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Thank you for all the great comments! I really appreciate it!

I understand completely. It's really difficult to refrain. Lol. And that's why I took Bone Maiden down. Because I hadn't really gotten very far with it and it was originally just going to be random chapters that I would add whenever I felt like it. But a plotline began to develop and then I realized I needed to go back and write from the beginning of her story, rather than the middle, and so I had to start over. :/

I do that a lot too. Usually Word or Firefox corrects that one though, so I don't worry about it as much as the mistakes that end up being real words and so Microsoft just skips them. Like ever/every and form/from But yeah, betas are also good at noticing plot holes or things that are slightly weird or off. Because our minds work a certain way and it's difficult for us to put ourselves in the shoes of others. We just assume everyone thinks the same way we do. And so having my husband read over my work he picks up sentences that don't really make sense to him. Sometimes it's as easy as me just explaining it to him, and sometimes I have to reword the entire sentence because I realize it won't make sense to an outsider. That's why on occasion in my author's notes I'll mention something. Like he's the one who pointed out how different Steve acts in Monster compared to how he acts in the movies. And I wanted it to be clear that it was intentional. Unfortunately though if this was a book I wouldn't be able to make an author's note. So having him point that stuff out makes me realize it needs to be worked on.

I had a cat carrier but it got broken. WHICH! That reminds me! I bought the cat carrier so I could take her back to California with me. And we ended up stopping in Utah and we found a lost poodle. But we couldn't find the poodle's owners so we ended up just stealing the poodle. (I looked online for lost poodles all the time. I even put up an add trying to find her owner. Never did). But my cat was totally okay with the poodle when we got settled in. She hissed at her in the car when we were driving. But when we lived with her she maybe attacked her once. But not viciously. She just kind of smacked her away. But they got along just fine otherwise. I didn't notice the crazy aggression until someone brought a golden retriever to our house and she went completely nuts and attacked the dog, and my mom when she tried to protect the dog, and me when I tried to get her away from the dog. I completely forgot about the poodle because we didn't have her for long. I would say it's just because the poodle was a small dog, but the chihuahua was smaller and she beat the shit out of him. And the reason the cat carrier reminded me of the poodle is because the poodle is the one who broke it.

Yeah. :/

Lol.

Yeah, mine didn't get too big. I was in an A cup until I turned 18 and they suddenly grew late. But they only progressed to a B cup and stayed that way until I had my son. Now I'm a C. So it's not too much of a transition. I've heard some people get gigantic and some people don't change at all. Although, when I was actually nursing my boobs were massive. They were still a C cup but they were just "full." Ha. That's probably really the only point where you're just like "Jesus, these suckers are huge." After that I think they mellow out. At least for me they did.

Aw, I would buy you one. :( I would suggest online like I did. But I got them from Redbubble so they're kind of pricy. I bought 4 shirts (one for my dad) and it totaled at $117. I wasn't going to get them when I saw that price but my husband convinced me to. And I kind of have buyers guilt on the Loki one because there were better designs and I don't know why I chose this one. But the Bucky one is the best I've seen in general, even though my boobs kind of make it wonky. There aren't a lot of good Bucky shirts. BUT I ABSOLTELY LOVE MY RAVENCLAW SHIRT! It's perfect. And my dad really likes his shirt. I got him a Son's of Odin shirt.

Oh my god. I wish I could tell you what I have planned because I'm so excited! I want to write it out NOW, but I keep procrastinating. I just keep watching Once Upon a Time and then playing Sims. Speaking of Once Upon a Time! I want to write a Jefferson/Mad Hatter (Sebastian Stan) story really badly. But Clara/Hiddleston. is the one who gave me the idea because she said she wanted to make one with Alice. And I don't want to steal her idea. Although ours would be marginally different I think. But I still want to write it. I probably just won't post it. Ha.

Awesome. I'm glad to hear that. I don't know why I was so worried about it because literally no one seems to care what perspective it's from. Hahaha.

Oh my god! I hope that you do! I'm so excited for that! You have to tell me what it's like! And buy lots of cool stuff! AND BUTTERBEER!

I'm the same way. But I do like some creepy crawlies. Like... tarantulas don't bother me. Most spiders don't bother me as long as they don't try to eat my soul or come at me unexpectedly. So I'm usually cool with bugs as long as they aren't cockroaches and don't touch me unexpectedly. Except moths. I really hate moths. Yeah, we have a shitton of animals in the states. But a lot of them weren't native here. A lot of them were brought. I mean, we'd have a lot of wildlife anyway but it's a big continent. Like wolves. Wolves aren't native to this area but we have a lot of wolves because they were going extinct and we have the perfect landscape for them. So they released a bunch of wolves here and now they're pissed off that the wolves are breeding and eating livestock. Which makes me angry because HELLO THEY'RE WOLVES WHAT DID YOU EXPECT?

Yay!

Ogh'aoghalsdjga.m... I'm dying! Look at their cute faces ommigod! I love them! I love THEM BOTH! algh'asdla... *falls over* I want to meet an otter. He just plopped down on his butt. What a cutie.

I tried to be like that. And I fully support their decision. But I still have this weirdly indifferent feeling and it's annoying me because I love them to death and I shouldn't feel this way. But to be fair, I've been like that towards music in general. I hardly ever listen to music and I don't get as passionate about it as I used to. And I've been that way for a long time. Before they broke up. They were just the only band I still felt that passion for. And now that they broke up I've kind of moved away from the music scene in general. So it's not entirely their fault. I just hate that I can't get myself motivated to listen to their new stuff. I haven't even listened to all of their Conventional Weapons releases. Ugh. I fail.

