear Caitee in a year from now,

First off, are you still on Mibba? Or did school become too busy and you never came back? - not really. we came back for a bit after HSC, but then uni and work and tumblr got in the way.
Did you do as well in your HSC as you hoped? - yeah, actually we exceeded my (low) expectations.
Did you get into the Creative Arts (Creative Writing)/Communication and Media Studies corse at Wollongong uni? - yes we did! go us! it's pretty freaking sweet.
Did you keep all your subjects for the HSC? - yah. though we probably could have dropped ext maths.

Are you still friends with David, Jackson and Nick?
Are you still friends with Ellie, Lisa, Caroline, Irene, Brooke, Michelle and/or Ashleigh?
What about the other guys and girls?
- I'm going to answer the above three questions as one. David, Jackson, Lisa and Nick become your four favorite people in the world. You're still good friends with all the other girls, but you're going to feel like the other four are your only true friends. As of right now, David, Jackson and Lisa are still your best friends, you talk to Nick still but not as much as before, and you're better friends with Brooke cause you always see her at uni.
Have you made new friends? - yesh. we have some pretty cool new uni friends.
What about Daniel? How are you two? - oh please. sometimes I forget he exists.

Have you lost weight? - yes, actually. thank you Weight Watchers.
Are you more active? -

Have you found someone special? - not really
Did you get a boyfriend at all in the past year? - nope, but we dated Natalie for a while.

Did you end up getting glasses? - nope.
Have you got a job? - yes! we work at the Kareela fruit shop.
Have you got your P’s? - hells yeah baby.

How’s your singing going? - eh. I still sing, just don't take lessons anymore
What about guitar? - I play every now and then. ukelele's my baby now.
What music are you into now? Any new bands? - SONS OF ADMIRALS BITCHES! well, Alex Day, Charlie McDonnell, Tom Milsom and Eddplant, but also all forms of their collaborations.
Are you still obsessed with Paramore, Green Day, FOB, FTSK and NeverShoutNever? - FOB, FTSK and NSN; not so much. Green Day and Paramore; of course we still love them.
What about musicals? Still obsessed with them? - silly question, of course we are! just look at the 2000+ musical songs on our iTunes.
Been in any lately? - currently in Seussical. Also, we have to remember to audition for Avenue Q.

Have you finished Join The Band? -
What else have you written? - a few short stories and we're working on a novel.
Have you written a song? - yup. on uke.

How are you with your sexuality? - bisexual and proud.
Have you talked to anyone about it? - yeah, I'm pretty open.

How did RENT and your last MAD Night go? pretty freaking awesome actually.
How did the rest of yr 12 go? - worst year of my life. but I survived.

Did you go to anymore concerts? - nope.
Have you met anyone famous? - , nope.

Have you made a decision about your beliefs? - atheist.
Are you and others happy with that decision? - I am and I think, now, that that's all that really matters.
How much of that decision was influenced by Paramore and Christofer Drew? - none, obviously.

How many posters do you have now? - seven. but don't worry, we have an epic wall of stuff.
Have you got your nose pierced yet? - nope
What about a tattoo? - soon.

Have you done anything I wouldn’t be proud of? - not long after we write this, we start cutting ourselves. we've stopped for a little while now, but yeah. like I said, worst year of my life.

But most importantly, are you happy? - sometimes...lets leave it at that.

LIVELAUGHLOVE
No Day But Today

Love yourself a year ago (5/4/2010).
xxo.

losing control.:

Dear future me,

How's it going? Decided how you're getting out of here yet?

Are you still dealing with the step-dad? Has he changed at all?

Are you on your way to graduating? Please don't tell me you failed any classes.

Have you decided where you are going to school and what you are going for?

Did he convince you to go to Hamilton?

Did you make yourself get in shape? Oh God, I hope you're still dancing. You better be.
And if you quit singing I'm going to come back from the past and shoot you. It's the only thing you've got going for, please don't give up on it.

Do you still talk to the same people? I sure hope you didn't lose the people that are close to you. Some of those kids are the best people you will ever know. Don't screw that up.

I hope you didn't screw up your life. Not that a sixteen year old, which you'll be in a year, like you can screw up too badly, but I don't want our life to be ruined because of something you did.

How did it end up with that guy, David? Did you ever see him again? Did you listen to Aaron or randomly blurt out something, because we both know how often that happens. I hope you didn't do something wrong because you got nervous. Gosh girl, you need to work on that paranoia.

Did you get to meet your favortie band? Have you gone to any concerts in the past year? Did you convince mom to let you see Faber Drive and The Latency? If you did, how were they?

Are you even still a Mibbian? Did you ever get to meet any of the awesome people you met on Mibba? I sure hope so.

Anyways, I hope it isn't as awkward reading this as it was writing it.

Love,
Past you.

Hey past me,

It's going fine. I've decided I want to go to university in Calgary, if only mom would let me.

He's still the same, not much has changed. I don't take his crap as much as I used to, but I do what I can.

Of course I am, I did fail a French class and was close to failing Chemistry, but I'm working on it.

I want to go to UofC for psychology, but we'lll see how that works out.

Baha, not a chance. We don't talk much anymore, but now we have awkward history and it's just bad.

