At about 9 pm on August 30th, 2009, I got a call from my best friend James telling me something I never, EVER thought I'd hear. His words still tear a hole in my heart to this day."Ben shot himself. He's dead."I was at the mall with my other friends; we had literally just said bye to Ben, James, and Paul at about 7:30 pm. And when I got that call, my heart just stopped. I fell to the floor, and I...