And see, I love A7X too and I guess I can't say I was only passionate about MCR because when Nightmare came out I sat in my car and cried for like an hour. And I really really love that CD, to the extent that I love MCR. But I haven't listened to hardly any of Hail to the King. So maybe it's not my resentment towards MCR. It's just a weird phase of indifference towards music in general.

Although! (another random point) I do seem to listen to a lot of weird folksy music and I have no idea why. I'm not obsessively passionate about this music like I was for MCR and A7X but that seems to be my mood at the moment. Like especially The Civil Wars. Because they're gloomy and folksy and weirdly melancholy. AND I was listening to them last night and I was thinking the song Devil's Backbone might be good for the Monster sequel. It gave me some Jo/Bucky feels. You can listen to it here if you want.

I DID ACTUALLY! Oh my god that song was the cutest thing ever. I wanted to buy it to contribe to their college fund. Lol. But I forgot about it until right this second.

Lol. Yay! That makes me happy! *Joins squealing*

@ Indigo Umbrella
That's what happens to me. Once I have an idea, and start writing it, it's hard to wait to post it up. I just so get so excited, and the minute I finish writing I want to post it up. I don't get a lot of readers on my stuff, but I hate leaving those who take the time to read my stuff waiting. I can hold on to first chapters, but once I post, its tough to hold on to any other chapters. That's why my first story was all over the place. It was a twist on the idea of the guys being 'killjoys', but then while writing it I kinda forgot about it a little, and didn't put enough emphasis on it. There were so many mistakes, so I took it down so now I'm gonna fix it up, and make it the story it should have been. I'm really excited to do it!

I always mistype 'the' as 'teh' for some reason. I hadn't planned on finding one, but I was talking to pixiewayro and I offered to beta for her since I'm good at spotting mistakes in stories that aren't mad, and then she offered to beta for me. It's good though, not just for the mistakes but it's good to have someone to ask for advice if you need a readers perspective on something. You're right about the skimming - I'm awful for it, even when I try to concentrate.

Hhhmmm, that's pretty aggressive alright. She'll never be completely happy with a dig around, but hopefully with enough time she'll get used to it. If she's prone to attacking, it makes it a bit harder to get her adjusted, as you don't want her to hurt the pug. Do you have a cat carrier for her? It might be a good idea to have her in it while introducing them. She'll go crazy at first, but she'll calm down eventually, even if it takes a few tries. That's what I would do, anyway.

At least you did get out of it.

I'm not surprised at all. It is an awesome top.

Lol, I heard that happens to a lot of women after they have children. for me, I've always had a bigger chest. I was a 'DD' by the time was I 18. I went up to a FF when I put on a lot of weight, but now I'm back down to a DD. I worry about what would happen if I actually had kids...I dread to think about how big I could get :-/ But I would love to have a Loki or Bucky top, it would make me feel so much better.

Aaawww, I like that though. It's far more realistic, considering their situation. It's sweeter I think, when you see them actually working at a relationship, rather than just 'happily ever after' falling at their feet.

And I don't think anybody would mind. y first story was 3rd person pov, but I changed it to first person for the prequel because it worked better. Nobody stopped reading it because of the change in pov. You do what you need to to get the best story out.

Oh, I've already said we're going to Harry Potter if I go. Nobody argued! We're all Harry Potter fans though. Well, I'm the only one who was obsessed and read all the books as well as watchign the movies, but everyone else in my family loved the movies. I really hope I can go! I'll cry if I don't. I don't care that I'm 26.

I love most animals, except creepy crawlies and spiders. But as long as it's not venomous, or creepy with lots of leg, I tend to love them. I love squirrels, they're so cute! We also don't have moles. We really don't have a lot of animals here lol.

And I will. Probably in the next day or two. Or even today if I get the time. Hehe.

Okay, I'll try uploading them now. I couldn't find the photos I had of the tiger lying in front of the grass, but I do have another one. And I have a few of the otter.



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Oh, and here's the tiger



I took it weirdly too. I had a day of training with work on what should have been a day off, so I was on the bus when I found out. I just went, like, really cold but I was in public and then I had to go to work so I couldn't cry. Then I went home, really depressed for the rest of the day and I couldn't listen to them. I think I would have cried if I did. Then, the next day, I was just like 'you know what, it sucks, but I'm gonna remember them and the way they helped me deal with tough stuff'. So, I started listening to them and I felt okay. I'm still really sad about it, but I think writing and still listening to them helps. In a way it was a good thing, though. I stopped discovering new music for a long time, and when they broke up, I started looking up bands I've never listened to. That's why I'm into A7X now. (They're my love love). Every fan took it badly though, it was so unexpected. I get the resentment, especially when it was done they way it happened so don't feel bad about it. It's your way of getting over it. I'm sure it'll pass.

Did you hear his song 'BFFs'? His daughters sing on it, and it's So. Freaking. Cute. I nearly died from from cuteness overload.

Oh. My. God. You have no idea how happy that makes me. I loved Mockingbird so much! And The Ghost of You!!!Oh my goodness, I'm squealing so much here. EEEEEPPPPP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! *Dies*

Yeah, it's fun because when you first start something you're really excited and want to share it. But it got to be too much for me because I am constantly changing my mind and ideas and so I had to go back and fix things. I mean, Monster was already written when I started posting it and I STILL had to go back and make changes. MORE THAN ONCE. So that kind of gives a good example of why I wait. Lol.

Also, I do that a lot too. My biggest issue is every/ever. I CONSTANTLY write ever as every and I never notice it until I'm either about to post or it has been up for months. Ughkhfgal... But yeah, betas are helpful. I never wanted to have one before because I have no idea why, I just didn't. But they're super helpful on picking up stuff. We know our work and we know our intentions so we tend to just skim through instead of read them thoroughly.

