Write a letter to yourself...

Hey, me.

I'm glad you're still alive, you motherfucker.
I mean, you're reading this, right?

You keeping the faith over there?
Still believe in what you used to believe in?
How much have your opinions on things changed?
Are you happy? Do you know what the fuck
will become of your life?

What have you been up to?
Fallen in love? Gotten new friends? Gotten drunk and
had a terrible hangover the morning after?
Does anyone know about it yet, in real life?
Did they understand when you told them or when
they found out? Have you found someone to cling onto?
To physically cling onto?

Could you get to meet her?
And you're still talking, right?

Have you finally pushed your parents over the edge?
Or are you still the biggest mystery to them?
Do you finally understand your brother? Please, don't tell
me he's changed all over again.

Are you still a Mibbian?
Do you still write shitty fanfiction?

Has your writing improved? Wrote anything
you're currently still proud of? Any music?
Have you got a guitar yet? If you do, you'd better
be practicing. I know your procrastinator ways.
And you can't abandon the Electone. You cannot.

Got to spend 14 hours in a bus just to see Placebo?
If so, were the fuck did you get the money from?
And any other bands? How 'bout one finally finding
your city in the map and paying it a visit?

How was their new album? Made you break down
after one, or a couple of listens?
And I can't imagine you having another favorite band.
I avoided the topic 'cause I can only wish I already know the
answers. Though I'd like to know if they can still warm
your heart with just as much as a smile.
Have you seen them, met them? How much
did you cry if you did?
Got to say 'thank you'?

And what do you think of me?
How different are we? What will 2010 do to me?
Have you found something that's… just enough?
Can I dare say I'll be entirely and honestly and
I-just-don't-care-about-the-rest-of-the-world happy someday?

Please keep holding on.

- Your fucked up, one year younger self.

Justine,

So, this might be weird, reading a letter to yourself after a year. Hopefully, you won't freak out and run away, like you do everything else.

A few questions:

Is All Time Low still your favorite band?
Do you still hate Twilight?
Have you gotten to go to Warped yet?
Have you been able to get a texting plan yet?

Are you doing well in high school?
Are you keeping up the straight A's like you did in middle school?
Do you have a boyfriend, yet? Because this would be a bit sad if not.
Do you still love Mitchell?

Have you mastered French?
Have you conquered your fear of failure?
Are Mom and Dad finally proud of you?
Have your family stopped making fun of you?

Have you met your favorite band yet?
Did you faint?
Did you see them with Amanda?
Did you babble on about something irrelevent?

Most importantly, are you still on Mibba?
Are you still following your dreams?
Are you still writing the cliche fanfic?
Are you finally happy?

Don't give up. Have hope. Feel the urge to live like I never did.

-Yourself, just a bit depressed and a bit scared.

Hey there Aliy.
You're still going by that, right?
Are you happy with yourself yet?
Do you still dye your hair black?
Have you completely stopped self harming? No matter what?

How's Georgia? Are you a better sister to her than you were to Emilie?
How's Joseph?
Does Archie have ADHD?
Do Mum and Dad still hate each other?
Has your real dad spoken to you?

Have you met Aiden yet?
How many times have you seen them now? I'm on three at the moment.
Is William still saving you?
Did they get over their money troubles?
How's William's baby? What's his name? Is he cute?
Did Jake still sue?
Is William Control making another album?
When are they next touring?
Have you seen William Control yet?
Do you still love them more than life?
Is William your saviour?

Did you ever get a boyfriend?
Are you still friends with the group?
Is Harley still alive?
How's Cathie? Are we still friends?
Are you going to France?
How were the GCSEs?
Did you do better than Cathie?
Did you sort stuff with Tace?

Are you still juliet capulet.?

And now, remember, "you're beautfiul". Don't let those lyrics leave your head. Ever. Because if you give up on that song then you will give up on life. I know you will. Never forget him. Ever. Do you remember the pure shock and admiration that you felt when he walked into that room? Never forget. Remember him in all his beauty.
Oh and does he still have those ridiculous sideburns?

Love
Aliyah.

(This looks fun =P)

Hey Anna,

Are you happy?
Do you live with Nic yet?
If so and if not, how did it go down?
How many times have you met with Nic by now?
Lost contact with anymore internet friends?
Still use the internet that much?
Do you have a cell phone yet?
Have you published a book yet?
Have you even finished a book yet? xD
How is everything?

Right now, I am good. I'm sitting here talking to our best friend Kraven and Marc, trying to talk to Mikey, but he's not answering (Must be busy.) I am hoping Nic will call me tonight since I miss him a lot. I have a lot of questions for him, I hope to see him in person again soon. My dad just got a good job close by, so I'm thinking we might move there whenever we have the money; tell me how that goes.

