Today is my birthday. Yes I know right? Umm....no. It's only like 2 am, but I know today is just gonna suck eggs.First off, I am 20 years old now. Yay.Second, my grandma might go to the hospital today. DNW THAT TODAY OR EVER AGAIN.Third. I've had a horrible month so far. I honestly wish I could go back and erase this month.I MIGHT GO SEE NEW MOON TOMMORROW OR SATURDAY. FECK YES.Anyway. I need to...

I wanted to do a confession post I need to vent so I really don't care if anyone cares I just need to get this shit out.1. I've never had sex and I'm going to be 20 in November.2. I'm bi.3. I'm in love with my best friend which is a girl.4. I used to cut and now it's the only thing I can think about.5. I wish I could just do away with my worthless life.6. I think my dad hates me.7. I get verbally...

I almost cut earlier, I had my knife kinda grazed it against my wrist but it didn't like slice the skin it just left a red mark, because my dad screamed at me for getting food at 10pm, and it just made me really upset and pissed and I about started crying then him then him and my mom started to argue and it just pushed me farther I hate my life sfm.I do not need to cut I know this.I'm really...

hello fellow human beings (yeah i'm a dork)i now have a twitter.you can follow me if you want.because i will follow you back.http://twitter.com/level27chick04/so follow if you wanna.i will follow you back. seriously.xoxo,Katie :)ps: i also have a livejournal.http://level27chick04.livejournal.com/so i have alot of words left so i can post this...you know people are nothing but selfish a**holes now...

What's the point of life anymore. I mean nothing matters to me anymore except music, my photography, and my girlfriend (which happens to be my best friend).Okay.Here is a life update!I'm so sorry I haven't updated even though nobody fucking reads this shit. I am in another relationship about 2 weeks after I broke up with Marty (my ex), Janet (my girlfriend well we dated before like 3 years ago)...

yes i quit.i quit school.i quit life.i quit.i quit.i hate school thats why i'm quitting at the end of the semester.im hopefully going to get a job and work but i dunno if i really want to i need a fucking break.i think i will quit school.i need a friend i can actually count on and say they will be there for me besides Janet i tknow she won't be here forever and i wish i could have more fun with...

TS MY BIRTHDAY TODAY BITCHES!!!!I AM NOW 19!!!!my boyfriend came over last night and gave me roses and a card and a panda calendar. Cuz i serously <3 pandas!!!!3 red roses...he said next pay check he gets he's going to take me wherever i wanted to go and buy me whatever i want.he gets like 400 and something every 2 weeks i think.but anywho im now 19.for almost an hour....nothing is different.I...

I miss being happy. I can't really remember a time I was truly happy after the age of six. That was before my uncle died. I loved him with all my heart I still have not gotten over it same with my grandma she is grieving herself to death.I have came so close to ripping my skin open with my razor or knife. I really don't care if I die or not nobody would care. I might just take my bottle of...

Hey,In eight days I have to go to Atlanta and go to the Rockband Live Tour. I just found out I got meet and greet. I'm so excited. I am like about to puke because I'm so fucking excited. I have no clue what I'm going to get signed and what I'm going to say. I made a makeshift rosevest to wear to the concert, but do you think I should wear it.Here is a pic:Well, what do you think? I hope it's going...

Hey,I know nobody reads my journals so it's like whatever. I feel like pure and total shit I mean yeah I have to go to college tommorrow well like today. I should be in bed but who cares if I fall asleep at the wheel and wreak my car and die........I thought so nobody.Well, life hasn't been going good for me first I'm always getting bitched at about everything by everybody. Second, I might have to...

yea in 54 days in going to be in Atlanta, Georgia watching Panic at the Disco....and I'm offically going to college i know what a bummer right? i mean like there is nothing really special about college. Motlow sucks cock...I am so bored I have class in about 6 hours....no wait about 7 hours but i have to wake up in 6 lol im so fucking retarded I hate life...I mean I hate saying it but I'm sick of...

I bought my Panic At The Disco tickets a few days ago...I'm at school right now...I miss my friends they all left me they are all at different schools...This instructor will not shut up she is so annoying....(shut the fu*k up)I can't wait to see PATD!!I can't wait until November 4th and on the 19th I will be 19 and I'm so happy.I need a fucking cigarette...blah blah blah blah.I wanna get drunk..My...

I start college Monday...I am not looking forward to it....OMFG!! I am going to go see Panic At The Disco on November 4th on the Rockband Live Tour!!!!!!!!!!!!!! (hopefully)I have just been getting more and more suicidal lately and I don't think I can stand life anymore...I wish I was dead...I'm so happy....kinda well I'm happy for that....my dad is being such an asshole...Mirrors is the creepist...

my life doesn't feel right anymore....i broke up with my boyfriend of a year and 5 months...umm....I'm seriously considering suicide again....life just sucks....i wish i was dead....i know its lame but i love him so much still..even though i think he's cheating....fuck life dude.....i wish people would stop treating me like shit...people nneed to learn how to treat each other right??i need to get...

at life. I cut myself so bad last night. I tried not to, but I couldn't stop. I just wanna kill myself already..I'm to much of a pussy to go all the way with it...Last night, I felt worthless, I am worthless. I just wish I could die and get it over with. I miss being happy. I have always been not so happy before I moved I only had one friend and the rest of the school picked on me and my friend...

i am so bored....*laughs* i wish i could die right now and i am so bored. Did you know that???? I'm so hyper too.......I hate school.. Life is so stupid....haha haha haha haha haha haha haha haha haha haha and i am not going to prom this year....i want to so bad.our theme is vegas...yea we have poker tables and everything!! I have to go to stupid credit recovery after school I effing hate it i...

i mean nothing to anybody. Even though I have an amazing boyfriend and he said that I mean the world to him and everybody. I hate life so much...BTW. I haven't cut since Tuesday. Marty (my boyfriend) told me never to do and to write stuff down and not to do anything stupid, like cutting, but i dunno how long it will last. I had an amazingly fun weekend. Saturday, I went out with Marty and I was...

die.....I hate myself.......................I'm trying not to kill myself.....I wanna die so bad.......I hate life.........I just wanna cut so deep and bleed to death or something.......I wish that life is pointless.......I cut the day before yesterday......I was so stressed and worried and I couldn't sleep....I don't think anyone really cares about me anymore....people act like they care but I...

Yea..... I broke my almost two months of not cutting. I cut last night in the dark with a knife and the only light was my awesome pink and red lava lamp! I'm sorry I love that lamp!!!!Whats the point of living when your just gonna get screamed at and blamed for everything.My brother broke a bowl because my dad had the pots and pans over the bowls and plate and he told us were worthless and good...

I got a car!! It's a '99 Ford Contour!! It's white...grr...I hate white!! It has gray and black interior!! The dashboard is black. It's awesome. The interior on the doors is like maroon/blackish. It has power lock and power windows. It's like brand-new! It's a '99 but it mostly sat in the garage the whole time the guy had it.I am so happy now. I've wanted a car since I was 16 and now I'm 18 and I...