Yeah, I think with time she'll be alright with it. It's just the violence that worries me. Because like when I found those pugs I had to bring them in the house until I could find leashes for them. So I put them in a separate room so she wouldn't attack them. But she still tried to get through the door, tore up the carpet, scratched the shit out of the door, and even attacked my dad's other cat and cut his ear open just because he was near her when she tried to get the dogs through the door.

Exactly. It's really sad. Like my mom did a lot of shitty things but at least she was in the right in that aspect. Although, my mom was pretty great when she was young. She got steadily worse. Nowadays she would keep us in pageants as long as we could keep bringing in money for her. :/ But at least we got out of it before it progressed.

^.^ I love them! I'm wearing the Bucky one right now. Are you surprised? Lololololol.

It honestly did not occur to me because I've never actually had boobs until I became a mom. And I don't buy clothes often. So I'm still accustomed to worrying about my shirts being too loose, rather than too tight on the boob area. But Loki's face was like super derp in the first picture I took. Bucky still looks frumpy but I don't care. I can look down and see his face whenever I want. *tee hee*

Yeah! And that's what she kind of has to learn. Because she know this can't last because Bucky can never be "normal" in the way that she's defining normal. He's always going to be fighting for something or running from something. And there's never going to be that "buy a house and plant flowers and raise children and work at a desk 9-5 every day" kind of happy ending. But they do ultimately learn (in the sequel) that they are both each other's "right now" as well as "forever." Just that their relationship will never be normal and they have to work through that.

And yay! I think that's what's been holding me back. Because I have the plot in my head. Just getting it on paper was suffering because Jo is very one-track minded. And she tends to focus more on what's right in front of her, rather than what's going on as a whole. And I don't want to take that trait away from her in order to make the story flow easier. But thank you! I just didn't want to change it up on people if they weren't cool with it.

That's awesome! I hear Boston is really pretty. Lots of old pretty buildings. But I hope you get to go! It sounds like it will be super fun! (And maybe you can get to Harry Potter? *wink wink nudge nudge*)

OOOOOOOOh. That makes sense. I see now. But they're so cute! But I think I just love all animals in general. Because we have squirrels up the a-hole and they fuck shit up constantly but I still squee excitedly whenever I see one. We also have moles really bad in our yard and they're destroying our yard but I don't want them to die. :(

Yeah, all the raccoons I've ever been around have been pretty chill. At most they'll just run away from you. Unless you back them in a corner and then they'll get crazy.

For serious. I don't care how smelly they are. I want to hold one like a baby. THAT'S A GOOD IDEA! DOOO IT!

You just need a link to it. Like I use photobucket or tinypic. And then you put [ img ] the link [ /img ] without the spaces and vola!

Yeah, and nobody wanted to move onto the next exhibit. Everyone just kind of stared at them silently for a while. So I focused on a baby chimp getting his ass beat by his mama chimp because he was being a little brat. Hahaha.

I understand that. Like I don't know what's going on with me because I was really indifferent about the breakup at first. And then I shed real tears, but that was also right after my grandma died and I was just already a huge mess and it just happened at the absolute worst time. But now I feel weirdly detached and I feel horrible about it. I barely listen to them and I haven't even tried to listen to Mikey's new stuff. I did listen to Gerard's new song and I knew that I was supposed to like it but I just had that detached feeling again and moved on. And I don't know if this is some weird form of resentment or something. I do still hope they'll get back together and when they DO pop up on my stereo I belt them out at full volume. But I still feel... weird... about the whole thing. I love them to death. I just don't know what's going on with me. I'll still love them until the day I die but I can't work up the motivation to be as pumped as I was before. I feel bad about it.

I know. Those kids must be so freaking adorable. They're already hilarious from what I've heard. Hahahaha.

Yes! :D They will be mostly the same. The only thing I'm going to change is the fact that Queen ends up with Rattlesnake. Because the prequel will be his story and I decided to give him a woman that is not Queen. So Queen's story will thus be a bit more tragic but Rattlesnake will have a lady. Otherwise everything will be the same. OH! And Jack and Penny are going to switch places again. Because the conclusion story will be Penny's story combined with my short lived killjoy fic with OC's. And I think Mockingbird Girl is going to go back up as a fan fic too. I'm not going to change that one. So yeah! I will still have MCR fics. Just Killjoy fics. Mostly. Also The Ghost of You, whenever I get around to finishing that one. That'll still be a fan fic. :D But yay! That makes me happy that you're happy!

@ Indigo Umbrella
I have three cousins in Boston, so the plan is to visit them for a few days, then go down to Florida. I to Florida back in '99, when my aunt lived there. I've always wanted to go back, so fingers crossed I can get the money up to go!
I think hares are a bit bigger, with smaller ears, but there's not too much of a difference. Hedgehogs are viewed as pests here too, I think they destroy plants and stuff, though they're not at all vicious really. I don't think I could ever be afraid of a racoon though, they're just so cute. They seem harmless enough, just leave them be and they'll leave you be. Simple.

The cuteness factor outweighs the smell. And the coolness factor too. Actually, I might make that list. You know what, I'm gonna make a blog, just full of lists, of like, my fave actors, animals I need to hold/own, stuff like that. I think it needs to be done.

I don't follow it either, but I'm sure you'd hear about it if it was common. I think.

I would post photos up, but I have no idea how to insert a picture into a comment. I'm technologically retarded.

Oh, that must have been so embarrassing with your grandparents there. You feel x100 times more awkward than if it happened while your parents were there.