Anyway, hope all is well with our plans with Nic!
See you in a year!

Hey Me,

Look, I'm crying right now over Mark and Kelsey. They aren't together, but it's all the other bullshit of them still talking. If he's still talking to her, damn...your messed up. Anyway, I have a few questions:

Are you happy?
What did you do on New Years?

Are you and Mark still together?
If so, is he still talking to Kelsey?
Have you and Kelsey made up? haha
Talked to Larry lately?
How's Tasha?
Ever talk to Spooner?

What was junior year like?
Did you keep in contact with Tasha?
How was Europe?
Got your driver's license yet?
Know how to play piano yet?
Do you know Spanish any better?
Any new paintings?
Drawings?
Brought yourself to read Deathly Hallows yet?
Ever finish reading Rebecca?
Excited for Eclipse? (I'm pretty excited for New Moon)

Ever finish a story?
That Moony, Wormtail, Padfoot and Prongs story?
Fred and George?
Timberwolf and Drucilla? :3
Malkiore and Willow?

Still playing WoW?
How many hours do you spend on the internet? hehe

Seen Cobra Starship live yet?
Still love The Used?
Warped '10?

Remember, it's whatever makes you happy. Not everyone else. Please, don't waist your time. Believe in yourself, cause if you don't, who will?

Love,
Sara. haha

Romance.:

To Future self.

So. By the looks of things you've survived another year. Well fucking done.

You're almost 17. Jesus, you're getting old.

So how did the GCSEs go? Okay, like not REALLY bad or anything.
Did you fail them all? Results come out tomorrow :shifty
Did you at least try to fail them? Pfft. Yeah, kind of, towards the start of the year. Then I figured it would make my life a whole lot easier if I just did them.
So what school you going to in September? Same school I've been going to for the past eight years :roll:
Did you have to move to Belfast? No. And I'm not even sad about that anymore.
What the hell are you doing for A Level? Art (yeah, I know, you're going to kill me :tehe:), English Lit, German and French.

Are your parents together again? Or did they finally get the divorce? Jeez, I nearly forgot about that. I think they're fine now though. I hope so.
How many piercings do you have now? Uh... eight? :tehe:
Did you get that nose ring I swore you'd have by now? Yep :cute:
I bet your really happy Mrs C.'s retired now... See that's the thing, I don't even know for sure if she has retired... :shifty
So is school still a bitch? Yes. Very, very much. But hey, it's summer.
Have you finally had your little teenage rebellion? Oh, it was always there.
You get more and more cynical every year, what are you like now? Less cynical? :tehe: I don't know, I'm really chilled out these days. You would hate me.

How's MCR's new album, if it's out yet? It's not, but there's some songs floating about on YouTube and they're awesome
Anybody I care about died in the past year? Aunt Margaret :(
Still into punk and post hardcore? Not as much, I listen to more genres now and stuff.
Fell embarrassed by your 15 year old self yet? Oh, you have no idea :tehe:
You and Tom still together? Yeah, duh.
You, Tom, Adam, Tori, Rachel and Jamie still BFFL? See above :roll: Like I would ever not be?

Have any mental breakdowns this year? Uh, yes. This year was not a good one for my mental health, seriously. Things get really scarily bad around November or so.
What's your hair like? Mine's about neck length, black with faded red highlights. It's kind of a dull red, chin length, needs cut badly :tehe:
Are you still as shallow as I am? You were never shallow... but I know what you mean and, uh, not really, no.
How are the cats? Great :D
How was the FOB show? Like, only one of the best shows ever, despite the whole fainting thing :tehe:
What other shows have I been to? Taking Back Sunday in July. Again awesome.
What new bands have I found in the past year? There's so many! But the biggest ones have to be William Control and Brand New. William Control has such an impact on you during some rather scary times. And Brand New, why the hell did you stop listening to them? They're awesome! :tehe: You're also going to get really into Mindless Self Indulgence, they practically save your life, I'm serious.
Figured out your sexuality yet? No. I'm not even going to try anymore :tehe:
What's been the most dramatic thing to happen this year? Everything's been dramatic. But beware the nervous breakdown, it was not cool.
Are you a virgin? Uh, technically? I'm less of a virgin than I was, let's just say that :tehe:
Did you ever get that band together or have you given up completely? I did give up, but I've been playing the guitar a lot lately and well, you never know :cute:
Did that helix piercing ever heal? Yes :tehe: Like, ages ago.
How much cooler are you now than I am now? Way, way, way cooler :file:

Well, I think that's about it. Goodbye from your 15 year old self.

