I'm so golden right now. So this guy I've hung out with a couple times and have been talking to the past few months came over again tonight after a million weekends of canceled plans and attempts to make sure I didn't think he was just being an ass.We got burritos and had kind of a picnic on the river and came back up to my house to watch a movie. We cuddled like the entire time, and held hands...

I'm ridiculously pissed off right now. My mom has been on my back lately about how I've been lagging in the senior activities and things. Like taking my driving test (not necessarily a senior thing, but a recent thing I've been slacking on), getting my senior picture, missing out on the SAT. Honestly its just my lack of self motivation. All my insecurities are catching up to me and my body won't...

He's actually an ex-ex. My first boyfriend, and the longest boy friends I'd managed to keep around. The break up was messy with a lot of loose ends and zero explanation.He had a new girlfriend with in a couple days of dumping. Which he dumped me over text after 2 years. It'll be an entire year now in a couple months since the break up, but he's still wanting something out of me. Even though I was...

I've been writing so much today! I've updated a new story, and I've updated and old one that's kind of just been sitting around for a few months, then I posted two new poems! I'm honestly very proud of myself! I haven't written so much in so long!Any way, here are the links if you're feeling up to reading them!American SpiritA Spark of InspirationSleepZeroAmerican Spirit is about a teenage girl,...

I don’t know how effective this post will be, but I’m trying to find people who live around Portland Oregon who are interested in going to a small all day music festival at the Portland Roseland Theater on February 2. It’s an event where over 20 local unsigned musicians, bands, and DJ’s will be playing to win a prize of recording time and more show bookings and other things.Well, my...

I've just posted the first chapter to a story I hope I can keep working on. I've only finished one story in the fast many years I've been using this site. But maybe I can actually work this one through. It's titled American Spirit. It would be awesome if you guys could take a look at it. Here's the summary if you want to know the basis of what they story will be...

so i’ve moved back to to my last school/town this past summer, which i thought would be good, until i actually got back here and realized how shitty life is here.So last school year seemed shitty (being in a completely new town and school). I had no friends, nothing to do with my spare time, and I wasn’t quite positive on what was going on around me at all times. So I got back here, and I now...

This is my senior year, and my first time ever getting caught up in this kind of bull shit. It's not fun I might add.•Part 1: So me and Wyatt broke up about 2 weeks ago. It was for the most part a team effort, and we talked through all possibilities of what we could have or could not have done with in that moment. In the end of course we just gave up and decided to be friends. We both still...

(just to sum it up, this is my decision about my most recent ex made after some deep thought.)i'm not going to put in any effort to talk to wyatt and stay in contact with him. i mean, if he talks to me, then sure. but when we broke it off we both claimed that we still had feelings for each other. the only difference was that I would be able to work through the distance, but he wouldn't. So why try...

So last night, it wasn't my FIRST first time, but it was my first time with my new boyfriend. We've been friends for the past year now; he was my first friend at my new school. We had a weird relationship before where we were pretty close, but I had a boyfriend at that time and I felt bad having feelings for him while being with someone else so I decided to stop talking to him to try to make...

So me and Wyatt ate burritos and watched I Love You, Man. Then we cuddled a lot, and talked. Then we made out a lot, and then cuddled more, and talked some more. It was really quite fantastic. He kept telling me how much he liked me, and it was honestly like, the sweetest thing. Then his friend called, so I answered his phone to confuse the guy, and when I gave the phone back to Wyatt, he asked if...

So usually when me and Wyatt hang out we just drive around aimlessly looking for something to do. Which is what we did. And if we aren't out at Sheri's getting pie shakes at 1 am or running around Salvation Army on a lazy Summer's weekday afternoon, then we're sitting around talking. And I mean TALKING. We could talk forever, it's great really. I love it.So this was my last night at the apartment...

So, i got dumped last friday by a guy i dated for a year and 8 months... I've felt pretty shitty over the last week but this afternoon i feel great! Either my subconscious mind is just trying to move on quick, or this guy is actually really cute.my brother always has these guys over to jam with him and they wanted me to drum for them today and one of the guys is just a douchey hot head who is only...

I miss home so god damn much.I miss the friends.I miss that familiarity with everyone and everything where ever you went.I miss laughing at stupid things and waisting time on the river and in the woods.I miss knowing people and knowing people knew me.I miss the secrets that were impossible to keep and the constant conversation.I miss not caring what people thought of me.I miss always having some...

I haven't really been sleeping. I've been relatively happy though to be honest, but I've just felt a little, empty as well. I've been trying to drop old habits too, but it's not seeming to work. I always find my self acting on old activities to cope with my stress, and it's doing the exact opposite of what I wish it would do for me. Which would be, making me better.I've compiled a list of weekly...

Okay, so I'm normally not one to put myself out there like this, but I'm so bored right now. I don't think I can sleep. So I'm trying to chill on tumblr and my dashboard is completely dead. I need new people to follow. So If you are on and or know people that post stuff at this time of night/day what ever it is where you are and are seeing posts by this person, please send me some URLs. I'm...

Saying as no one really reads and truly understands journals. Half the time the only reason people go in to journals is to see if the poster wants to read something so they can go flaunt their writing. The other half of the people are looking for some sappy girl's love story to beat off to later. Yeah, I just said that people beat off to your journal posts. It happens.But anyways, this makes me a...

I've been on and off this thing for the past few months, but I haven't actually done anything. I feel like a bad person for leaving you hanging. But I will be picking back up on the writing soon. I'm moving into a new house soon, so I'll be home alone all day with ZERO FRIENDS. I'll be lurking the internet endlessly! Hurray ey?(;Well, I think I'm off again for now guys. But please stop by for a...

My mother just exploded on me for making adult like decisions;about something that happened last year. If only she knew that while making this decision, I spent many nights crying myself to sleep due to high levels if stress that my 15 year old self could not handle. Now; she just put all of it back on me and I feel like I could just die.All I’m really hoping for now is an apology. But in all...

so I had pep band tonight and we had to play for two games meaning we were there for FOUR freaking hours!! It was ridiculous! I never want to hear one more modern day pop song played by a high school concert band AGAIN! I'll shoot myself I SWEAR!That and my boy friend is down about something and I respect his privacy but all the time he tells me he's bothered by something and he all the time he...