I miss them too. They played a big part in me finding myself. I think them breaking up kinda pushed me into writing fan fic, maybe it's a weird way of holding onto them or something. At least they're doing other stuff though, so they're not gone completely. Gerard has a new song, and I really like it, Mikey's new band first single is really good too. And apparently Ray said in a recent interview that 'you never know' if they'll get back together in the future. I still hold out hope they'll get back together in like, five or ten years, as silly as that sounds. And how could you not want your babies to inherit such a beautiful face? Man, his wife and kids are so lucky. *sighs* It's almost unfair that someone is just so sexy, cute and adorable at the same time. And he seems like such a nice guy from what I've seen in interviews and stuff.

Wait, so they're still gonna have poison and fun ghoul? EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! *does happy dance* I thought you were changing them to originals, but OMG!!! That makes me ridiculously happy!!! You have no idea!

@ Indigo Umbrella.

Take the time you need to get them up. I wish I had waited and been patient when posting some of my stuff. Like, having the stories pre written would be great, and then there wouldn't be gaps in updates and I wouldn't have so many typos , which is just due to the fact I'm a sucky typer, and not that I suck at spellings and grammar. Like, I'll look back and see I've typed 'my' instead of 'me' and I'm just like 'wtf? how did I not notice that I typed the wrong word when I checked over the chapter', and 'how did I think one word and write another?'. I don't know, it's weird. I make typos all the time, just because I'm a careless typer. Then I get impatient to post, so then I post stuff it, and then I realise I've made a few typos that I missed. I have a beta now, so she spots the mistakes before I post.

I read an article on it before, and it said it should be done gradually over a week or so, where it starts of as having them seeing each other, but not being able to physically go for one another, then a few minutes in the same room, then you increase it gradually. It should work.

Exactly. It's fake beauty they promote, not real beauty, in my opinion, and it's completely subjective and there's no set standard where they're judged fairly. Like, sports and stuff is all about skills, and determination, and the time you put into making yourself better at your chosen field. Pageants is just about promoting falseness and I don't see it as anything to be admired. Put your time into teaching your kids sports, or to read, not on makeup and false tans.

AAAAAHHHH!!!!! I'm so jealous. They're so awesome. Especially the Loki one! Eeeeeppppp!!!!!

haha, that happens to me too. If you have a decent sized chest, like I do, no top with a design like that looks right. :(

And I get what your saying. Not every relationship has to last forever, and there's nothing wrong with being someone's 'right now'. People can put too much emphasis on longevity, when really the here and now is what matters/ Oh, also, I forgot to add that 3rd person would be awesome, especially if it helps you get the story right. I don't think it would be a problem just because the first story is in first person.

Oh yay! I've never been to Boston. But I lived in Florida for a while. I saw a lot of crazy ass animals there. Oh really? What's the difference between a bunny and a hare? I feel like I should know that. But I'm not sure. We have a lot of little brown bunnies here and in California. And in the desert we had those jackrabbits that are super cute and weirdly elongated. Yeah, I think raccoon attacks are rare. I know they can be vicious when threatened but if you get attacked by a raccoon you must have been doing something wrong. Because I lived in the mountains my whole life and I never knew anyone to get attacked by them. Although most people see them as pests too because they go through your trash and knock a bunch of shit over. But even when they were digging through my trash I thought they were cute. Hahaha. And I have no idea why there's a raccoon in Monster. I just felt like he needed to be there. And Jo loves him even though he tears up her attic and digs in her trash. Hahahaha.

I've been told they stink but I don't care I want to hold one anyway. I just always see people holding them like it's no big deal. They just kinda chill there like toddlers. That is a good list. I feel like it might be necessary in the future for you to have a list like that on hand. That way if you ever get asked you can just be like "Actually, I've created a list. See to it that I hold these animals."

Yeah, I don't think I've ever heard of them attacking people? But I also don't follow Australian news. So Idk.

AWWWW! I wanna see! Tigers are cute too. I love when they act like giant kittens.

I was with my grandparents too. And they were like... doing some shit that I didn't even know about yet even though I was like 16 and everyone was laughing and I was like "Please chimps. Stop. Don't do that here. Not in front of the children. Which includes me."

I miss Frank actually. That probably played a part in my final decision too. Because I love those boys and I miss them. But you are most definitely not crazy! I love Frank's beautiful boyish face! I wanna make all the babies with him. It's perfectly understandable!

Also, I should mention that my Killjoy stories are still going to remain relatively the same. I am going to be changing a few things but only because I'm writing a prequel that will change a few minor details. But Indigo/Frank and Doll/Gerard will still be a thing. I still want to make Ray/Queen and Mikey/Dia too but I can't seem to get started on those ones. Also a concluding story to wrap up that whole series. So there will be a lot of them. Hahaha.

@ Indigo Umbrella
I may possibly be going to Florida and Boston next year. I hope to, anyway. I think we have wild bunnies here too, though again I've never seen a wild one. I may have seen hare once, though. Racoons just seem so adorable. with their little paws, and cute facts, and they always look like their smiling and just...ugh, I wish we had them here. I can't imagine one mauling someone. They seem too cute to do anything but cuddle!

Oh, yeah, Koala holding is a worthy life goal. I would love to go just for the koalas. I bet their hugs are awesome, and cuddly. I want a koala. And an otter, and a platypus, and a racoon, and a cat, and a bunny.And a puppy. Actually, I better stop before I make another list.

I'm sure they would...though it's probably unlikely they'd attack? I mean, they'd have to feel pretty threatened, probably.

Oh, I have the photos on my phone of him...they are so adorable up close. The tiger was also right in front of the glass, on a table, sleeping. It's scary how big they are! And yeah, that would scar me too...nobody wants to see that.