And remember, never, ever, let them take you alive.

xoxo
St. Gemma 24/08/08

I can't believe I remembered this :tehe:

Hey, kiddo.
You know I only want the best for you, right? I hope all your dreams have come true and you have new ones. Bigger ones. Ones that reach to the God damn sky and don't come down for anything. Because I believe in you and I know that you can do it - I don't doubt you a single day. Tell me something:

Did you push past those obstacles?
Did you get what you wanted out of this experience or was it too much for you to handle? I wouldn't blame you if it was, Lord knows I struggle.
Did you finally open up to someone and let them see how vulnerable you really are? Have you met that person who will listen until you can't talk anymore? How often do you think about them, huh? All the time, I bet. I hope with all my heart that they think about you as much; more! You deserve that, at the very least. You deserve that someone who will treat you with love and respect and always think you're beautiful and strong, no matter what stupid shit you're dealing with.

I hope you don't cry as much.
I hope you don't need to live under that rock anymore.
I hope you told them all thank you and never let go because one day you're going to realise that they were always there when you needed them.
I hope to God that you haven't given up.

I love you.
Forever your friend.

Hey, it's your sixteen year old self here. And damn, do I have a lot of questions... :XD

You're 17 now; have been for two months as of tomorrow, if I'm correct. How is it? Do you still not feel any older? :roll: I know I didn't when I turned 16. Or 15, for that matter.

Did you enjoy proving everyone wrong? You did prove them wrong, right?
How were the PSATs?
How bout the SATs? Did you get a good score on your first try?
Did you actually get to take those college visits?
Did you get into your first choice school?
Did you get into your second choice school?
Are you more excited or more scared to be starting your senior year of high school?

Did you go to Homecoming this year?
Did you date anyone? If so, were they new or an ex?
Who did you go to prom with?

Do you like your new cousin?
Did your aunt and uncle move up from South Carolina yet?
Did Seth finally relinquish the N64? (I seriously hope he did)
This sucks, I know, but I have to ask: did anyone important die?
How's your relationship with Mom? Still as bad as a year ago?
How bout with Dad?

Who are your best friends now?
Did Kevin actually come up from Virginia in November?
Did you gain any new crushes? Or return to any old ones, maybe?
Are you on good terms with Isaac yet?
How bout with Mike?
How was New Moon? C'mon, I know you went with Carese, Jon, and a bunch of other people, so tell me.
Who is Jules dating now?
What about Autie?
And Meaghann?
How bout Rachel?
Did you meet any cool new people?

What was it like seeing your favorite band twice in one weekend?
What's the best concert you've been to as of now?
Was the Warped Tour lineup as kickass as last year's?
Speaking of that, who went with you this year?
How many dates did you go to?
Did you survive the pit at the Bring Me The Horizon show?
Please tell me you got to see Senses Fail?
Did you finally get yourself to Bamboozle?

Did you actually finish any of your stories?
Did you get any of the piercings you wanted yet?
Any tattoos?
If not, how many do you want now? Personally, I want 13.
What's your hair like now? Mine is shoulder length, choppy layers, and reddish/brownish/blonde.
How was the third annual scavenger hunt, if you've had it by now?
Have you been practicing the bass regularly?
Are you still practicing for your provisional license or do you already have it?
What did it feel like seeing your photography on an album cover?
Did you get a job?
Did you go back to CKR to work this summer?
Do you miss taking Spanish?
I hope you haven't done any drugs or started smoking/drinking. Please tell me you're still clean as a whistle?
Do you still have glasses? Or did you get contacts?
Did you ever find out what was wrong with your ankle?
Did you ever get over your wariness about going to youth group with Rachel and Christian? If so, have you started attending church on at least a semi-regular basis? Don't worry if you haven't; that's okay too.
Do you still quote song lyrics left and right? Oh, who am I kidding; of course you do!

And lastly, please tell me you're just as damn happy as you've been.

Sorry about the length, but the reality is that I can't even possibly begin to think of everything I want to. But here it is anyway.

Keep your head up, kid. If you've made it this far without breaking, you can do anything. Just remember that I love you and I believe in you, now and forever. (:

Me.

Dear Felicia,
Have you written anything new? Are you going to Camden County? Have you talked to anyone since graduation? Did you ever start smoking again? Are you still with Eric? Are you with anyone? Have you written any music? How was your last year of high school? Did you ever get a job? Did you ever move upstairs? Did you ever lose the weight you wanted to? Do you still want to be a graphic designer? Are you still a vegetarian? Have you met Hero yet?

Much love<3

Okay since I just remember I did this, I am going to answer the questions my previous letter asked and write a new one.
V Previous letter
So Jenni,

Did you get into Baruch? Are you out of Staten Island like you planned?
Are you well on your way to being published yet? Did you finish Editing Cherry Soda Boy?
How about your other stories, did you finish Dear god, The Rose Epitaph, Nanashi II, Have Kids. How is that going by the way?
Are you still on Mibba? A story editor? Still friends with Sara, Chels, Nikki, Isa, Marlee, Dujo, and the rest of them?
Still Mibbian Famous?