Not yet, but I'm working on it. I quit dancing but I'm still singing, of course.

I talk to a couple of them, but the few that weren’t true friends are out of the picture.

Nope, life is basically the same. Maybe a bit different, but I didn’t screw anything up or fix a whole lot.

Baha, nothing happened with that. He was kind of a jerk the next time I saw him and I really didn’t want to get involved with anything like that. Plus what did Aaron know about any of that, really.

Nope, not even close. I went to a Heart concert but that’s about it. Mom never did let me go. She used the “maybe next time, you’re too young now” excuse.

Of course I’m still a Mibbian, but I haven’t met anyone else from here. No one lives close enough to this stupid town.

Oh trust me, it was pretty awkward.

From,
present you

Dear Future Katie:

You're almost done with your first year of college! How did it go? Not too homesick, I hope. How's your roommate?

I hope you're not working at the bowling alley this summer. You can do better, chick. Does Jay still work at Barnes & Noble? You should get a job there...

What kind of friends do you have? Are they cool? Anybody with your taste in music and movies?

What are you studying? Still a double English/History major, or have you changed your mind? How are you professors?

How did mom and daddy do with you moving away? And how are the boys?

Are you dating anyone? Still talking to Ian?

Well, I hope that you're still doing good. I hope you're happy with yourself and I hope you dress more stylish than you do now. I hope you've seen Fitz and The Tantrums again. And I hope you've seen Tom Waits in concert! I wish you all the best with college. You're gonna rock that joint.

Signed, Present Katie

Dear Robert,

Are you still on Mibba? Have you opinon's changed? Have you learned anything new from the Mibbian community?

Are you and Alan still going strong? I hope you are, you really, really like love him. Have you two gone on anymore trips? Have you admitted to him that he converted your opinion's on WWE Wrestling; did you finally admit that thanks to him bringing you to Smackdown, you now love it and that net time he asks you're going to jump and cheer and make a huge sign?

Have you gotten back down to ten stone? Right now you're in the front room considering whether you're going to get e kebab or breast in a bun. You'll probably get a kebab. Fatty.

What about work? Still in the primary school? Gone back to college? Found a creche?

Driving yet? Moved out? Still considering the move to the south side? Kids? Friend situation? Family situation?

Whatever you're doing, I hope you're happy. I mean it, don't forget who you are; no matter what success you've achieved, you'r a Norrie.

See you in 12 months, Kid.

jurini.:

Liebe Katie,

These questions won't be in any specific order, hope you don't mind.

Are you still chewing on everything you can get your hands on? Staples, pins, rubber bracelets, etc.? Have you begun another relationship? What about school; still failing at History and English? How's German going? Still know more than the rest of the class?

How're things with Mom, still fighting a lot? And Madison? How are Dad and Brenda; they married yet? Mor eimportantly, is Brenda living in Jersey yet? How're Mercy and Cathi?

Oh! How's Xaviar? Ya know, Nina and Gerald's son? And Beck, and Livi, and Chloe, and Sophia? How about Anthony, Jadyn, and Jazzi? You seen them recently?

How're your wifeys? You still talk to any of them? Have you gotten any new ones? What about husbands?

Have you finished any non-one-shots? Is chapter 31 posted yet for WNtd? Started any new stories? Get into Creative Writing class?

Have you continued your at-home/online Welsh lessons? Do you know any words in it? Or have you started another language? How are Kiara and Jaimie and Madison's German lessons going?

ANSWER ON JUNE 10, 2011. IF YOU DON'T, THIS WAS A WASTE OF TIME!

Herzlich,

Katie, 2010.

P.S. - Have you gotten your permit yet?

's been close to a year.

Yes, I'm still chewing on stuff. I'm chewing on a ring as I type this.

No, not even close to another relationship.

Still failing English, but I'm doing okay in history. As for German, yes, I still know more than the rest of the class.

Not fighting as much, no; then again, Mom's usually at work all day. I've been ignoring Madison pretty often. Dad and Brenda aren't married yet, no, but they do live together, only across town from me! The girls are fine.

Xavier's doing great; he's adorable! Olivia, Beck, Sophia, and Chloe are doing fine, as well. I haven't heard from Anthony, Jadyn, or Jazz, though.

Wifeys are fine. I don't go on Mibba too much, so I don't talk to them often. Haven't gotten any new ones, nor any husbands.

Nothing even close to finished, 31 still isn't posted, new stories have been started, and Creative Writing sucks.

No. BUT NOW I WANT TO AGAIN! And Madie, Kiara, and Jaimie have stopped their lessons.

Again: No. But Mom's taking me practice on the fifth of May!

Hi Mel!

How did you go finishing uni? Did you get the marks you wanted? Was it as bad/hard as you thought it was going to be?
Are you still friends with any of the other uni girls?

Are Rhianna and Tammiey still your best friends?

Are you still single or did you end up with him? Or someone else entirely?

Do you still have feelings for him?

Did you get the job of your dreams, or are you still looking?

Did you move out of home like you were hoping to do? If so, where do you live now, and who do you live with?

Is your relationship with your mother any better? did it get worse?

Is Green Day still your favourite band? Did you get to see Alice Cooper play live?
Was it amazing?