I love Frank too. I'm actually gonna write my first Frank fic soon. It's the next chaptered story I'm gonna post. I have the first chapter done, and the second one started. He doesn't get enough love. I can't wait to get started on it properly. I just love Frank so much. With those big, hazel eyes...man, they are, hands down, the most attractive eyes I've ever seen. Seriously. Like, I would want him to father my children, if I had the choice, over any other man (yes, I'm including Gerard too in that). And the smile...how adorable is his smile? I swear, when I see a picture of him smiling, my hormones go freaking crazy and I'm all like 'please make babies with me'...I sound crazy, don't I? I can't help it!

Aw, Jo. My baby. That is definitely part of the reason. She thinks both of them are two screwed up for it to work. And she doesn't actually take what Sam said into account. That no one said anything about it working. Also, the whole theme of her sister's story (which I need to put up so it will make sense) is that it's not about them "working" and lasting forever or whatever. Its just about the fact that they need each other now and they have feelings now and acting on those feelings are good right now. No one said anything about forever. See what I mean?

Sorry, it just sent before I was ready to send it. That's the second time it's done that now. Ugh...

Anyway! Frank I love him. And I still feel kinda bad about taking Marley's man from her but it will still be Frank. Frank in heart. I'm excited to get back to it! I just have such a huge workload and I want to get them fully completed before I start putting them back up. Like I used to always have my stories finished when I started posting them and so I never ran out of updates. Because I tend to make a lot of changes as I go along. And putting stuff up that wasn't ready really screwed me up for a while. :/

I hope so. I want my pug. :(

Yeah, exactly. I can understand like competitive sports where children learn that they can't always win and that's life and it's a valuable lesson. But losing because you're not pretty enough or whatever is totally fucked. Because it's nothing you can change. Sports you can keep practicing and you can be a sports master but you're still going to lose sometimes. Beauty pageants is a total makeover of who you are as a person and it can totally destroy you.

They're awesome! Wanna see?




I had to like stick my chest out in the first two images and pull my shirt tight because my bewbs keep distorting them. Hahaha. I did not take that into account when I made these purchases.

Come to America. We have moose. I will share moose with you. I've never actually seen a hedgehog either. We have wild bunnies! But I don't see them that often. I just know they're there. Jumping around in fields. Doing bunny stuff. OH MAN I LOVE RACOONS! We don't really get them here in Idaho but we had them in California and the racoons by my house were so NICE. Like I didn't even know raccoons could be mean until I was older because we used to feed them all the time. We'd go outside and give them treats and bread and the mommy raccoons would nudge the baby's forward and the babies would come up and take the snacks with their little tiny hands. And those were good times. They're awesome. But when I went to California last time they wouldn't come to me. In retrospect I probably could have been mauled to death. But I wanted to be friends with them.

It would be difficult. Lol. I have to go to Australia though because I have to hold a koala. It is a life goal and needs to happen before I die or I will never have achieved real success.

Aw, good kitty. Poor baby.

RIGHT! Aren't they cutie patooties? I would be scared of a wild one. But if I saw a happy little friendly guy who was used to humans I'd be cool with him. Plus, I assume they have anti-venom? I'm not sure how that works.

AWWWWW! I love otters. I've never seen one up close. Or even at a zoo. I don't think. But they seem so smart and cute. Hahahaha. Oh man. I saw some chimps getting real freaky at the zoo once. It was... scarring.

;glha'gha'hdg

I love Frank!

@ Indigo Umbrella
It makes me sad that I will never see one in real life. Not stuck in this boring country, anyway. Hedgehogs are really adorable, though I'm not sure if I've seen one in real life. They are really common here though, and almost seen as pests, I think. You know we don't have? Raccoons. I wish we did, they're so freaking cute. Yeah, part of would love to go to Australia, but I think my fear of killer creepy crawlies would make it impossible.

Well, he got saved in the end, so the kitty was okay. It was a happy story! And he owners found him as well. So, happiness all around!

Oh. My. God. That picture just changed my view of Platypies. For real. Oh my goodness! So freaking adorable! I knew about them being venomous, actually. Which would scare me off going near one, if I ever saw one.

Me too. Last time I was at the zoo, I spent ages just watching the otter. He was so cute, and funny to watch. He was playing with this rock, rolling it from one paw to the other. Then he just stopped, laid on his back and started...touching...himself. But ah, he was so cute. I'm going into cuteness overload thinking about it now!

You're welcome. I mean every word!

Oh, Chasing Cars sounds interesting...although, in my mind, I will ALWAYS picture it as Frank. I don't know why, but that story in particular will always be a Frank story to me. A lot of your other stories I could re-imagine as others maybe, but definitely not with that one. I don't know why. Maybe because it was one of my favourite Frank stories of all time. I don't know how many times I read that, seriously. But it's good that you're making them originals though. I think it'll be strange at first having read them as fan fics, but after reading a chapter or two, I'll get used to it. And it'll be interesting to see what changes are made. You have no idea how excited I am to see your stuff posted up again! :)

They do adjust, although sometimes it takes time. They say it any new animal should be introduced slowly, so that they gradually get used to the idea of being around the new pet. Once they spend enough time with them, they chill out a bit, even if they still don't like the cat/dog.

That one doesn't sound too bad. It's stuff like tanning, makeup and swimsuits that bothers me. Like, judging a 5 year old on swimwear, is just plain fucked up. It's sexualising a child, and it really disgusts me. Things like cutest hair and stuff I can get over, it's kinda cute. But yeah, your story is another reason why I don't like them. I mean, kids have to learn how to lose, but pageants are too personal. It makes a child feel awful about themselves if they don't come away with anything, and that's awful. No child should feel bad about themselves, especially about their appearance. Life is tough enough.

