February 3rd, 2015 at 12:21pm
Thank you! Yeah, you were about two days late, but that's okay! I mean I did give you a 26 day head start and you almost made it. So should I give you like a month in advance next year so you'll be on time? lol
It's really weird to see 19 under my username now. It's like I'm that close to being 20 years old? No way dude. I don't feel like it. but there's also a part of me that's like, "Man, I've been a teenager for way too long anyways. Let's stop being a teenager."
You have a legit excuse. I forgive you. lol
Yeah, I'll replace the picture in like 10 days though just you watch. lol
It was such a long time ago. Dear lord, I still get emails from gaia, but I don't remember my passwords and stuff for it. I move from website to website a lot so its hard to keep up with usernames and passwords.
I think I apologized more for myself than you then because you really don't care. lol That and I'm usually a pretty honest person so it bothers me whenever I think about how much I used to lie. I think that has a lot to do with being a teenager. We have grown up to be even stranger adults. Omg if I was a kid, I wouldn't have to worry about college anymore. Do you think I can pass for like twelve or no? xD I don't wanna be an adult.
But for the record (that's more so I feel better lol), the following things are true: My gender, age, and name are all true. My parents being divorced and my disagreements with my mother are all true. I have one little brother whom is strange. I may have said I had an older brother, but we had a strange arrangement where some of my family had considered adopting cousins and stuff so that's where that came from. It was just easier to explain in general although is still technically a lie. lol It didn't work out obviously. And he's not around much anymore anyhow so I am the oldest child officially.
Because of that arrangement though I now "technically" have a 7 year old uncle with anger management problems so that's interesting. lol
Yeah, dude! Now I'm a super mega awesome friend! It's an upgrade. lol
But it's okay since I'm a super mega awesome friend I forgive you and all is well. Right?
Whoo! Friends! *insert fist pump here*
I've known you longer than a lot of my friends actually. A lot longer than my current best friend. I've known one of my really good friends since 2nd grade so not the oldest one. I'm not quite that bad at keeping friends.
My dad and brother did a fashion show with the scarves for me too. It was a scarring experience really.
After seeing them model the scarves nobody will want to remember. lol I no longer need the scarf though. My cast thing is off, the stitches are out, and I now have a tiny scar.
Perhaps. I mean I really like reading too, but the drugs they put you on don't really make you feel like reading tbh.
Yes! Well, I like to think that they can control it at will, but I really think if ghosts were in the right state of mind, they wouldn't be ghosts. I think they're confused like constantly because they don't know where the afterlife is so they're just mindlessly searching.
You don't mind the drug induced ramblings of a strange teenager girl? lol Actually with that description, I sound interesting. lol
I am somewhat well. Everything with the surgery went well and I've got a scar that'll probably look cool.
I've recently withdrew from the college I was going to because I lost my scholarship and I wouldn't be able to pay for the school without it. So that kind of sucks. I only owe 2,000 dollars in loans though so that's good.
I didn't like being stuck in a small town college though so I'm not too bad. Now I'm just stressing about what I'm going to do with life right now, but I think that's a normal thing people around my age deal with.
How about yourself?
I dunno. To me, being 19 is a whole different kind of thing than being a teenager or least a younger one. At least as a teenager, everyone was kind of working towards the same goal: "We're all in high school and we're trying to graduate!" After graduation, it's kind of a different thing. Everyone has different things going on and it's confusing because some of the people I graduated with are married and some even have babies. Others are working. Several are going to school. It's like, "Okay, so what am I going to do?"
lol that's good!
haha too late! Already did it.
lol I have two emails. One of them is one I made when I was like 9 or something for neopets and the other I used make myself older for myspace back when that was a thing. The one for myspace was just basically my full name so I use that for like official stuff like my FAFSA, school, and etc.
The other one is for like everything else. That's where gaia emails me all the time. lol I get soo many food coupons there because my dad gets excited about coupons. I even have a roadhouse app that sends me an offer whenever I'm close to one of their restaurants which became a problem whenever I realized how close my best friend lives to the restaurant.
I get excited about the Bath and Body Works stuff though. Pretty sure I'm obsessed with good smelling lotion and body spray. It's a problem. lol
lol might have been a good description of how I was. I just had a friend who was like, "Hey, you like websites? Here's a lot of them! Let's be apart of them!" That's how I found not only mibba, but gaia too. lol
Maybe lol I went from like neopets to quizilla to quibblo to some Naruto RP site to some kind of monster RP site to mibba to gaia to youtube and then I guess felt satisfied with the websites I was already apart of. A lot of those I don't even know the password or anything to anymore.
I didn't think of it that way, but that makes sense. The smallest things bother me and I think it kind of has to do with my expectations I have for myself. Plus I don't think having a psychologist that lies to you is all that helpful and I do want to be some kind of psychologist. lol
I'm pretty sure I say thank you more than I apologize honestly. I remember reading about a study that said women apologize more than men though. So maybe it might not seem like a lot to me, but it could seem like a lot to you. lol
Yeah, I think it bothers us because on the inside we're like, "But we've changed! I've learned my lesson."
Well, I did tell you I was a unicorn, but I mean...there's no way you'd know if that's a lie or not. lol
If you mention something I lied about, I'll let you know. lol but no I didn't really lie all that much. Me from the past wasn't as much of a little shit as I thought. lol
Yes! It's an official title. All that matters is that it sounds cool. lol
I don't usually stay really good friends with people for very long. lol It's rare. Yup, that's it! :P
The fact that they both strutted through the house with the scarves and showed my grandma...it was just a little concerning. lol
Yes, I can type with two hands! Thanks!
Drugs can effect people in different ways i guess.
Who knows? I think my version sounded a little more depressing because I was picturing confused and frustrated ghosts.
I am very good at answering my own questions. :P
I was thinking of telling them I was viking. lol
Is it a lie if I buy a viking sword and a viking helmet? xD
Me too. I hate decisions. Especially when my first choice doesn't work out for me.
Class? Sounds so exciting. lol
You totally should! Get those ideas in your ideas out of your head and onto paper...well I guess it's digital paper.
I've been thinking about doing that as well, but I've been in one of those moods where I just don't know what I want to do. Nothing sounds fun to me. I usually like reading, writing, playing video games, watching stuff, but I've just been meh lately. None of it sounds good enough, but I have no idea what would be. I don't know if I'm making sense, it's just a meh feeling. I didn't even want to get out of bed today. I'm just not content. Its a strange feeling. I'm hoping it will pass. Dx