Did you get braces?

Are you still on Mibba? or is life after uni too hectic?

Do you still want a baby?

How is your mental health? Are you still depressed or did life work itself out and you are now happy?

Did you make any new friends? Did you lose any friends?

Did you end up booking a holiday like you planned? Is Rhianna coming with you?

Love, Mel

Dear me,

Yeah well I don't even know if I'll remember to look this up in a year's time but if you do find this, just know that I'm writing this 'cause a) I'm desperate and b) I have nobody else to rant to but myself. My future self. How sad.

I don't know if I'll achieve this in the next year, but I am so desperate right now. Nick's practically gone, I'm pretty much out of his life I think. We haven't spoken properly in like weeks. And that's a long time considering how much we do talk about shit.
Anyway, yeah. Then we have Jack and J who are like, fuck meeeee they're so bloody close and she's just drifting away from me. Best friend my ass. They're joined at the fucking hip. And I can't tell her anything anymore... because whenever I feel I want to, I can just fucking tell that she doesn't wanna listen, to my crap. That she doesn't really care. She hasn't even asked or anything about how I'm doing, all her bloody attention is on Jack.

So we've pretty much established that I'm feeling alone. Great. Awesome.

I'm so desperate right now. For mindless club dancing, for freedom, for getting fucking HIGH, for getting fucking drunk, for Dimi; God for Dimi. I can't begin to describe how much I fucking want him so desperately. He's so fucking beautiful. I bet I still like him. Right? Probably.

I just feel like doing and not thinking. Just fucking acting and not thinking about it, or about anything, just like fucking... do shit. This is reminding me that I've been swearing a lot lately. How's that going?

AND DID YOU TAKE YOUR BRACES OFF YET? BECAUSE IF THAT BASTARD DENTIST DIDN'T TAKE THEM OFF YET I'LL SLAUGHTER HIM. They're making me so fucking self-concious.

I also have a thing for Matthew. Yes, Matthew M. You know who I'm talking about. I dunno why but we're always giving each other looks and once when he was high and we were at Alex's house he dragged me onto the floor where he was and we just lay there. It was nice, really really nice. But now I think he's lost interest. Not sure though. How's that going? Probably non-existent now, eh?

That childhood friend of yours has been making moves on me for the past month or so. Yesterday we got tipsy at his place and he felt me up and made out with me. I didn't really wanna with him but I'm so fucking horny lately.

Please tell me things are looking up. I know you probably just finished your AS level mocks, I just finished my GCSE mocks. They were good. Studying's fine... oh, is Vicken still there? He's awesome. (: He said I was beautiful and intelligent. ^^

Please tell me you've done shit with guys. Because I cannot stay alone like this. Really, I'll slowly go insane. Pretty sure the insanity's kicked in already, and this is the beginning. I just want D so much. So much. Beautiful, beautiful eyes.

Please tell me your 18th birthday party was more successful than my 17th. It was fun but like 80% of the people didn't show up. Show's how much they care. WHICH REMINDS ME, how social are you now? Please tell me you're more talkative. With the guys and stuff too.

Just been watching Grey's Anatomy so much really. I love that show, I think I'll die without it. =/ And I'm watching The L Word. And Gossip Girl. What're you watching?

Don't really know what else to say.
Love,
Pathetic 17-year-old me.

moxie;:

April 20th, 2010

Hey babe,

To start off with the questions first:

1. Can you now go to the mall without getting all panicky about seeing J?
2. Are you still "best friends" with Vicks?
3. Whatever happened to the trip to Ireland/Spain/whatever? How was it? Did you go?
4. Is your hair still red?
5. Did you cut your hair?
6. How's the face?
7. Hows the body?
8. Veva feeling?
9. Psychologically feeling better?
10. New friends?
11. How's Mia?
12. Do you still hang out with Josh, Damaso, Danny, Father, last year seniors in general?
13. Are you still in SJA? What happened with your grades?
14. Are you still writing?
15. Get any boyfriend? You know this question was coming up.
16. How's Oscar DC?
17. Today was a rough day. Today was the day we read the letters to my mom. How's everything now? Did you talk to her? What happened?
18. Is Nina okay still?
19. Mom?
20. Did you ever get to finally choose a college?
21. Dad?

-

Now for the actual letter.

Look future me. Right now, we don't have it all too well. Veva died. We read the letters. And we really need change. So please tell me we at least got that. Please.