Did you get a boyfriend finally? Better yet, are you dating Nikki? Did you get to meet her? Did you kiss her? I hope you got the chance to.

Did My Chemical Romance come back to you? Did they put out their new CD? Is it good? Go on tour? Did you see a new show? Is Gerard still with Lynz? Is he alive still?

Did you go completely insane yet? The voices take over? Are you totally none existant anymore? Are you still there, then?

What job do you have now? Are you making enough? Are you living? At all? Still?

How many shows did you go to so far? Are you still friends with Toni Ann a littke and did you ever steal youur My Chemical Romacne setlist back? Get the druumstick for your sister? You're almost 21 now....how is it?

Love, your past.

V Response:

Dear Past Jenni,

I did get into Baruch. But they wanted me to take math classes, and we both know we hate math, so I decided to stick it out at Staten Island. I didn't move out yet. Maybe next year when Katie comes back- oh year, I'm friends with Katie, who knew right?

I am not even close to getting published- I know that sucks to hear. Five years, I should be, I just have to finish Cherry Soda Boy. Oh yeah, I am still editing that sucker. In fact, I start it over. As for the other stories, I haven't finished anything yet. It's kind of sad knowin I am in the same place I was a year ago concerning my stories. Don't worry, I'm sure I'll finish one of them

I still talk to those people occasionally. Not Nikki though, her and I aren't exactly friends anymore. But I think I am on ok terms with the rest of the people mentioned.

I am still on Mibba, obv, and still a story editor. I have new friends now, Audrey, Jinxeh, Kalen, Dancing Cavemen etc etc. They are awesome, love them to death! As for being Mibba famous? I don't know, I am intimidating apparently. People are scared of me. Good. Love it.

I did get a boyfriend! His name is AJ. We are no longer dating, but he is my best friend. He's a douche bag though, even though you love him. Weid. As for Nikki, I laugh that you even wanted her.

I'm going to ignore the question about being insane, because I'm not and never was. It's odd how I am in a better place now than I was back then even though this year sucked. Anyway, I work at Aeropostale now, which is fun. I am no longer friends with Toni Ann- in fact we had a blow out. And I never did get my MCR set list. Oh yeah Gerard had a baby and he is still with Lynz, I know sucks, we totally had a shot.

As for Future Jenni: Did you graduate from CSI? are you still playing this game with AJ? Or have you finally gotten a new boyfriend? Did you get to hang out with Andrea and go to her house! you Better!! Where are you now?

Love Jenni.

Dear Ella,

A few questions.
Did you ever go out with Ryan?
Did you and Eddie become friends?
Did your band get the gig?
Did you learn Battery on bass properly?
Did you pass all your exams?
Are you in love?
Do you look any different?
Do you feel different?
Did you finally buy an Explorer bass?
Did you do a kickflip on the skateboard yet?
Are you still on Mibba?

love, ella.

You’re changing . . . so much, with those strange urges—wanting to wear a dress and high heels. Wanting to crinkle your hair and make it more wavy or curly. You’re not the same . . . your changing. But about everything else, you’re lying. Lying to yourself and only yourself; what’re you trying to protect yourself from? What is there to be afraid of? Pain? Rejection? Neglection? Abandonment? Are you tired of being left in the end? The lessons you’ve learned from yourself, they never do anything for you do they? Everyone ends up leaving whether you open to them and tell them everything or close yourself off. There is no in-between with you and the only way to reach in and grab your heart is by those simple lyrics, guitar chords and melodies . . . is that really the only way you can communicate with others?

Where do you feel safe? When does your mind and heart both come to an agreement on feelings? Are you that willing to let yourself sit back and watch your “friend” fall for someone you’ve known longer then her? Are you naïve? He’s a stupid boy, abusive in verbal combat and uptight . . . but it doesn’t scare you. What does scare you? Ending? Your life stopping . . . that really scares you? Then where is your security at? Where do you feel most safe? Where will you run if you feel attacked and endangered? Something’s for you haven’t changed entirely.

You fear dying, so you stay away from the wheel. You fear drunks . . . the security bubble flies up immediately whenever they are within a few feet of you. You’re so guarded of yourself, so sure of yourself. When will you learn to drop your defenses and see, you need to lighten up. But you’ve been scarred for life, haven’t you? You’re so afraid of reaching out in the world and grasping onto something that won’t let you go, because you know in the end you always end up losing.

Where is that positive outlook? That voice speaks out against those low, slow talking, murmuring male voices in your head. It’s overpowered and strong—the bad things you say about yourself, how critical you are of yourself. You’re starting to accept yourself, your starting to gain a positive outlook. So judgmental of yourself, I’m sure you’d even hate yourself if you were someone else . . . and somehow, those words are disappearing.