Aw, awesome. That's really nice of him. I wish someone would give me money *sobs*. But yeah, I'm mega jealous of the tops. Did they come? Were they as awesome as they looked?

Lol. Poor Morgan/Megan/Marion. That was just to add a lil bit of somethin somethin. Hahaha.

Yay Bucky! You might have mentioned it. But I'm right there with you. *Squishes his face*

Thanks! ^.^

AWW! I've never seen a moose. I am really sad about this. I did see one from a distance, but it was too far and I didn't have my glasses on. So I just saw a brown blorp walking through some water. HEDGEHOGS OH MY GOD I WOULD DIE I LOVE THEM SO MUCH! We have badgers too but I've only ever seen them at our local zoo. Which is also the only place I've ever seen an elk. But those suckers are HUGE. Lol. That's awesome! We have a lot of snakes and spiders here. Not to Australia's extent. But they get pretty bad. Hahaha. Yeah, Australia is terrifying. I still want to go but I'll be the one with like a bug net umbrella, going around spraying everything. Won't step in the ocean just in case I accidentally step on a washed up box jellyfish.

AWWWWWWW! How sad! Poor baby! Yeah, we get news like that in Idaho because nothing happens here. But news in California was always dramatic and tragic. No kitty rescue stories. :(

For real. :/

So did I! Here, let me see if I can find a size reference for this lil cuties.


Although I should warn you that platypies are the world's only known venomous mammal. So there's that too. Goddamn Australia.

I want a pet otter! I know that's not a thing but they just seem so playful and happy like you could just put them in the bath and they could just play like a dog but in your bathtub. Eeeeee! AWWWWWWWWW! Meercats are so cute! I wanna see baby meercats!

Thank you. ^.^

Same here. I mean, with my old fan fics. I think that's part of the reason I decided to stop writing them. Because I didn't feel like most of them connected to the band whatsoever. And I was like "This can be an original fic. I might have more freedom with this characters if I can make them original." And then the idea just festered in my head and I had to do it. But yeah! That makes total sense! I think I'm still going to do that with a lot of my fanfics turned original. I just want to use them as faceclaims and then I can build their stories and histories without having to worry about accuracy or whatever. I can just make shit up. And that sounds fun to me. Although some of my old fan fics aren't going to have their original face claims. Like I got the idea to change Chasing Cars from Frank to Chris Evans. And I know that's a weird change because they're so different but it just worked. Like really well. And so now this new character clicks with Marley really well and I just love him. I mean, he's the same character. Same everything. Just his name and backgrounds and faceclaim and things are different and idk. I'm really happy about that change.

Yeah! But I'm also hoping it mellows her out. Like with the black cat that lives upstairs. She seems somewhat okay with him now. Whereas before she would hiss at him and stuff. Now she's like "Do whatever you want. Just stay over there." and he watches her. I still haven't seen her with dogs yet. Except for someone walking their dog down the street and she watched attentively until they were gone.

Yeah, I don't like pageants either. But the ones she goes to aren't like that. Like they don't overly do them up and make them look like adults. They're like small town county fair pageants. And they judge on things like prettiest hair, cutest outfit, best performance. And so far she won an award for prettiest hair. But she wasn't all done up or anything. She just had pigtails in her regular hair. And she wears tutus with like striped socks and boots and shit. She's a great kid. But I know what you mean. My mom had me and my sister in pageants when we were kids. She tried me out once and I lost so I never went back. But my sister was always winning the baby pageants. She had a shit ton of trophies from it. And then when she started to get older my mom pulled her out of them because she didn't want her to lead into that area of pageantry where it gets scary and concerning. And not to mention the emotional shit it does to those kids. Like, I think that's why my mom pulled me out after one loss. Because even though I was a baby and don't remember it she was really offended about me not winning. Hahaha. And my sister won every single time, so my mom kept her in longer.

I only have money because my husband gave it to me. Lol. But I needed clothes really bad and he gave me some money to spend for new clothes. And I got those shirts. They should be here today. I'm so excited. :X

@ Indigo Umbrella
We don't have moose and elks here, or bears. The scariest thing you'll see here are cows. I think it's badgers and hedgehogs that tend to wander out onto the roads here. We also don't have snakes or dangerous spiders (except for the black widow) which is probably the thing I love most about living here. I'm terrified of going to to Australia, with all the creepy crawlies they have. It legitimately freaks me out.

Exactly. Of course you're not gonna hit it. Nobody wants to kill an animal if they can avoid it. Not too long ago, there was a kitten that wandered on one of the biggest (and definitely the busiest) motorways (what you call a freeway) in the country. It was on the news, and the poor thing was just stranded. Thankfully the kitten was spotted, and it didn't run into the traffic, it just stayed to the side, so it got rescued. Think it also happened with a dog as well. That stuff makes the news here lol.

Ba humbug to her then!

I didn't realise they were that small! I thought they were like, the size of beavers (they're big enough, aren't they?) Small animals are just cuter by default! And I love otters. So much. And Meerkats. I was at the zoo last year, and there was a family of Meercats, and me and my friends just watched this baby Meerkat that was trying to climb up a rock to get to it's family, but they couldn't do it because they were so small. I was laughing, and then crying cause it was funny but also really mean. Poor thing.

That's wicked! I'm so jealous that you're able to draw like that. That's amazing.