Love,
Past you.

~~~

June 29th, 2010

Just gotta add a few more questions.

Hey deary,

1. How're things with Josh? You probably remembered what happened, but if
you don't, he confessed, you said no, he didn't back down. Nor hasn't he. It's
really getting extremely annoying now. Are you still handling him after a bloody
year? If you are, I'm so sorry for you. But if he can't stop, then make him
stop. Whether you lose the friendship or not, fuck him. It's not your fault.

2. Are things with mom any better? how's she handling the fact that you're
leaving for college? Right now she's all jibba jabba over it.

3. How's Nina doing? Is she okay? How about Chente? Please, please tell me
they're okay. I know how Chente has been feeling lately and I would hate to
know that something bad happened to him.

4. Did you ever lose all the weight? Hahaha, baby, if you haven't you really gotta
start moving. You're leaving for college and you know what that means.

5. How's the face? Do I even have to tell you why I'm mentioning this?

6. How about school? Please tell me you aren't failing any classes YET AGAIN.
You know that is extremely pathetic on your senior year.

7. Are you going to that college? You know the one with a U a T and an EP?

8. Did you lose contact with any of the guys? Danny, Damaso, Father, Fima?
Fuck Josh. If you kept the relationship, good for you, but if you didn't it's his
fucking issue.

9. Did you ever get a new itouch? You know, one with more space.

10. Did dad ever accept the fact you want to go into Art Therapy? Hahaha how
about the fact that my grandma told him that I'm a "pot smoking lesbian"?

11. How's Vicky & Nick doing?

12. How's Ger doing? Shush. Don't judge. But you know that this was coming.

---

Dear Mox,

Look, it's getting harder and harder everyday to hold still. Today there's a
hurricane coming so I hope that everything went alright. Well, I should know by
tomorrow right? Please don't be doing anything stupid now. I know how things
can't get and it has never been easy for us. But you can do it. If you can't listen
to anyone else about this then listen to me at the very least. Through all the shit,
through all the pain, you've picked yourself up. You can do it, babe. I know you
better than anyone. And you can do it. I know it gets really hard to stay alive. But
the pain is worth it. It's worth living. And soon enough you'll be off to college
and everything will be okay. You won't have to deal with any more bullshit. It's
just gonna be you and you. So please hold on.

Love,
Moxie.

Wooow. It's been almost a whole year. well past a year if you notice the date on the first letter I wrote. but I might as well answer it now.

1. Can you now go to the mall without getting all panicky about seeing J?
Hahaha, yeah that was solved long ago. No hard feelings there.

2. Are you still "best friends" with Vicks?
Not... really. We're friends. But we're not what you could call, 'the best'.

3. Whatever happened to the trip to Ireland/Spain/whatever? How was it? Did you go?
Oh no, that's not going to happen for me.

4. Is your hair still red?
Yup~

5. Did you cut your hair?
Once or twice. I'm just cutting the split ends now.

6. How's the face?
As disgusting as always.

7. Hows the body?
As disgusting as always.

8. Veva feeling?
I try not to think about her too much.

9. Psychologically feeling better?
I've matured a lot. I can say that. But in depression levels, I'm not sure. It's been worsening.

10. New friends?
Yeah you could say so.

11. How's Mia?
She's fine. She had diarrhea today. Bitch.

12. Do you still hang out with Josh, Damaso, Danny, Father, last year seniors in general?
Not... really.

13. Are you still in SJA? What happened with your grades?
Yeah. Uh. I might not graduate. Yeah.

14. Are you still writing?
Yeah I am.

15. Get any boyfriend? You know this question was coming up.
pff.

16. How's Oscar DC?
he's fine. we talk very little.

17. Today was a rough day. Today was the day we read the letters to my mom. How's everything now? Did you talk to her? What happened?
It's fine. No I didn't. She would only get upset I read her stuff. Right now it's all blegh right now so I don't want to bother with it.

18. Is Nina okay still?
Yeah she's fine.

19. Mom?
She's okay.

20. Did you ever get to finally choose a college?
Haha, kind of.

21. Dad?
No comment.

---

1. How're things with Josh? You probably remembered what happened, but if
you don't, he confessed, you said no, he didn't back down. Nor hasn't he. It's
really getting extremely annoying now. Are you still handling him after a bloody
year? If you are, I'm so sorry for you. But if he can't stop, then make him
stop. Whether you lose the friendship or not, fuck him. It's not your fault.
Uh, it got better. We started talking again but the reason we don't talk anymore isn't because of him. It's cause of me. I fucked up.

2. Are things with mom any better? how's she handling the fact that you're
leaving for college? Right now she's all jibba jabba over it.
Not really. She's... idek. She's getting there.

3. How's Nina doing? Is she okay? How about Chente? Please, please tell me
they're okay. I know how Chente has been feeling lately and I would hate to
know that something bad happened to him.
I'm pretty sure she's fine and he's fine.

4. Did you ever lose all the weight? Hahaha, baby, if you haven't you really gotta
start moving. You're leaving for college and you know what that means.
Cute, Lary. Cute. No I havent'. Shut up.

5. How's the face? Do I even have to tell you why I'm mentioning this?
Fuck you.

6. How about school? Please tell me you aren't failing any classes YET AGAIN.
You know that is extremely pathetic on your senior year.
Fuck you.

7. Are you going to that college? You know the one with a U a T and an EP?
God no.

8. Did you lose contact with any of the guys? Danny, Damaso, Father, Fima?
Fuck Josh. If you kept the relationship, good for you, but if you didn't it's his