Do you like who you are becoming? Who you were? Who are you?

Marie,

You've changed so much these past years, darling, and you still are changing. And by the time you read this, you'll be a senior. So, tell me...
Are you and DJ still going out, or did you finally kill him?
Is Miles still a prick?
Did you pass Math last year? What about Chemistry?
Did you get to see Green Day again and meet Tre?
Are you still on the antidepressants?
What is life like without Captain, Link, Stripes, Chewie, and all the rest?
Who's on Drumline this year, and what show are we doing?
Are you taking Psychology, Forensics, Mythology, and Science Fiction like you wanted to?
Did you get to see My Chemical Romance with Sammy and Bri?
Is the world any better, or did it get worse?
Did you ever finish Live Freaky! or start Dark Side Of The Moon?
How'd you do with NYSSMA?
Do you still have Tim, or did you get a new set? Did you get that all-important stick bag?

Most importantly, though...do you love?

Stay strong, self. If you've made it the last seventeen years without killing yourself, I'm sure you can make it another seventeen more. Keep on keepin' on.

All my love, Marie.
11:56 PM September 27th 2009

Andreas Hudec.:

I think I'll take part in this.

Amanda,

Almost sixteen, right? Yeah. Lex's still 6 months older than you.
Are you still close with Lex? She still with Anthony?
How about that bitch Amina? She still with Trevor? Did she fuck him?
And Aileen? Whatever happened to her?
Jenelle too. How're things with her?

Did you make any new friends? Reclaim old ones?
Ron for instance? How are you two? Friends still? Or did you fall apart and sorta act like you don't know each other very well. Ever get back together with him?
What about Nick? Remember at new years, he kissed you? Anything come of that? Do you wish differently?
Any boyfriends at all? Who?
Stalkers again?
Differently about any of these people?

How's school? Junior year, you better be doing well.
Straight A's, right? Perfect grades are what you've always been made to get.
Did you take the courses you wanted with your open electives? Graphics again and In Vogue for the practical?
Do you still wanna take the same courses for senior year? They were Graphics, Creative Writing, Psychology... um. I forget. Oh, and Culinary if you have time? Meh?

Still writing?
Ever finish Of Sugar and Ice?
How about Of Honey and Ink?
Did I'd Throw Away Everything Just to Live come off hiatus?
Still a strong Mibbian?

Still an artist, right?
Still painting whenever you feel like?
Drawing when you're in the mood for it?
Did you finish that damn lantern thingy from Art I? That thing you fold up and was colored with pencils?
Photography win anything?
Speaking of photos, how's Photoshop? You bought it right? All $300 you were saving up put to good use.
Are the works you've done with it epic?
Still wanna be a graphic designer/novelist, right?

And music. You know we have to come here.
Linkin Park for life right? Still your number one?
Did the LPU 7 account ever get activated, customer service reply?
You've seen them 4 times so far, any more times?
Did you meet them? Did you cry?
Autographs, photos?

Are Tokio Hotel still your number two?
See them again?
Meet them?

Are your 23 artists still this list:
001. Linkin Park
002. Tokio Hotel
003. AFI
004. Mindless Self Induglence
005. Blaqk Audio
006. From First to last
007. Cinema Bizarre
008. Blue October
009. HIM
010. Glassjaw
011. Sonny Moore
012. Avenged Sevenfold
013. Envy on the Coast
014. Coldplay
015. Dope Stars Inc.
016. Sixx: A.M.
017. Tokyo Rose
018. The Cure
019. Deftones
020. Porcelain and the Tramps
021. Deathstars
022. Emilie Autumn
023. William Control
?

Hey, you went to Bamboozle 09 right?
Saw Sonny?
Met him?

Did Lumi come back to Cinema Bizarre?
Did you learn German?
Did you see them?
Meet them?

Anyone else on the list?

Still into a lot of makeup?
Still doing the smoky eye, sorta? How about winged eyeliner?
Hair still long?
Bangs intact?
Side part still there?
Did you grow your nails out?
Do a black and white Billicure?
Stop biting your cuticles?
Did you GROW?
Did your boobs grow?

Still in karate, ja?
You're yellow belt while I'm writing this, so how far have you gotten?
How many days a week do you train? Still three?

Did Jake's hair grow back?
Did Ron cut his? Did he grow it out more?
Did he stop dying it black and blue?

Did you get any more piercings?
Still want the lipring?
Tattoos still an idea?
The Hybrid Soldier on your right calf, Chester's Linkin Park logo tramp stamp, and 'unendlichkeit' on your wrist?