Honestly, the reason most of my stories are fan fics is just for face claiming. When I think about it, only one of them is related to the band really, and even at that, it was more twisting the killjoy idea then anything else. Most of the time, when I come up with a story, I just picture Gerard (I won't deny that I'm obsessed with him), then, because of of the face, I can picture his mannerisms that I've seen from interviews and stuff. Then secondary characters tend to fall in because again, from interviews I can pick up on mannerisms and it makes developing characters easier. Ironically, the original story I'm gonna do should really be a fan fic because that was totally meant to be Gerard, and the rest of the band/s that show up, if that makes sense? Probably not, but it makes sense to me. But I'm glad I'm doing it original now, cos things I wasn't sure about I can fix and change.

Oh, damn, I would definitely keep her inside then. That stuff scared me with my cats, because they were friendly with dogs, and that made it more worrying, because they mightn't see them as a threat at first and trigger a dog off.

Aaaww, that's kinda cute, though I don't agree with pagents. There was one held last year for the first time here, it was an American company that was hosting it. There was uproar over it, actually, the hotel it was meant to be hosted in pulled out because of the pressure from parents and the media. Even though we have Irish Dancing contest, the kids are a little bit older than some of the kids in pagents, and the costumes aren't revealing. the hair and make up kinda makes up for it though :-/

Oh, I want those tops. Ugh, I wish I had money so I could buy stuff online. Actually, I wish I had money just to have money. "Le Sigh*

Idaho has like cows and stuff. I mean, there were cows in California but they weren't free-range. Idaho has a lot of free-range livestock that they allow to graze by freeways. We also have moose and elk and stuff that we don't really have to worry about as much in California. Terrain is different.

See? That's stupid. Like if an animal is in the road I'm not going to fucking hit it. I don't care what the damn DMV says. And I got to that part in the handbook and that's what it said, "If you know you can't stop yourself from hitting the animal, do so gracefully." Jesus fucking Christ. I can understand if you're on the freeway in a center lane and there's no way you can stop or turn without certain death. But not when you're on a two lane highway in the middle of nowhere with no cars. I'm not going to hit a giant ass fucking moose just because the DMV wants me to do it "gracefully."

Yeah, she's like that. She does that a lot actually. I'm not surprised.

Platypie's are super cute! They're even cuter now that I know they're actually small. I always thought they were at least as big as otters, but they're not. They're tiny. *-*

I know I have a picture of my peacock dragon somewhere but I can't find it. Ugh. Wait! It's on my phone!


Yeah, that's how I am. Hahaha. The only problem is that once I find a face claim I'm like "This man need to be the face claim for every character." And I have to limit myself. I can't have too many Sebastian Stan's. Haha. I don't think I've ever met an Irish mama's boy.

She just scares me because there are a lot of dogs in this apartment complex. And I know that she won't hesitate to attack one. The weiner dog that lives here has already murdered another dog. There's two big dogs here that I know will defend themselves if she attacks. It just worries me.

Lol. Yeah, it's on DVD here already. My friend's daughter is obsessed with it. She's singing Let it Go at her pageant thingy. Haha. She's three. It's so cute.

^.^

Oh man, I know! I just bought two shirts that should be here tomorrow. I got a Bucky shirt and a Loki shirt that says "Kneel before me." Oh, and I also got a Ravenclaw Quiddich Captain shirt. And I got my dad a Son's of Anarchy/Son's of Odin spoof shirt for Father's Day, which is pretty rad. But I'm so excited for my shirts to come. I'm actually wearing my other Loki shirt right now. But it's comic book Loki. Hahaha.

EEEEE!

@ Indigo Umbrella
That's the thing about the US, things are different in every state. I'd find that so confusion. I mean, you passed it in California, why doesn't that stand in Idaho? Also, FYI, the answer to that question here is to keep driving. Like, don't swerve if it's a small animal like a cat or a dog. You're supposed to run over them :( Obviously if it's like, a cow or a sheep, you can't cause they're too big, but yeah.

They do the same thing here too. It's sssooo confusion.

Aw, the meanie! She should have texted you. The outfit sounds cool though!

I have a weird thing with Playpie's. Sometimes I think they're cute, other times I think they're so strange looking. I can't make my mind up. Peacock dragon? That sounds awesome, I wish I could see that!

Every list gets strange when you do it properly, and if you're honest. We all have a few guilty pleasures. I think every author does that though, it makes it easier to picture a scene when you have faces to put to them, you know? I mean, I know what my original characters look like, but on the other hand, I can't really picture them, you know? Ugh, there is nothing worse than an Irish mommy's boy. They are the worst!

Aaaww, that's so sweet the way she came back. Every cat has the instinct to explore, but as long as they have a safe home to go to they will come back. I use to keep my cats (when I had them) indoor, because there was an apartment block car park behind my house, and the cars would speed si I was really afraid that they would get knocked down. One went missing for three weeks, and I thought she was gone. Then one day she just came back. Like it was no big deal.

Actually, it might be on DVD but I rarely check that stuff. I have to check it out now lol.

It will be! I just know it!

Ugh, Loki...*drools*

Hopefully it will come together soon. I know I say this about every story of yours, but I really wanna read it!!!!

And nah, I'm gonna keep on fan girling. It's my thing!

@ Lyra
Lucky. I'm almost there. I just have to finish the booklet and get my dad to take me to take it. I passed it in California without having to study. But Idaho is stupid and you have to know shit like anatomy of cows and the air speed velocity of an unladen swallow before you can pass.

That was a joke. But they do have really stupid questions. Like one of them was something, "If you see an animal appear on the road before you, what do you do?" A. Drive around it. B. Keep driving. C. Try to keep control of the vehicle. or D. Stop. So I'm like "If there's a fucking cow in the road obviously I'm going to stop the car, right? WRONG. You have to "keep control of the vehicle." WHICH IS THE STUPIDEST THING I'VE EVER HEARD! OF COURSE I'M GOING TO KEEP CONTROL OF THE VEHICLE! I AM ALREADY DOING THAT IN THE FIRST PLACE!