fucking issue.
Uh... I talk to Father. But no. Not really.

9. Did you ever get a new itouch? You know, one with more space.
-snort-

10. Did dad ever accept the fact you want to go into Art Therapy? Hahaha how
about the fact that my grandma told him that I'm a "pot smoking lesbian"?
Of course not. Why would he. And who knows about that.

11. How's Vicky & Nick doing?
They're fine.

12. How's Ger doing? Shush. Don't judge. But you know that this was coming.
How pathetic. Idk. I guess he's fine.
---

I've just realized just how much i've fucked up. I lost friends. My mom isn't at all pleased with me. And I'm failing.

I'm such a sad fucker. it's not even funny.

Dear Future Sierra.

I hope you're better than you are as you write this letter to yourself. Fuck, if you're writing a letter to yourself at all, you must be feeling pretty shitty.
Well, hopefully we got into college (University of Missouri, or UCA, or Hendrix)
Did you lose weight, reach your goal of size 5?
Are you over Dan? Which is the reason why I'm feeling pretty shitty right now.
Do you still wish on 11:11 for him?
Did you finally find somebody to love?
Is Camryn still your bestbest friend?
Are you happy?
Hopefully, you're happy. Because happiness is all I could ever ask for.
Sincerely, Sierra. Here in the now. Thursday, April 28th, 2011.

Lies for a Liar:

Guess I'll write one for a year today too.
20th February 2nd May 2011. (oops late)
Hi Claire.

Is it fun being 18? Guess so, not much different to being 17 :P
Did you party at all for your birthday? Nope, lol.
Who are your friends? Mostly just Will lately...
Are you still friends with Charlotte, Henry, Kiwi, Ella, Jasmine & kinda Matt and Tom? Kinda, no, kinda, no, no, no & no.
...Have you been kicked out of Huish? No!
How did the councelling go? Was shit. Vanessa was equivalent to a brick wall.
How's mum? She's good, kicking her tumor in the butt.
Did you do the Race For Life again and where? Did it at Millfield again. This year there's one in Taunton!
Still into Adam? Guess so, but not as much.
Get any favourites from season 9? Didn't watch, haha.
Who won X Factor? Matt Cardle.
BGT? Spelbound. They are awesome!
Right now are you sitting and laughing at your 17 y/o self because you're completely different? Yes. Hahah. I actually do college work now. Most of the time, anyway.
Where do you hang out on the internet? Not many places - I still have the site Lies for a Liar, I come on Mibba occasionally (how ~sexual), I post photos on Flickr, read books and post it on Goodreads...
Still spend your life on ontd_ai? No.
What about tll? No. Not enough time, man!
Ever start spending more time on mibba again? Not really, I don't live on here like I used to anyway.
Are you going to university next year? Yes!!!!
If so, what are you studying and where? History at Lincoln. Excitedexcitedexcited!!!!!!!!!
Where's Emma and what is she doing? Studying medicine in Cardiff.
Is Becky still... Becky? Pretty much. Horomonal slutty teenager, the usual for her.
How are her gcse's going? OK I guess, she's done parts of them already. Really into drama.
Dad okay? Yeah. Into astronomy now.
How is your baaaaby? We talked properly recently for the first time since she left... haven't heard from her for nearly two weeks though
Do you have a touch screeny phone yet? Yeah. But I bought a new one to use when the credit runs out. Turns out I'm shit at using a touch screen
Still on the same laptop? Yeah, nearly bought another one the other day though because I was getting so pissed off with it
Do you have a fancy camera? A half-fancy camera. A ~~~bridge one. I actually wish I'd bought a proper SLR though.
Do you still make 28761572651 typos in every single sentence? Pretty much!
Did you finish the 25K fic? No, I got to about 3,000 words, stopped, and recently started writing it again. I think I'm at 7K now.
NOW has CIMY,A? been finished? No, and I'm questioning as to whether it will be. I reckon it's got between 5K and 10K words to go and I don't know if I have enough inspiration to do it.
Still have lfal_icons and use it? Still have it. Made like 2,200 icons now XD. Don't have the time to make so many now though.
If you write, does it get put on Mibba, lfal_fic or both (or neither)? Haven't written much. I think I've written 2 drabbles in the past year & that's it.
Are you still socially awkward? More than ever XD
Has anything major happened in the last year? I have a boyfriend. I'm happy.
Favourite TV show? Scrubs!!
Will Skins be on again soon or has it been on recently? There was another series recently. But now the writer left so probably won't be another one or it'll be totally different. Sadness!
Have you gone another year of being single or have you bothered with any boys/girls? I have a boyfriend. He's called Will and it's our 1 year anniversary on May 30th. It's amazing! I'm so happy.
Did Charlotte win the Equality and Diversity Officer position? She did.

Huzzah. I've ran out of things to ask.
Auf Wiedersehen,
your 17-year-old self.

Might as well do another

2nd May 2012.
Hi Claire,

So. This is your third one of these! How's that feel? Lol.
How is being 19 treating you?
Do anything for your birthday?
Is the world still going to end? :O :O :O :O
Are you still with Will?
How is he?
How are you?
What did you do to celebrate a year together?
How was Jersey?
How was Herefordshire?
Name all of the things you've completed from your bucket list in the past year (there better be loads!)
How was Race for Life?
Doing one this year? Where, if so.
What were your A Level results?
- History:
- English Literature:
- Sociology:
Go to Lincoln? Still there/here?
Get into Brayford Quay?
Do you do your work?
Do you do laundry?
How's your cooking now?
Do you have a job or even try to get one?
Are you living with Will?
How's the course?
Is uni hard?
Is it as fun as you thought it would be?
Do/did you miss mum/dad/Becky as much as you thought you would?
