hi, em. i miss you. :c
just thought i'd drop by to say that.
i was gonna @reply you that but i can't find you on twitter! D:
i might have to look through my followers/following list to find you, which would take ages, and i don't have the time right now.
you probably won't read this till like ages later, but yeah... hahah.
don't bother reading the last comment i sent you. it's way too long and most of it doesn't apply anymore so yeah. :]
OH MY GOD. i thought i replied you!!! D:
sorry so much for the incredibly late reply. eroigdjfoiregjdf.
today's my birthday though! so, forgive me? hahah! :p
i got sick during finals, so i skipped most of my exams in the end. :/
not sure about the results for the papers i did, though. they're not out yet. :/
haha! aw, you should definitely try to stop. i don't want you to damage your health! D:
a lot of shit's been going on, really. idk, i've just been incredibly stressed out lately. erogsfjoigfjd. but the bottom line is, at first i was planning to go study overseas in singapore, but now i've decided to homeschool.
mainly because i wanna get out of my current school because i can't take it here anymore (despite being in it since kindergarten, lol). things've changed and all my closest friends keep leaving school, and two friends i used to be really close to have been isolating me, so to speak. they basically just leave me out in everything they do because they're in lesbians with each other. but not literally in lesbians with each other. they just. idk.
i mean, one of my friends and i used to be an inseparable pair, but now that my old friend's back (and they didn't use to be so close either, i used to be closer to the both of them than they were with each other), she's suddenly gotten super close to her and so, she's found a new person to hang out with. y'know?
and then there's the school itself; academic standards dropping, inexperienced teachers, tons of useless compulsory activities, just about all clubs becoming inactive because the compulsory activities take up too much time, not to mention the PEOPLE here. ugh. apart from the 'friends' of mine. there are so many prefects here who suck up to the teachers and are biased assholes. of course that's to be expected but the prefects here have quite a bit of power and are always praised way too much by the school principals and whatnot. -.-
stuff like that, hahah. i really could go on and on, but i'd rather try to spare you at least a little. haha. oh, also because my parents want me to switch to business stream and do economics and accounting instead of pure sciences, because i'm definitely not going into the science field in the future.
so yeah, i'm thinking of homeschooling. just for half a year, though, until i complete my CIE IGCSEs. (if i stayed in my current school i'd be doing them in november, but because i'm homeschooling, i'mma try to do 'em in june. but if i do badly, i can re-sit for them. haha).
singapore ended up to be not such a good idea because most international schools start the year in september (most schools in malaysia too), but mine starts in january, so i wouldn't be able to just join in halfway. and just about all the schools there won't allow me to join in year 11 (i've just completed year 10; today's report card day which is basically useless because the report cards are online lol), so i'd have to redo year 10, which i really don't want to do.
i found an institute (not a school) in singapore that would allow me to join in year 11, but because it's just an institute, we figured that it'd be better if i just got home tutors because i'd be able to choose my own teachers and get 1-on-1 attention and i wouldn't have to move to singapore and rent a place and all that, which would cost a TON especially because 1 singapore dollar is equivalent to 2.4 ringgit malaysia, so yeah. :(
of course that means i'd have no friends. but i still have my school friends and it's only for half a year/one year at most so why not?
BUT ANYWAY. YOU DON'T HAVE TO READ ALL OF THAT! i ranted too much, as usual. -.- it's my birthday today. :B i'm sixteen. hahah. i don't want to be sixteen. it's scary. it's like i'm getting older but i'm not getting any wiser or mature or whatever, y'know?
so.......... how's life been for you? :o good, i hope. c:
I wish I could hug you.
Was the test a major one like finals or something? If not then when you get the results and if they do suck then just ask really nicely if you can retake it. There's a girl in my class who had perfect grades except for this one C from freshman year in a science class. It was really offered to her anymore and all but she asked really nicely and they're letting her retake it and they're replacing the C on her grades so she'll get a 4. something.
It's not stupid. A word of advice: sometimes crying makes you feel better. It's a safe way to let it all out. Just... don't do something rash.
How are your friends being unfair?
Maybe you could just run away for a little bit. Not long enough for anyone to send after you but long enough to get the feeling out of your system? Like... to someplace in your town. A park or a movie or something. If it helps you don't have to tell anyone you left. :)
I have something awesome. I know you already know, but.. SEASON FREAKING SEVEN. Made my day yesterday. Keep thinking of that awesome extra year you get to spend watching the smexy bros. :D
And don't let the weight on your shoulders crush you. Loan it out to someone else for a while.
bizarre is better than nothing. lol
You're okay with that?
IS EVERYONE SICK?! I've been sick alllll week...
Made ice cream this morning for chemistry. Fun, fun. Got an A- on an ACT prep test. Woo. Uhm, realized that my research for my big Comp paper is actually watching and reading anything to do with ESP I can find. No point in actual research, right? heh.... Helped my friend (whose paper is on Ireland) realize that she can write a paragraph about how it looks like a ram... the teacher agreed.
So, I don't know when you'll see this but, I was looking up this song and this video came up and it is just so perfect.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DUcD27tzvYE
I know! It was gonna be the highlight of my week. Stupid freaking Prom, so much work and no gain. Gr.
It's normal to hate your family, and you're not a sadist! *le gasp* I always yell at my brother, he doesn't cry though. He just keeps on annoying me until I pick up the nearest item to chuck at his head. It hardly ever hits him, though.
lol Eh.
OMG! NO! NO! NO! This week is the new SPN isn't it! FUUUUUUUUUUCK! I have to do Prom shit. Gr. Gr. Gr. *is pissed*
I feel like that all the time, though. I'm tired so often it's crazy. I blame it on the dog but that's really not it. I'll be walking around and suddenly a wall is two feet away like, 'woah, I was on the other side of the hall...' and I'll blurt out what I'm thinking when I normally keep to myself. Like, a girl in my class was asking about who the most polite girl in the class was and the teacher just kind of motioned to me (I was sleeping at my desk, pretty much) and then Marniel was all loud and 'it's not me? I brought you cupcakes' I then lifted my head from my desk and told her that she was also loud and obnoxious. Everyone just kind of turned around and stared at me... I couldn't go back to sleep.