And they have a lot of questions where the answers are all the same just worded differently. And they piss me off so much.

I guess I don't get to go to my own booth. :( My aunt decided not to tell me about it and told everyone else that she didn't know what my plans were. Even though she knows I don't have plans ever? And I'm pretty sure she did that because she didn't want to pay for me to get in. but I didn't need her to and if she had just called me or sent me a message she would have learned that I had the money to pay for myself. But I'll get an outfit eventually. I really want like a 13th century French outfit. It's gonna be rad.

Platypie's are so cute though! I want to draw a platypus. I did draw a peacock dragon for one scroll and it was super rad and I really want to know who got that scroll and how it turned out because that was my favorite scroll I did. It was much more my style because I'm not really used to medieval shit. The dragon was entirely my design and he was cool af.

Haha. I know. I'm going to have to do that some day. I kind have a strange list. I mean I have face claims for all my characters and so that could also be interpreted as a list of the guys I like. Lollol. I know how you feel! Idaho is the worst! There's nothing but like good Mormon boys or "cowboys" who wear trucker hats and their pants halfway up their waists. Or the opposite. Dudebros. Lot of dudebros.

She actually scared the beejesus out of me last night because she got out when the pizza man came. And she didn't come back. So I was really worried. But I woke up this morning to something jumping on my bed and meowing. And I rolled over and she was there like "Hi, mom. I'm home. I just wanted you to know." So I gave her some pats and she left my room. She just wanted me to know she was safe. Hahaha. But she woke my dad up. She climbed in his window and meowed until he opened the door. But she always tries to get out and she spent the night outside without getting into any trouble, so I think I might let her out more often if that's what she wants. She obviously wants to be an outdoor cat. I just don't want her to get hit by a car or attack a dog or something. I let her out for a minute earlier today and she was really hesitant like she couldn't believe I was letting her go. Then she went and sniffed at one of the neighbor cats (whom I love) and he hissed at her and ran off so she bolted back to the door like "OH MY GOD, LET ME IN!" She's satisfied for the time being.

It's not on DVD over there yet? Oh yeah. You said it takes a long time, huh?

I hope so! Lol.

Exactly! He's very fascinating and sexy in his chaos.

Lol. I don't know when that one will happen yet though. I have a great deal of it written already, but it doesn't feel right to me yet. :/

Oh psh. Stop. *blushes*

@ Indigo Umbrella
I have my provisional licence, so I have the written test over and done with. I really wish my dad had a normal car though, so I could actually use my licence and go my test before it expires.

That sounds awesome. I wish I was artistic in that way, but I can't draw or paint for shit. You should so take a picture of your outfit, though and post it up. I wanna see that!

Peacocks are pretty though! At least you're not drawing platypus's, so it could be worse.

Oh, you should make a list sometime when your bored. You'd be surprised by how long it gets when you think about for long enough. There are just way too many handsome men out there...and yet none of them live in my town...it's so unfair. *sobs*

She's very lucky to have you, a lot of people would have gotten rid of her over the biting thing, instead of understanding about. Poor thing wouldn't be rehomed when they notice she bites.

Oh, it's amazing. I can see why it was so popular. i can't wait until it's on DVD, cause I'm totally buying it!

*squeals* Eeeeppp! It's ginna be good, isn't it? I can feel it!

Yeah, he just loves and revels in chaos. It's what makes him so appealing I think. The whole 'I-don't-care' thing, he's just such a bad boy, and we all love a bad boy.

Another Loki story! *Dies from happiness overload*

Of course I'm gonna love it my dear. It's your story, after all. :)

@ Lyra
Oh man. I understand that feeling. I've been studying for the written test but I haven't had any driving experience. So it won't do me much good unless someone decides to teach me. Ugh... And yeah, here pretty much everyone has to drive. Except for in places like New York City and stuff.

I almost can't wait for them to say something again. Hahaha. All I'm doing right now is these medieval scrolls for these medieval reenactment people. They're really challenging. But they give me supplies and they're going to help me set up at booth at their fair thing. AND they're going to help me get a costume. So I kind of consider that being paid. They're paying for the supplies I use, and on top of that I get my own art booth, and a snazzy outfit to wear. Hahaha.

Although their theme is peacocks and so I have to incorporate peacocks into every design. And I just did 13 scrolls with key designs and my fingers want to fall off and I swear I'm beginning to hate peacocks.

Hahahaha. That's hilarious. I've never actually made a list. Well... I did once. For a blog post. But my list has changed since then because Sebastian Stan wasn't on it. I should fix that. Yeah, my list expands constantly too. Hahahaha.

Yeah, she annoys the crap out of me but I feel bad for her. :/ I'm just thankful she has me, I guess. Because she could have had a lot worse.

Aw. It's cute, right?

Yay! I'm so excited for it. I have most of the plot and idea figured out I just can't get the writing out. Ger.

Well the whole start of the first Thor movie was him letting the Frost Giants into Asgard because he knew it would interrupt Thor's coronation and Thor would be a butt about it. So yeah. He kind of wanted to fuck shit up from the start. Maybe not in a murderous way. But he definitely wanted things to go terribly. Hahaha.

I have been working on a Loki/Sigyn story though. But I'm not sure if/when I'll start putting it up. But he goes through phases in that story where he's super sweet and kind to her and then when he just straight up doesn't talk to her for like a year. And her whole thing is that she's the goddess of fidelity. So she sticks by him even when he becomes progressively darker and crueler. But yeah. Even then he's still a dick.

Oh man, you're gonna love this story then. Because shit's gonna get more and more intense as Loki starts regaining his power and more of her past is revealed.