Did you get Scrubs for your birthday?
Have you watched them start to finish yet?
Do you have a TV or did you stick with just a laptop?
Name all the people you live with:
Who are your closest friends right now?
STILL socially awkward?
Have you written fiction at all this year? List titles, if so.
How is mum?
Dad?
Becky?
Emma?
Keep in touch with Charlotte?
Kiwi?
How about your baby?
Where are they/what are they studying or do you not know?
Still into photography?
Ever get an Olympus SLR?
List all the cameras you have now:
Can you drive yet?

Finally, are you laughing at how much you and life in general has changed since this letter was written?

Hope life is good! A snapshot of now: it's really good. Yay!

Love, 18 y/o Claire.

I wrote my first letter nearly 3 years ago.... and I'm sure I'll still be here in another year, so here goes.

Dear Amy, aged 21.

How are things?

So, how did moving day go? Was it the right choice, getting out of halls and that filthy kitchen and away from the baby elephants? Did you find a nice place to live and a weekend job, are you paying the bills okay while still being able to live a little? Is it all as stressful and scary as you imagined it would be?

Did you ever get to that gym in the summer? Lose some of that belly that refuses to go anywhere? If you slimmed down a bit, good for you! You must have put in so much hard work, past you is very proud of present you!

What's the news on Bullet? If they were touring this year they probably would have announced it already, but maybe they're up to something in the early months of 2012 - maybe they've started recording by now, or even announced a release date? Let me know if I'm close to the mark!

What's your new favourite band now? It's not really a common thing that a new band pushes into the top 5, but Glamour managed it last year so who knows what's in store...

Have you seen Alexisonfire, The Used, BBABH or Escape the Fate recently? Hopefully at least one of them have been on the gig list, if not I'll be very disappointed!

What are/were your birthday plans? Was it raging or as quiet as all your other birthdays? Hows things with Jen?

Did you pass your last semester? Are you working hard on the next one? Is the course looking better, more what you originally applied for?

Hows your personal work? Getting any attention, a tonne of followers, some more commissions? Starting to get bored or only just beginning to fall in love?

What are you playing at the moment? Watching? Reading? Hell, what's your favourite meal? (Right now it's those crazy burger pitta things you randomly made one day and never looked back...)

Anyway, I hope that the future is as bright as you needed it to be, to keep you strong and smiling. You've had a rough 6 months, but it has to get better. Have fun, be safe, look at the stars and remember hope.

And pig out on cookies and milk tonight, okay?

Amy, aged 20. xx

Dear Emily,

well most importantly: are you happy? How's life in general? You're pretty good at the moment. You just came out to the whole school and most of your family. Has everyone accepted it? How are things with Rhiannon? Are you still with her? Did you meet her in real life yet? Do you have a new girlfriend or boyfriend?

Is Wenna still your best friend? Do you have any new friends? Lost any friends? Are you still going to move into a flat with her and Lisa when you turn 16? You'll be almost sixteen by now, only a few more months! Are you planning a party?

How did your GCSEs (that you've done so far) go? Did you get what you expected? What you wanted? Are you still feuding with Mr Williams?

Do you have any more "enemies"? How are things with Sophie/Megan/Tegan? Still fighting or have you all got over it? Is Natalie still pissing you off?

Still want to work touring? Have you taken up bass again? Playing any new instruments?

It's stupid to ask, because I know I'll love them forever but... Are My Chemical Romance still your favourite band? Are they as big a part of your life as usual? Have you seen them live any more times? Met them?!

Do you love Panic! at the Disco? Still believe in Ryden? Have you seen them live or met them? Is Ryan back in the band yet? I doubt Jon will ever come back, but... Is he? Have they argued or are they talking? Is Ryan still a massive cokehead? Do his tweets make sense now?

Have you been to any other concerts? Festivals? Found any new bands or singers?

Do you go on Tumblr and Mibba as much? I hope so, you made a lot of friends on them. Do you still talk to Sabrina, Emily, Chloe and Kara?

Have you regressed into cutting again? Any more suicide attempts? I really, really hope not. I hope you stayed strong.

I don't really know what else to ask. What's your favourite book right now? Is it still The Time Traveler's Wife? Favourite film? Meal? The album you can't stop playing right now? Do you still have a pretty weird obsession with unicorns? Got another addition to your cape 'collection'?

I hope you're having a good time, whatever you're doing. It's been pretty weird recently. Keep the faith!

Emily (aged 14) xo

Dear Carol,

Will Nicholas ever kiss you?
Will Isabelle ever give you that sweater back?
What's high school like?
How was The Art of Getting By?
Will life move on?

Did you see Taylor Swift?
Did you find the pretty unicorns in Aubrey's mom's backyard?
Will Grace and Katie and Emily stop being bitches?
Will Isabel admit you're sexier? No. Probably not. Scratch that.

Will you ever write something?

Will you... ever turn normal?

Doubting that (and love!),

Carol (aged 14)

Dear future self,

Hey Krit. How's life?

You've got your first AS level in a week from now, and you're currently stressing out.
How'd they go? Did they turn out okay so you can make Ma and Baba proud, and get your Tiffany necklace and your Reading tickets?

