it's hard being alone. and it's even harder when you are in a room filled with people but still feel alone. i grew up normal. with a lot of friends. people i'd hang out with and have over for sleep overs. i had best friends and friends that grew apart from me. now i have none. no one that even want to be my friends. the pople around here all judge and think they are better then everyone else. i...

my finacee's in jail. he wasn't supposed to be there. i feel like my whole world is just slipping out from under me. i feel so out of control and helpless. i mean what can i do but sit back and wait for things to happen. i don't do that well. i mean i don't sit back and let things happen. i can't do that i have to have control. control is something i have a realy hard time giving up. i dont give...

so i plan on writing a book. i just don't know what about yet. i think i have a main idea but i'm not so good at writing books. i'm more of a poetry type of girl. short sweet and to the point is how i do. so hopefully it comes out at least somewhat what i was thinking. it will take me a little while to get it up and going becaue i like to write on paper before i type things. my thoughts come out...