I can't do this anymore. I feel trapped in every single way possible. Just when i thought i DON'T want to change, my mum forces me to change, It's bad enough i'm seperated from my friends, now the worst possible thing, my one last ray of hope, disappeared. I thought if i didn't change i can keep my friendship that i treasure so much, just by being me. Now i can't. It's torture being the eldest,...

I'm currently sitting here writing my journal with mixed emotions. I have so many thoughts and fears that I think I may be going crazy! Here's why:-1) I'm trying to write a formal letter to someone(hey! it's not a love note ok?) asking for the requirements needed to join their school and I'm nervous as hell.2) I am feeling embarrassed and humiliated because we were playing truth or dare and that...

Hahaha...how ironic would it be if i started my journal with tears streaming down my face? It sounds cliche right? Don't worry i didn't have a bad break up with a bf (it's not like i have one anyway). I just got back from a friends' birthday party. So the first question: Why are you crying? Answer: My friend's aunt said i needed to diet more( which i am already starting since 3 months ago). It's...