Things are going good with Nuno right now. We're not official, but we're pretty much there, and totally exclusive. He keeps telling me all the lovely things he'll do after exams - buy me roses, take me out for a fancy dinner etc.
Does he do all that? Did you get the ring? He keeps asking me my ring size. Are you even still together? I hope you are. I don't know if you even remember, but you really love him right now.

A year on from now I'm guessing you'll have got your offers! How'd you do? PPS at Cambride, or is that just a fantasy you try not to think about anymore?
I pray when I next read this, you've/I've/we've got in! Or at least Warwick or Bristol or something. I'm so nervous, I really am.

On the subject of nerves, how's the self harm going? I'm not doing it right now, but I'm still seeing Karen. It's good. Has the 'K' on your thigh faded yet? It's faded a fair bit now, but I dunno if it'll take more than a year to all be gone.

What's your hair like? You're in your desperate-to-be-Frankie-Sandford-but-failing-miserably phase, if we're putting a name to it. Maybe you're still into it, who knows. I hope it's long and sexy though.

How was summer? Reading? France? India?
Did you go on your romantic trip to Paris and did you get your bellybutton re pierced?

I'm rambling about totally unimportant shit right now. But yeah, I hope you're happy.
I hope you've been going to the gym regularly as well, btw. And I hope you're less spotty, cos currently the right side of my face looks like moon craters.

love,
yourself (aged 17) xxx

This is going to just probably be ranting for me, but here I go.

Dear Jessica,

Are you finally honestly happy? Have you let the small things stop getting to you so easily? Have you finally stopped crying over everything?
As a matter of fact, as you were writing this you had just got done crying and you're about to cry again, you can basically feel yourself forcing the tears to stay away.

What are you listening to? Is your favorite band still Mayday Parade?

Did you pass your GED test the first time or did you have to take it again?
Did you ever stop being stubborn and finally study for your drivers license and get it?

What kind of car did you get?
Did you get a volkswagon like you always imagined you'd have?

Do you still not talk to anyone?
Did everyone from Mocospace completely disappear?

How's life after Markie went to basic training?

Did Kaylee ever move to Keithville like she was planning?
Is her and Cody still together? Did they get married yet?

How's life with your new neice/nephew?
Are Melissa and Jacob still together? What did they name the baby?
Did you spoil it like you always say you were?
How about David and Ashley? Did they finally get tired of all of their fighting and split?

How's your mom?
Did she stay out of jail?
Did she start getting into drugs again?
Do you do drugs with her like the old days?

Are you still smoking cigarettes and weed?
What about drinking and doing pills?
Has Kaylee brought anymore Ice to school for you and her to split?

How is grandma Sherry?
Has all of her hair grown back?
Is she still cancer free?
What about grandma Ann?
Has she passed yet?
Still in Pilgrams Manner?

Have you cut yourself since last Monday?
If so, why?

How was it getting that white rod into your arm for your birth control?
How was your period after you got it?

and now for the questions about the most important thing in your life at the moment;
How's Frank?
Are you still with him?
Did you ever meet him during the summer?
If so, did he come down or did you go up to meet him?
How was it if you did? Was it everything you expected it to be?
Was he actually who he said he was or were you right to be paranoid about it?
How was it to kiss him for the first time? What about holding him?
Was it as magical and amazing as you always dreamed?
Did you guys 'make love' like you two always talked about?
How was it? Great? Did he make you like sex like he said he would?
How about his cancer? Did he finally do his remaining seven surgeries?
Did he ever move back into his grandparents and send you that picture of him holding up the heart shaped pillow you got him that says 'I Love You' on it?
Did the fighting ever die down or was that the downfall of the whole relationship?
You two married yet?
Is he still your forever and eternity?

Oh and one more thing before I go.
Go back up to the top of this letter and read the first question one more time.
Did you answer 'Yes.' ?
Think abou your answer.
Are you honestly, 100% happy?
Or are you still trying to fool yourself into thinking you are?

That's all.
Love, Your Past Self

Hey,

Right now your life consists of going to Christian's house every other day and, sad to say, laying in bed the rest of the time. Is your life still the same way? I would like to assume it would have changed a little bit considering by this time next year you'll be 18 and graduated.

How are you and Christian doing? Does he still claim you're the love of his life and he'd do anything for you? Did he ever get a damn job? Did he ever get evicted from his house? He still go to raves all the time and do silly things that secretly piss you off? Oh, and do you still drive your tiny white car?

Are you planning to go to college? Gonna be a make-up artist? A producer? A music video director? A roady? Still wanna pack a backpack and hop on a random bus? Have you gone to visit Austin since now?

Ever go camping again? Ever get a real job or make more friends? Ever pull yourself out of your weird once a month depression? Do you smoke? Please say no. Although if you do, it'll be more my fault than yours. Did you ever hear from Madison or Fabian again? Did you catch them at Warped Tour? How was that by the way? Did you ever get Dedrick a ticket?

Hope all is well in kaylaland.

Oh, and please for the love of God tell me you're not pregnant.

Dear Elizabeth (or do you still go by Lizzy?),

When you look back at semi-formal, what do you think? Do you still love the dress you picked as much as you did before?

