I came back and had a read through my old journal posts and realised I never read any comments on any of my blogs, and I was a total retard back then! haha. Sorry!Anyway, I'm in my first few weeks at college at the moment. I'm enjoying it I guess. Its better than school anyway. I'm organising gigs in my spare time, going to shows etc. I work part time in a shop for some extra cash. Lifes good.So...

So I just got back from Download festival 2008. It was the most amazing experience of my life!I'm gunna keep it short(ish). Don't let people scare you about Download, it isn't scary at all. Everyone is so friendly, you walk round camp and randomers just come up and high 5 you, and say hi and stuff.Bottling isn't as bad as people say. Elliot Minor got bottled, and there were a few bottle fights...

HeyI'm looking for someone to co write a story with me. I'm not really into fanfiction, I'm looking for someone who is dedicated and will co write with me in an imaginative, interesting fiction story, Leave a comment of pm me if you are interested.Also, I saw Aiden last night in Portsmouth, supported by Kill Hannah, Serpico and Brigade. I met Mikey from Serpico, All of KH and WiL and Angel from...

This site is uper cool....I love the color scheme....Looking for mods aswell if you want to be one.http://www.rockout4ever.proboards84.com/index.cgiSo I got pissed on Saturday, I don't know what happened. I passed out and community cops found me (ok, I hate them, I will rant later on in the entrey about them). They called cops, cops called Paramedics. And you know, the paramedics could have called...

I feel like a fucked up failure right now. Like all my effort over the last year to get out of this nightmare I've been convicted in by drugs, alcohol, self harm etc, is all just been a waste. Like I should have just stayed fucked up and took my life on New Year like I planned to for so long. Last night, I broke my 6 month record of keeping away from self harm. I turned into this other person, a...

So here I sit, alone in the darkest room in my house. I'm freezing cold, alone and dying for a ciggerate. In my left hand I hold a cup of coffee, I use my right hand to type. To my left is a large window, it overlooks a valley of roofs and tree tops. The sun is gently setting over the far hill. I sit here in my black clothes, clothes in which I hide from the world. And everything is relatively...

I'm pissed off 'cus this is the second time I've had to write this.This is a new poem I wrote, it was originally a letter I wrote (never entending to send it) to a guy I like.Missing PeicesI wish I had told you soonerAnd I wish i told you myself.Right now I'm sat heretearing myself apart.I have been for so longBut it's only now that I see.The shards I've createdAnd the scars that don't heal.I try...

So on Saturday I went to the K! Tour in Southampton. I met up with some old friends and went to the Madina Lake signing. Madina Lake are really nice guys.Bought starbucks and went to the venue. We met Nathen and Mathew from ML again. We were talking about flavouring coffee with hair....niice...haha. We met this cool kid called Brian. He's in the navy. Sweet guy.Went to the gig. Got second row....

It's been a difficult few days. One of my best friends (who I used to drink with, we began together, fell apart together and recovered together) tells me I only fucked up for the glamour? What the fuck? Okay, that confused me. What's so glamourous about drinking a bottle of vodka, taking a handful of god knows what pills, doing stupid stuff and running from the law, smashing the vodka bottle and...

Ebony Apocalypse and Bless The FallUpdates on how EA's gig went. AMAZING.So we played at The Cricket Club in the middle of I don't even know where. We supported the Moonies. We did soundcheck which was stupidly fun. Me and my bandmates then decided to go play in the play park which was next door and then we looked around the graveyard (who puts a graveyard next to a venue and a childrens play...

Updates on how EA's gig went. AMAZING. I was happy to see NO-ONE came along but it was fun. We played to about 100 people. We got a nice reception. Our first few songs went well...but when it came to playing the song "Mistake," the guitars cut out and after we got back on track our drummer messed up, but we made it look like nothing had gone wrong and we all finished at once. Big achievement for...

www.freewebs.com/alternativeendingsA brand new site! I just finished making it today so its real bare! Please visit! I really want this site to grow and become really active and it should be real fun once it gets going.Please, Please visit! I'm begging you! I know it will be boring to start out with because no one is on it. Once more members join, it should be cool and it would be a gret chabce to...

ATTENTION ALL MUSIC FANS!My band, Ebony Apococolypse, will be playing a free show at the Grasshopper on 1st December in support of a friend's dad's band (can't remember the name!). The Grasshopper is in Bere Regis (near Dorchester) in Dorset, South England. It's free!We really appreciate it if you come along; as we are such a new band, we are looking for supporters and gigs. More info will be...

No one read any of my new poems I put up.Your ApocolypseParchmentCarnaged HeartsThey're not as boring as they sound! Promise! Please? Begs?I wrote them a few weeks ago and now I have Writers' block and I wanna write some more or I am going to go insane. Read em please!Spread the love, read em!xxx

No one read any of my new poems I put up.Your ApocolypseParchmentCarnaged HeartsThey're not as boring as they sound! Promise! Please? Begs?I wrote them a few weeks ago and now I have Writers' block and I wanna write some more or I am going to go insane. Read em please!Spread the love, read em!xxx

HeyI've decided from now on, I am going to update my journal more often and actually treat it like a journal, not a place where I can whine and complain.Today I had school, damn, it was stressful. All I think about now is Ashley (the guy I have liked since early March) and it fucking hurts knowing I have no idea when I will see him again. I haven't seen him for a month next Saturday. I miss him so...

Hurt my arm. Bit pissed off. What pisses me off most is that it was at a tiny gig for under 16s. God I feel stupid. Got the shit kicked out of me today for being a "goth". I swear the world is picking on me and kicking my ass whenever I smile on the small unlikely occasions I do.I'm probably just gonna get fucking wasted tonight...that will make me better.

when you go ice skating. Not a pretty sight.I was iceskating on wednesday and this girl fell, then another girl skated over her fingers and sliced them right off.I am so freaked out. I was walking my dog in the woods and there was this bad smell. I looked down the ditch and there was what looks like the remaindings of a dead body. Its skin was all grey and covered in blood and it looked like it...

Hey,I've decided I am gonna try adding entries more entries to my journals. Even if nobody reads them, I love reading past entries and thinking of the memories I have of whatever pointless shit I write in here.Yesterday, or the day before (I can't remember), I heard the studio recording to "One Love" which is one of Aiden's new songs off Conviction. I already heard this song when I saw them live...

It was AWESOME!Even though I broke 3 ribs.The barrier collapsed.I held WiL's hand.My sister cut her finger open on WiL's belt when he jumped into the crowd and it is now infected.Aiden have DEFINATELY improved playing live.We are the 1st people in UK, 2nd in the WORLD to hear any of Aiden's new songs off Conviction!All the songs they played off Conviction are IMMENSE! So awesome! Expecially, thy...