Always longing, longing for something. Longing to fit in, to love, to feel complete. Never finding it, losing hope, crying. Never knowing whats next but knowing what's coming. Does it hurt when you feel like you can do anything, but do nothing? Does it hurt whenever you've felt as if you've lost your mind, because no matter what you do, you don't fit? They say everyone feels this way at least once...

Right I have ten piercings nine of which are in my head. Three are earings. Two tongue rings, snakebites, septum, and eyebrow. And my arm pierced with a surface piercing.Woot go me, eh?But they're not really noticable they're just there ya know... Which fits me fine, 'cause I rather like them. I've decided I'm gonna stop with piercings... I've run out of things to pierce!I'm not to heavily into...

Well, first off, to answer a couple of questions that you guys asked:I got my septum professionally done.I got it about six months ago.I've had this ring in since then. (although I used to switch it with a spacer when I went to work)I'm not allergic to any metals, only antibotics.Everything was sterile when I got it. She wore gloves. And I trust the woman with my piercings, she's practically...

I've got one and it was completely healed over last night.BUT this morning I woke up and it was sore. I thought maybe something had gotten between the ring and my flesh, but when I went to clean it I saw crusty stuff. That didn't strike me as odd since it's cold and I've had a runny nose lately. I know that's disgusting but bare with me it's gonna get worse. So I took the ring out started to clean...

I don't know what it is but I feel so... Everything. That's not even possible, everything isn't a feeling... But most of it's negative so is it really worth feeling?I don't get this, my band is starting off to a... fairly decent begining, but one of them thinks I rant too much, one of the other's agrees with other said member(but then he goes off and agrees with me???), one of them thinks I have...

Right so I'm going to this interview in an hour and I just had to tell somebody. I'm all pissed at my bestfriend 'cause of something he did at Band practice or I'd tell him... I'm not talking to him at the moment, I say that and I texted him this morning, but it just said do you need a ride. It wasn't friendly it was just there.Anyway, I'm going to the job interview and I'm slightly nervous... but...

Right so like my life, it's not bad, it's not great but it's not bad. I'm pretty sure my only problem is that I don't have a significant other. I know it's not really something to whine about, but I mean come on, I'm 19 and I've never had a boyfriend, a person to say I love you to. It's slightly pathetic and depressing to me.I have had drinks with a couple people and that's led to... other things,...

Yesterday I woke up at two in the afternoon!I left my house with my bestfriend at three... ish!We went and picked up another guy and went to Tulsa!Once at Tulsa we went to eat at the mall!After the mall we went to the Cains Ballroom!At the Cains we stood outside for about an hour... it was freezing!I had a front of the line pass, but I didn't want to freeze to death in a t-shirt, so I clung to my...

Well, it's green! At first it was the color of hay, then I put the green in and it almost looks like my hair is naturally green... almost.In my opinion my hairs to long! I'm used to it being shorter. People also call me a guy! Not used to that yet...Anyway, I kinda hope I'm the only person with green hair at the A7X concert! I so can't wait for it! I'm going with my bestfriend, here's hoping I...

No, the grass is brown and yellow and in some places just plain dirt.So what I'm refering to is my hair! I've dyed it green again!It's for a concert on Sunday, I'm going to go see Avenged Sevenfold!I'm going to keep it for as long as I can, since I'm currently unemployed it might stay around for a while, but as soon as a job slaps me in the face and tells me what to do I'll probably have to dye it...

I got so very very angry.I sent a myspace message.I yelled in that message.I said that if you end it over this message it wasn't worth it anyway.I'm not sure if I stand by that.My pride, what little there is, doesn't wish to give in.I know I wasn't exactly in the right, but I wasn't too wrong.I am not sure about how I feel about it.I know that he'll be mad.I know that I'm still mad.No, I'm not...

I have six piercings, (I'll go in order of aquirance<that's so not a word and if it is, I've never heard it said outloud), my tongue, my lip (snakebites), my left ear cartledge, my septum and now my left eyebrow... Heh, is it bad that I want more? Yet I'm dead set against piercing my earlobes....Oh and I have seven tattoos... five on my arm, a blue skull with a red bleeding heart above it...

I need help to quit smoking.I'm 19 so it's legal and all, but I just spent five bucks for one cigarette... I think it was worth it... I also think I'm screwed up...The thing is smoking has always appealed to me even before I tried the things, no it wasn't 'cause someone I know was smoking and asked me to try one. I bought a pack and just started smoking... and now I can't quit, well I can, but I...

Right here's a picture of me and it's like 9:07 and I woke up like twenty minutes ago... And I haven't fixed my eyeliner... but I probably won't anyway... and I look like a guy but that's 'cause... I apparently just look like a guy...Anyway here's a pic of my piercings... well, 'cept the tongue ring and the earing in my left ear's cartlidge... My tat's are another four pics in themselves...

Anybody got one?Was the pain excrutiating?...Or was it just me?

In two more days it will be August 4th!Two more days 'til Shred School but I don't get to go 'cause I gotta work and I can't get to CaliforniaAnd...Two more days 'til I turn nineteen... This just seems slightly unfair...

Anybody know who did Davey Havok's wings?

Well, I got a tattoo... actually I have four tattoos!!!Yeah, there's one that looks like a swirlly thing with a skull like bit in the middle and a lightning bolt and a bleeding heart and then a star and then another heart with leatters.... God I suck at descriptions...Actually, it's a blue skull with a red heart bleeding on top of it with blood drops as eyes and two lightning bolts on either side...

I get to keep my fangs!!Whahaha!! Take that Wal-Mart!Oh and I still get to work at Wal-Mart!I'm using two lebret bars without the balls!You can't see 'em and neither can Wal-Mart!!

Right, I got a job offer to work at Wal-Mart. The interviewer interviewed me a month ago, she said I had to take them out, I said that I couldn't so she asked when I could take them out for long periods of time, I said a month.So she called me back today and told me to come in 1:00 pm tomorrow for another interview. I'd have to take out my fangs for that interview, but since I've gone up a gauge...