Any better at Guitar Hero?
How about Rock Band?
Ever get a console or are you still a computer goddess?
Sims ftw?
Still downloading? How many files is it now? The last I checked it was a little over 7000.

Still shy?
Still think you have APD?
Ever tell?
Ever get checked out?
What happened?

Still straightedge? You better be.
If you're not, what did you in?
What exactly was it?
If you are, still intent on sticking to it?

Got a job? Or trying?
Braces off?
Are you happy with how you look?
What do other people think?
Do you still care what they think?
Did that drive you to the edge again? Explain.
Are you happy? Please be happy.
Are you living your life how you want?
Still scream at mom?

Well that's all I can think of. I know it's a lot but that's just who you are.

Love you lots,
Amanda

Yes and yes.
Yes and no. But I couldn't give a shit anyway, you know that.
She's a frolicky thing that likes to go on and off and on and off with all kinds of guys.
:D JENNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNN has lunch with me and she's still the same ol' Jen.

Yes and sort of (if you count Jake?).
Ron is my failure of a big brother now, and no we didn't because it'd be awkward and we're comfortable where we stand.
EWWWWW HELL NO HE'S A DIRTY SON OF A BITCH AND NO I DON'T WISH. OH GOD GROSS.
Joey in the summer but he's a scrag. Otherwise no.
Ugh. Nope.
And nope and I'm happy where I am.

Not so much. I'm an idiot this year, self.
Not so much, couldn't with the schedule arrangement. No In Vogue, that's next year.
Pretty much.

Yes, no, no, no, yes.
Deletion was involved.

Duh.
Not as often, but yeah.
More of a rarity.
:D YES I DID, ACTUALLY.
Sorta...? Ehhh.
:D Daddy bought it with me uninvolved. But I'm a winner anyway.
OBVIOUSLY.
Yep. But that's not the main. I have a fall-back-on-me thing now.

For LIFE, man. But no. Cinema Bizarre's pushed them down.
Yes it did. But now it's run out.
Not yet.
See above for both.

Well, no, LP took the two spot. I guess TH are three?
Nope and nope.

Shit, no, that list chaaaaaaaanged.

No I didn't. No and no.

No he didn't, he's solo now.
Not so much.
YES I DID OMFG.
...No, that got ruined by shit. You know.

Nada.

Duh.
No and no. I've moved on.
Yep.
Yep.
Duh.
Well, for a time they were, and then they broke, and I'm trying to get them back now.
YESSSS.
For a short time, but old habits die hard, man.
I have not.
Still no. -_-

Of course.
I'M A GREEN BELT, MOTHERFUCKER.
... One. I'm a laze. Thursdays are cancelled anyway.

Nope. Short and shit.
Still the same.
...Now the dye faded into bleach and he looks ewie. :D

Not since the industrial.
Now I want spider bites, y/y?
Sure.
...Nope, nope, and nope. Think a chai with the Talmud/Schindler saying around it on the wrist, quotation marks on the shoulder blades, and I dunno what else.

Nope.
Nope.
Computers ftw.
SIMS FTW.
Yes. I don't rightly know, like 8000+.

Not as much.
Nope, I'm better. :D
Nada and nada and therefore nothing.

You fucking know it. And yes I am. Except for champagne at Lex's with her mom and shit on New Year's.

Summer camp CIT...?
Yes. :D
OH HELL YES.
That I look good without 'em.
Sort of.
No way. I'm so OUT of that phase.
I'm so fucking happy.
You best believe it.
It wouldn't be home any other way.

This looks fun, I hope i can remember this one year later

Hey fourteen year old me.
You still smiling on the other side? How's high school treating you? I hope you;re healthy and happy . So, let me know...
How was graduation?
You still got your close friends or did you lose touch?
Did you even update your story? Or are you still the lazy ass you were one year ago?
Have you broke your ipod yet?
Pissed your parents off even more?
Still going obsessive over Kpop with Tiffany?
What books you reading?
Music?
So tell me, did you continue with your drawing?
Did you have a nice 2010?
Still loving yourself?
Writing in that journal?
Did you remember to check back to this? Hope you did

Sincerely,
Your 13 year old self.

hey there, big me.
you're only fourteen as you write/type this. weird, huh?
well, are you still obsessed with Glee?
do you still love chris colfer and kevin mchale?
(i'm sure you do )
how was the musical?
and one-act?
did you get into columbinist?
did you get perfect?
how was boston? didja have fun?
as of right now, you like mike.
who do you like now?
chris is your best friend. i'm sure we're still friends. are we?
have you been kissed yet?
no worries if you haven't.
have you ever told anyone you like them?
(other than j, that was awful idea.)
speaking of which, how do y'all act together now?
still civil? mean? hateful? nice?!
did you get a new phone? were you good with it?
how was summer and spring break?
and christmas and your birthday?
i love us.
me.
whatever.
here's a link to the theme you have at the moment as i'm writing this:
clickity
i know
anywhoo.
did you get taller? i hope so.
not too much, though.
how are you growing as an actress?
how long did ms. coston stay?
who's the new teacher? are they nice?
how are the boys?
how's school?
i love you.
don't change.
remember, you're pretty.
promise.
withmuchlove, little me.