And what about your friends? Are you still just as loyal to them, and give them the same advice that always helps when they need it? If there was ever an instance that you weren't there for them, I want reasons, and they'd better be good.

Is being a freshman hard? Math has always been the easiest class - is it still? And Color Wars with all the other grades, was it fun? Is it white or silver we freshies get to wear?

You'd better have made that varsity volleyball team. Coach W. always knew you had talent, so keep it up. Don't let anyone get you down because last year's coach cut you from the team - she chose girls who had no talent over you, but that's not your problem, don't look back on it.

Jazz band? Nobody said flute players can't join it, and you love jazz - or I hope you still do. Speaking of music, have you finally decided on a favorite artist? Lady Antebellum, maybe Sara Evans?

Backtracking a little, I want to know what you thought of "graduating" middle school. I know you'll miss it, but it's for the better, right? Nobody embarrassed you with the slide show I hope. They're just photos of the fun times, remember that.

And while you're at it, don't be so serious. Have a little fun, hang out with the guys - namely Max, Keith and Noah because the rest are, well, you know. Stay away from the backstabbers - you already know who they are. Make some new, trustworthy friends too, Lord knows you need them. Best of luck freshman year, cause you're gonna need it.

Love,
Your country-girl, smarty-pants, former self...a.k.a. Elizabeth Elaine (yes, I wanted to write my middle name).

P.S. - Let me just write the closing again.

Lots of love and best wishes,
Lizzy

Dear Future Nikk,

stay strong girl. I know times were hard, but things always have to get better. All this court and divorce will be over by now, and your new normal won't be as hectic as it was before.
Remember why you're the person you are. Remember always to stay true to you, and never let anyone take it away from you. Always be your unique self, and never fall victim to those stupid high school cliques.
If you have a boyfriend now, congrats! But he better treat you right, cause I'll kick his ass. And if he even starts to become like Rylie, ditch his ass pronto.
Keep singing, by the way. You love it, or at least I hope you still do. And oh yhea, going mute? Bad idea honey.
And also Future Nikk,
YOU WERE BORN THIS WAY BABY!

Much love, lots of laughs, and loads of smiles,
Nikk.
5/30/11

a big angry mellon.:

Dear Juliet.

Wow. This year for 8th grade has been really freaking rough, I know. So, as of today, here are my questions for you:
Did you get into Central? Are you in ROTC and are you finally in shape? Did you get to do soccer or dance like you planned? Are those damn silly bandz still ~all the rage? yess, master chief is a beast! and yes, i'm in rotc, and i'm moderately in shape. ballet and soccer next year. no.

More importantly, what's the situation with Lauren? At this moment, she's alive and doing better and everything's still really awkward with her. That's all right though. How are you and Coco? lolz, me and lauren are becoming friends again? coco's being a butthead, but i think it's just a phase. oh well.

What about your GPA? This is the end of the school year, your freshman year. Did you get any awards if you made it in rotc? it's... okay. yes, the seabees award hanging on your wall

Did you see Avenged Sevenfold, any other bands? Who'd you see? panic! that's it, i think

Did you get a boyfriend? Do you still like Anton? Do you play a new instrument? What about guitar? Did you finish NaNoWriMo, and get your book's free copy? no, talking with addison though, no, no, no, yes. Whisperers~

Do you still talk to Joey? Do you bite your nails? How many times have you gotten acrylics now? Did you really not get anything for your birthday? I'm sorry if you didn't. Are you and TJ on better terms? I know things get really rough between us, but he's your brother and you've gotta love him. no, yes, i dunno, i can't remember. sort of, we get pissy but we're friends

Keep in mind that you're beautiful. You may have problems with eating and you may think you're fat, but you're not. If you keep exercising and keep on it, you'll be fine. And it is okay to indulge yourself every so often, just don't let it get the better of you.

Did you have fun being in classes with your brother, if you did get into Central? And if you didn't, did you have fun hanging out at Weeki Wachee with your friends? Are you a Hor(whore)net? Did you decide to go out for football after all? yess! we had rotc together, that was beastly. and no

Now, how are mom and dad? bitchy.

I love you, Juliet. Secretly you love yourself and you'll always have someone else who does.

Love,
past Juliet.

a big angry mellon.:

wanting to add a bit more;

hey juliet, it's march instead of june 'cause i wanted to ask you some more stuff.

are you still RPing? did you do the 20k wave for BBB? are your parents divorced yet? are you staying in band, or leaving for ROTC? did your book get put in the library? did you go to the fair? did you get kissed? does ellerby still give you "best hugs ever?" are you a higher rank in ROTC? have you met cliff yet? are theresa and zack still together? are you still on mibba? are you still working on writing/editing as a career, even though it's not a "real career?" have you written starcatchers yet? were you nervous when people read whisperers? have you gone to a carnival yet? do you still write?

no, yes, no, rotc, not yet, yes, no, he went to military school, squad leader bitches, yes and it was weird, yes, yes, yes, no, YES, no, yes but not as much.

you're such a doll, babe. remember that you're teflon girl, little chickie. you can take everything life throws at you, ingest it, and rise again. you're wonderful.

i'll write a new one later,