Sometimes I felt like i was lost, I'm not really there, I wanted to die for years, tried, 25 times and finally ended up in a psych ward, for the better in this case. but now, almost a year later, its hard to live. Fuck.....I try so damn hard. I'm a horse back rider, gone pro an all. but it still doesn't do much. the depression has hit hard, all the meds wreck havok on my mind, I'm a writer and an...