Laying in bed at night, insomnia and isolation overtaking me, my thoughts clawing at my heart, ripping it to shreds, my mind always wanders back to the same memories. And each time, I feel it like continuous blows to the chest. Sometimes I smile. Sometimes, it's agonizing. But as strange as it sounds, I regret nothing. It had to happen the way it did.And I am a different person because of it. I've...

I never loved you anyway. I never did and I never will."I'd forgotten all about this place.I remember when Aiden tried to get me to publicize my thoughts on here.Turns out I'm not very good at making myself public.I don't even know what I'm doing on here now.I guess I felt like I had something to say,but as usual, I can't bring myself to get the words out.So as usual, I'll keep to myself.Hmm......

and start a new one. I'm discontent and nothing's going right. I hope someday it'll turn around and I'll find whatever is missing from my life. I hope I can discard those who cause me harm, if they'll let me. I don't want them to be part of my life anymore. And right now, "them" is mainly directed toward one person. I feel like I should move on from this life. It holds only unpleasant memories....