Dear Mel of the Past,
Wow, a year really goes by quickly doesn’t it? Reading back what I wrote exactly one year ago today, I can actually picture myself sitting there and typing that letter to myself out like it was yesterday.
I said in my previous letter that I would recap my life so I could have a giggle about things and I definitely did! That whole paragraph about Craig and being upset with him was hilarious. I think I got over my little bit of anger a week after I wrote the letter.
Now I will recap what has been happening since last May in a moment but first, I want to answer the questions I had asked...
Am I happy with life? Hmm, it’s a tough one. I have my moments but right now I’m stressing about where I’m going to live after my lease ends in August and sometimes I feel like I work too much and don’t get a chance to have a proper social life because I’m always tired and of course I wish my relationship was a little more stable.
Did I get my dream job? Well, one month after I wrote my last letter I actually got a full time event administration job in the city which I was so happy about because I thought it would be a dream job and a great stepping stone into the industry. Actually it was a cruel place run by the biggest evil bitch I had ever met and the other staff weren’t any better. The boss was such a bully I spent so many nights coming home from work in tears and the next morning having anxiety.
I left that job and in November I was offered a full time administration job also in the city. It’s not in the event industry but it’s still a really good job where I am self managed and am learning so much. The staff are great and as of right now, I’m happy there and have been there almost 6 months.
Living arrangements? Yes, I definitely loved house sitting at my Grandma’s house until August 2012 and having the freedom to run my own household and not have to fight with my mum and have her threaten me every day. Once I was done at Grandmas, I moved in with my uncle for a while who lived on the other side of the city. He was good to live with, he cooked for me, we get along great etc but I was eager to move into my own place again.
A friend from uni and I agreed to move into an apartment together and after a couple inspections we were offered the apartment we liked best straight away and moved in. That was going really well until a couple of months ago when we had a fight stemming from her being a cheating wench and me being jealous and protective of my boyfriend. Now we don’t speak so will not be renewing the lease, which is why I’m stressing about where I’m going to live.
Just like my last letter, Rhianna said I could move in with her, but only if I moved away from the city and back to the small town she lives in now. It’s too far from my work and from my man so I wouldn’t be able to do it. So far it’s looking like my only option now though
“Are you in a relationship or dating anyone? What happened with the musician? Hopefully you're still with him because right now he seems pretty perfect for you.” I quoted this one word for word because it made me laugh so much. In my letter last year I had written that we had been on two dates and had the third planned for the weekend…Okay, so Mel of the Future, it will have been 2 years since that date when you read this again so let me refresh your memory: Rhianna spent hours waiting for you to finish your shift at the football so she could give you your bag as you were going to be spending the night for the first time with this guy. He got angry at you and YELLED at you for being later than you said you were going to be. Alarm bells went off but you were too infatuated with him to listen.
Long story short, one year from the letter, yes Mel, you are still dating that musician. ‘One year of misery’ as you often say. One year on, well actually 13 months on from your first date with him and you’re still no closer to knowing what your ‘official’ relationship status with him is.
You’re in love with him and don’t think you’ll ever want to be with anyone else and have based most of your life decisions on what you think he would prefer you to do.
He has shown on numerous occasions that he has a bad temper and often takes it out on you. When you asked him to define the relationship, you and he actually broke up for a week before you had to go back to him and say you would be fine with having an undefined relationship. Remember when you said you would never let yourself be so pathetic over a man? The fact that he’s so much older than you doesn’t give him the right to rule over you!
What else is new? My aunty and uncle are going to get divorced, Ozzie and Tiger both passed away, so did Great-Grandad. JADE IS PREGNANT!!! So is Bianca, Lauren E and Timyka. Tam and Alex are getting married at the end of the month and she is also pregnant with their baby.
Ben is still crazy in love with you which is funny.
My good friends at the moment are Ranna, Jade, Ben, Corey, Tam, Alex and the people at TBT. You still have a lot of acquaintance friends but wouldn’t call them “good friends”
Now – to recap the year:
Moved to Melbourne, got a job I love, fell in love and am having the longest relationship I’ve ever been in, made new friends, lost friends, saw a psychologist, had an official driving lesson finally, got my belly button pierced, have 9 earrings, went to hospital because of severe food poisoning, friends getting married, friends having babies, me still wanting to get married and have babies with my gorgeous man, still work on TBT on Saturday nights and loving it, suffered anxiety attacks, depression, fought with mum, almost got a new pet rat, about to apply for a passport, lost one of my casual jobs at the footy because I didn’t turn up for a shift, started getting gel nails. And yeah...It’s been an interesting year.
So, Mel one year on...
1. Where do you live?
2. Are you still in a relationship with your jerky boyfriend that you adore?
3. Is Rhianna still your best friend?
4. Jade and Tam’s babies?
5. Where do you work?
6. How is life?
See you in May 2014 where you will be 23.5 years old! Geez, how time flies!
xoxox