Your Stories You Don't Like or Wish You Could Change

Angel. It was a teen pregnancy story that I wrote for NaNo 2011. As far as I know it was the only posted story I had that received over ten comments that showed enjoyment. I wanted to quit six or seven chapters in because I didn't like it but I continued writing and finished it earl 2012 (made over 50k in Nov.). I took it down a few months after it was finished because I wanted to rewrite and post it but after three chapters my inspiration for it again. There is still a slim chance it will get rewritten again though.

Untitled. This had a title but I forgot it and it was supposed to be my either my 2012 JulNo or NaNo. I lost my outline and my inspiration before the month started so I never started it. It had a story page on here and many encouraging enjoyment comments during the planning stage but after losing my outline I completely lost interest. I didn't want to change what I had planned already and it still hasn't been written. The story's idea is still sitting in my email drafts.

The Bride That Lived. The story page was (and still is) posted sometime after I left my ex-husband. It was going to be a fictional story based on my marriage and divorce but I realized I couldn't write it successfully until everything was finalized. That didn't happen until February or March of this year but now I don't have the heart to re-live the experience again despite how much I desperately want to write it. I can't bring myself the start it so the story page is still sitting unused on my account. This story also received a bunch of encouraging enjoyment comments when I came up with the idea.

There are countless others but my memory doesn't work that great.

At some point I need to delete Reality Check. It is going absolutely nowhere and it's yet another story I should have never posted, since from the getgo I wasn't completely behind it.

Also, I like the plot to So I Got This List... along with a lot of the characters, but there's so much development to be desired...it's so flat. To me it reads like a skeleton to a story that could be so much better.

It's so strange, whenever I invest myself into a story and get passionate about it, upon re-reading it I dislike it and want to change all of the content. But when I start a story and feel like I'm bored about it and using filler, when I reread it I am amazed at the language and plot devices. Maybe it has to do with not knowing it so well, so I get to re-experience it...? I always want to change anything I've written with intensity.

You're My Obsession: It was my first My Chem fic and while it was the most popular story I've written, I look back and realized that there were a lot more details I could've put into the story. I feel like I didn't really put much depth into the characters and didn't really develop their personalities or give them distinct voices. I'm currently rewriting it, but it might take a while.

Just Bring Him Back to Me: A one-shot that reflected my friendship with my best friend. It did seem good at first because I wrote it based on events and people from my life, but I feel like that writing wasn't really me and that I tried to be someone else in my writing. I don't know, that style of writing I did just really seemed like I was trying too hard to sound eloquent and overly descriptive. I also plan to rewrite that one.

Now I wish The Donor and The Awakening were original fictions. But it's a bit too late to change that.

I wish that Sand Dollar would have been set in Charleston, SC instead of The Bahamas But hey, that's what happens when you get stuck revamping a dead group story.

The sequel to my Beyond the Prophecy story. I haven't finished it yet (and it's not posted on here), but I want to change the romantic relationship between the main character and her best friend (a guy and a girl) so that the only relationship they have is friendship. I liked how they were in the beginning of the story when they were just friends, so I want to get rid of the romance they eventually develop.

I Guess I'll Go Away. I feel like it started strong because I was so into Craig's head, but then I just got stupid about it. I need to re-write it. Maybe for NaNo!

My Dream Nightmare is my most popular story and it's a MCR fanfic. I almost wish I could go back and redo it because I started working on it when I was 17 and I hope my writing has improved since then. I almost can't stand reading the first chapter myself! Credit to those who made it through the first chapter, because to this day I'm not sure what's so special about it that urges people to keep reading.

Someday I'm gonna rewrite Spin again. Mark my words. I'm gonna delete it off of Mibba and just get it going again.

And the more I think about it, the more I always dread reading over the Renny Boy series. There are so many bad tropes that I just didn't consider when I was writing it - God, Soria is the most manic-pixie-dream-girl character I've created - and there's so much canon that doesn't come through in the original four stories. I love the characters; I always will, they're my babies. It's just...it's tough when I've done much better and yet that's the thing that I always think of when I think of stories that define my writing. (That probably made about zero sense.)

THE MANMAKER. Oh my Ford, if I didn't have the love for the characters I do, it'd have been gone ages ago. I hate how topsy-turvy it all went, how little sense it makes, and I'd love to revamp it eventually.

Bentinck Square. It's so drab and lifeless and I don't like the way I approached it. I've got at least four other chapters written that I refuse to post until the story goes through a revamp because it just irritates me to no end.

The Heist too. Again, very drab and uneventful. This is a rewrite of a rewrite and I don't think I like the story one bit. It's all just very unrealistic and...naff. I don't know. I might take it down at some point and completely renew it but who knows.

I don't like any of my old Harry Potter fics. They were all ridiculous and horribly cliche.

I really wish I had considered the way-outta-balance gender ratio in Generation Why Bother before I wrote it. It's such a dumb thing to overlook and yet I fucked it up.

All of them, I don't ever like what I write after I finish it.

Forever Young it's awful. One of these days I'm going to 're write it.

I neeeeed to rewrite Who Knows, Who Cares and start it back up again. I'm probably gonna switch around a few genders, though - I'm probably gonna rewrite Jeremy as a girl, though that brings in the question of what her new name would be. I dunno. Baby steps...

I'm not the biggest fan of about half of my group writes. Most of them were rushed to the finish, and I've grown to realize that five main characters is one story is just a little too many

I have a butt-ton of stories I started and just didn't finish because I got bored or carried away with other things. The only one that was actually posted here was Reality Check, which had a stupid plot in the first place and I couldn't stand the narrator. It was about some little brat who got hauled away to another family on some reality show, and basically all he did was bitch at everyone else. It wasn't even endearing.

There was another story called My Rock n' Roll Shoes! that was going to be a rock n' roll musical-type thing, but I couldn't figure out how to incorporate the lyrics into the narration without it being horrible. Plus, I'm terrible at writing narrative songs. The plot was kinda cool, at least to me - it was about a singer who was super happy and passionate about everything, and his favorite band recruited him to be their fill-in singer on a tour while their old singer plotted his revenge. I guess I just took the leftover cartoonish-musical-energy and translated it back into Generation Why Bother.

A long-ass time ago I planned out a story called Born Lucky that was gonna be a romantic comedy about an oblivious girl who was assigned a good-luck fairy (or something like that), but I abandoned it shortly after I realized that I can't write a straight-up romance story for the life of me. (I am in the process of planning out another novel by the name of Born Lucky, but it's completely different.)

In eighth grade I started writing a story called The Blue, and it was about a girl who went to surf camp but ended up cursed because she got tangled up in some other kid's life. I just read over the 6,000 words I had written of it, and honestly, the boy and girl's interactions are kind of funny, still. They were just supposed to be like brother and sister, and maybe someday I'll straighten up the dumb plot and give them another chance.

I was this close to posting a story called Hurricane Tommy on here back in 2010, but good thing I stopped myself because it would've just rotted here. It was all about family, since it was about a small family who took in their extended family in the wake of a hurricane, and to this day I still have a bit of a soft spot for the narrator, Tommy. It's another possibly-maybe revamp...someday.

And the last thing I can think of as far as stories I might rewrite/rework is an odd meta-type-thing about a teen author who lets one of his stories go on hiatus; it was called What I Am. During that hiatus, his characters come to life and then demand for their story to be finished. Then, since they jump out of their story, it screws everything up inside the author's creations. Kind of ironic what happened to that one.