Mr. Moony,

What's up dudee? Did you change your layout more than ten times?
Was Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows worth it? (I sure hope so)
Who're your best friends now?
Did you move? If so, where? If not, are you happy?

Hmm...did you get better at public speaking?
Are you still in touch with Nicolle?
Are you still hating that little idiot sister of yours?
And you still better be in love with Harry Potter. If not, I'll f*cking kill you.

LOVE, ME!

hey stupid
just checking up on ya.
So have you done the things you said you would?
Went To Motley Crue on 27th?
Metallica?
Poison?
Warrant?
Iron Maiden?
Aerosmith?
Def Leppard?
Have any of them even come recently?
Are Axl And Slash still not talking?
No Guns Renuion?
Nikki Sixx dead yet?
Locomotive still you fave song?
Chad Kroger? Is he dead?
Do you have a boyfriend? Is it Kohan?
How's Kohan?
Stacy come back and visit yet?
Did you actually practice guitar like you said you would?
Did you pass math?
Trip to Europe? How'd it go?
You at Bellerose?
Kevin still not talking to you?
Stopped lying yet?
Kaitlyn, lying bitch or not?
How's the man?
Steve still single?
Gone to a concert with Steve?
Off the Pot?
Dakota still kicking?
How's Robert?
Steph?
Miranda?
Carissa?
Alex?
Alex and Liam? Still Dating?
Ozzy and Nikki Sixx? Still kicking?
Still drawing?
How was Tumbach?
Still On Mibba? You better be!
Loving Duff?
Have your signed phone?
Finally write that Crue fic?
Get that magzine back yet?
Randy Rhoads?
Finally get that Hanoi Rocks CD?

That's it.

See you in a year.
Me

sup, court.

you're still with andrew, so i'm going to keep this as a statement.
did you ever get published?
how's gwen?
(and gray and ricky for that matter?)
still best friends with anthony?
have abs yet? haha.
how was warped tour 2010?
did you finally get a story with over 200 readers?
ya ever get help for your anxiety?
hopefully, you're still edge, and most definitely a vegetarian, i presume?
did you ever get that other kitty?
you still in the same house?
how're things with your mom?
your dad?
how was the summer? as good as last year's?
get any of your old friends back?
can you finally let go of things now?
hopefully that bitch doesn't still bother you.
still stickin' to your daily routine?
you finish all your palahniuk books?
got any new friends?
sleeping patterns still fucked up?
have you at least learned how to control your anger?
did you dye your hair?
get any new piercings?
did you get a tan?!?!?! haha.
how is everything with andrew, by the way?
still talking to all the people you were talking to?

- xx,
court.

Lies for a Liar:

I feel like doing this. So I will.

Dear Claire,

Wow, college. Deep into it. How is college? Good, but there's a lot of work. What you expected it to be? Yeah, but I never really got into partying like I thought I would. Just not for me.
Did you end up going to Huish? Yeah, I think I always knew deep down that I'd never go to Bridgwater. It's too far away.
Do you still want to do social work? Nope. If not, what do you want to do instead? NO idea. I was thinking something like being a writer for a magazine but honestly the thought hasn't gone much beyond that.
What are your friend's names now? Charlotte, Jasmine, Ella, Henry, Kiwi.
Are you still friends with these people: Leah, Amy, Rachel, Charlotte, Pangi, Megan? Charlotte is my bff. Leah I talk to on occasion. I really wish I could see more of Pangi. The rest I've lost contact with. Are they still in your life at all? Charlotte is the only one I would say is "in my life". What happened with them? Leah - at Huish. See her now and again. She's good friends with Kate and some other girl. Amy finally came out to her mother. Rachel goes to Exeter, I ran into her once but we don't keep contact. Charlotte is the best frond and she is amazing. Pangi's still with Yahoo, I hear she's having a rough time but getting to Wellington is difficult and she never goes out so I've not seen her yet. Megan is still at Wellington and has some boyfriend in Bridgwater. I got fed up with Amy, Rachel and Megan's bullshit in the spring and summer terms last year. The whole friendship group split up, some of them decided to do whatever they could to be "cool". I didn't want to deal with the bitchiness anymore. I never planned to stay friends with them after school when the whole being friends with all those dudes thing happened.
Does anyone still call you Bee or Bear? Nope. Lol. When I see Leah she sometimes calls me Bee still, and Henry sometimes calls me Claire Bear.
How existent is the party life? Good or bad? Non-existant, because I don't like to party unless there's like <10 people there and at college that never happens.
What did you get for your 17th birthday? ...I don't remember.
How many boyfriends have you had since this? None. Hahaha. I don't need boyfriends because I have friends. And I'm not opposed to women if you're talking -friends. Names?
Do you have one now? Nope.

