Hey, Mibba.So it's 9:37, I have a midterm on Friday, I have a paper to turn in worth 30% of my grade due on Thursday, I'm broke as FUDGE and the only thing I've done today is bake cookies and workout.At least it was somewhat productive.I think part of this funkiness may be because of my new status as single. Things had been hard with the boyfriend for 3 months so we're on a break. Before that...

Dear Mibbians,For the past week I've been feeling rather a miss. Actually, really a miss. Is that a saying? "A miss"? Anyways, where do I begin?I guess I'll start with the before. *cue dramatic music*I've been in my relationship for going on 2 and a half years. My boyfriend is fantastic. He's one of the best guys I know. But as of late...the spark is missing. It's not that the honey moon is over...

I keep saying that. "What the derp", that is. Why do I say this? I don't understand. I only say it when I feel confused or I'm spiraling in and out of some form of consciousness (in short, when I'm spacing out).This is hopefully my full and complete return to writing. I miss it. I remember when I was younger and I would get on the computer and write about my daily life because I thought it was...

So, I guess I should explain that I haven't logged on in a little less than a year. I haven't updated a story in OVER a year. So the fact that Mibba breaks my heart may be due to the neglect I've inflicted upon it. You see, I joined mibba when I was 12 around 5 years ago. I loved that format. It didn't change dramatically for a while and then BAM. New website. I'm sure it's still the same Mibba,...

My first love was an asshole.But then again, I was an idiot.I was 15 and lonely and hormonal and I let myself fall in love with a douchebag that never showed whether he cared for me or not. He compared me to other girls saying, "I could have gone out with her, you know?" like he had settled for me. He created this idea in my head that I was nobody's dream girl. I'd only be what somebody would...

I never know how to start out a "blog". I'm still used to it being a "journal" and so now I'm like...what? How do I do this? But I'll figure it out, I guess. I kind of just want to go into saying that I got my first tattoo today. So I will.I got my first tattoo today! It's the Oregon outline with the green heart in the middle and Home in really cool script over and my best friend got oregon with...

You know, I have no idea how to use the new Mibba but I don't think it matters that much. I remember when I first joined Mibba, around 5 years ago and everything was so simple. Now there's pictures everywhere! Waddafack?!I've decided I need to write more. Writing used to be my favorite thing. I remember turning up A Skylit Drive and living vicariously through scene kids that I made up with...

I had a revelation over the weekend. It happened when my boyfriend, his friend and I went downtown. We ran into not one but 2 people who I once experienced interesting relationships. It was a bit of a shock because I hadn't seen either of these people in over a year. In fact, the first it had been 2 years.It got me thinking about the brief relationships I had with them and how different they are...

I always get the feeling that I'm not doing enough. That I'm not enough. That I'll never amount to anything. Sometimes I wonder if that's just a teenager thing, but it feels so much deeper than that to me.I think that compassion is - or should be - the most exercised human emotion. And with compassion should be action.Maybe I'm coming off a high from watching Kony 2012, but when I really think...

GoddamnlordyjesuschristI haven't posted ANYTHING since August. I haven't posted a journal since July. Wow. I don't even want to fill in anything about my life because chances are you don't know me and you don't really know my past. We're not old friends that need to catch up or anything. But it honestly feels that way.Let me just list all the "awesome"/really horrible things happening in my life...

HEY MIBBA! It's been yonks, eh?So update on my life: my mother called me a slut yesterday, just because I want to stay on birth control as a precautionary measure. I'm not doing it out of permiscuity, I swear I just REALLY don't want to be pregnant. I think that's reasonable. And it does wonders to your skin, really.I've been grounded for the past 2 months, summer is no fun for me as I am not...

He's amazing. He really is a great guy. I like him a lot and I just really want to get to know him better. We're both pretty fresh out of relationships so we aren't trying to rush into one and we're just seeing where things are going.I feel horrible for saying this but he's bi and it's a little strange to me. I'm not exactly sure why...Our taste in guys are really different. I like short guys, he...

My boyfriend has been in rehab for a month now. He should be coming back next Wednesday.His sobriety should be a big priority for the both of us. I'm the only connection he has to the world outside of rehab but I haven't been there for him lately.The last time he called me was Sunday. It was at 1:00 in the morning in New york time (I was there) but 10 in Oregon. I missed his call. He didn't call...

So all I can think about lately is how my boyfriend is in rehab. I just got off the phone with him and we touched on a VERY important subject lightly but didn't go into full detail about it.He's coming back in 3 weeks but he doesn't want to live with his grandma anymore. He really doesn't have any other place to go other than Battleground with his meth addict mom or Alaska and he doesn't want to...

Today when I was riding the school bus home, this guy whips out a water bottle filled with weed, made a deal and then proceeded to smoke some. Which was probably the most intelligent thing you can do, ya know? I glared at him and then he was like "Hey, you're boyfriend is in rehab, right?"I was so ready to punch that guy. Yes, my boyfriend is in rehab but I do not needed to be reminded that or...

My boyfriend is in rehab and we had our 6 month on the first. His rules in rehab is that he's allowed to call someone for 7 minutes each day and usually that's me. He didn't call me on Thursday. He didn't call me on Friday and he didn't call me tonight. Honestly, I'm flipping out.I shouldn't be though. I get he has to make calls to his grandma but three days without contacting him is killing me!...

I always thought my pilates teacher was interesting. I take private classes and clean her studio for a discount. I get a lot out of it and I really really enjoy them. She's really fun to talk to.My parents told me I couldn't take it anymore because it was too expensive. I understood I guess...but they spend 600 a month on my sister's ballet classes and even more on summer programs. This is the...

Hey guys! I'm super bored so I've been reading some stories and just updated 2 of mine :)I'd like to do a comment swap. Anyone down? Here are the rules.Read either Complete Serenity or Shake Down.You comment me first.No slash and no fanfics.And that's about it :) To be honest, I either want dark and scary creepy or sweet happy go lucky teen romance. Either end of the spectrum, not inbetween. Any...

My boyfriend just left for rehab about 4 hours ago...the reality of it didn't seem real until maybe twenty minutes ago.Funny thing was, he was clean for two months. He finished up his treatment and the next day he got caught with a pipe.He knows I don't approve so that's why he didn't tell me he was going to smoke. His mom is a meth addict and so his grandma did the only thing she could think of...

There are so many things going on right now I can't even begin...or begin to begin.So I've been dating this guy for 4 months now. There has only ever been 2 problems and we never fight. Those two problems are his ex girlfriends who are still in love with him. We broke up for a day for reasons I don't want to go into and immediately one of them texted that she was in love with him.Her boyfriend is...