Has anything majorly eventful happened in the world? There was a big earthquake in Haiti... don't think anything else major has happened but my memory tends to cut of at about four months so who knows. Or just in your life? Mum has cancer again. It's in her neck - they can't get it out but it can be shrunk and controlled by hormones for the rest of her life. Emma moved out on Thursday.

How many times have you seen YMAS now? (current amount: 6) Seven. I stopped seeing them that much. Don't have the friends to go with anymore and they never play dates in the southwest anyway because they're whores.
Who played at Reading Festival? The good ones, obviously. Plcebo, Fall Out Boy, FFAF, Alexisonfire, Madina Lake, Lostprophets, AFI, YMAS, Patrick Wolf, Spinnerette, Billy Tlent, The Blackout.
Do you still go to gigs often? Not really. Was supposed to be seeing Lostprophets again today but I'm too ill to go. Sucks.
Are you still a devoted Used fan? Kind of, but I don't think I'm as devoted as I used to be. I got tied up in AI fandom where more happens but I still get excited whenever Used things happen and they're still my favourite band.
Did you go to The Used's tour? If so, was it good? Tell the whole story or link to a blog. Didn't go. Timing was really bad. Was meant to at least go to the Cardiff show, had a ticket and everything, but the person I was supposed to be going with stopped replying to my texts and so I couldn't go due to no way home.

Do you still use Twitter? With Twitterfox? Lololol. Yes but they changed their name to Echofon.
Are you still on a desktop or on a laptop now? I have a laptop with a pretty Adam lambert wallpaper because it's mine and not my parents'. Still in the room opposite Emma's or moved to the room next mum and dad's? The whole moving rooms thing never happened.
Are you still a full time Mibbian? Nope. I spend more time on LJ.
Did you forget about this until the reminder I just set on my phone for this day next year at 6:00PM reminded you? I forgot after like march but then remembered at the beginning of February. So yes, I did remember. The alarm did go off though. When I was on the toilet. Fabulous timing.
When was the last time you logged into Mibba before right now? A few days ago.
If you're still on Mibba do you still use the size=80 post template? When I go here I do, but like I said that's hardly ever these days.
Do you still write? I'm supposed to be writing a huge 25K fic right now but I'm a bit behind. Other than that, occasionally.
Did 'Can I Meet You, Alone?' ever get finished? I got really close to finishing and then my hard drive crashed. When I get it fixed I only have like 1000 words to go, but I'm not re-writng the few thousand I lost.
What's you theme right now? Sleepwalker - Adam Lambert
Are you still Lies for a Liar? Has it been changed at all? Still Lies for a Liar, & liesforaliar everywhere else.

Lastly, are you okay? Yes. I'm happy. And that's something that had I asked myself one year ago, the answer would have been no.

Love, your sixteen-year-old self.

Guess I'll write one for a year today too.

Hi Claire.

Is it fun being 18?
Did you party at all for your birthday?
Who are your friends?
Are you still friends with Charlotte, Henry, Kiwi, Ella, Jasmine & kinda Matt and Tom?
...Have you been kicked out of Huish?
How did the councelling go?
How's mum?
Did you do the Race For Life again and where?
Still into Adam?
Get any favourites from season 9?
Who won X Factor?
BGT?
Right now are you sitting and laughing at your 17 y/o self because you're completely different?
Where do you hang out on the internet?
Still spend your life on ontd_ai?
What about tll?
Ever start spending more time on mibba again?
Are you going to university next year?
If so, what are you studying and where?
Where's Emma and what is she doing?
Is Becky still... Becky?
How are her gcse's going?
Dad okay?
How is your baaaaby?
Do you have a touch screeny phone yet?
Still on the same laptop?
Do you have a fancy camera?
Do you still make 28761572651 typos in every single sentence?
Did you finish the 25K fic?
NOW has CIMY,A? been finished?
Still have lfal_icons and use it?
If you write, does it get put on Mibba, lfal_fic or both (or neither)?
Are you still socially awkward?
Has anything major happened in the last year?
Favourite TV show?
Will Skins be on again soon or has it been on recently?
Have you gone another year of being single or have you bothered with any boys/girls?
Did Charlotte win the Equality and Diversity Officer position?

Huzzah. I've ran out of things to ask.
Auf Wiedersehen,
your 17-year-old self.