I finally did it. After six years, I finally buried my dad’s ashes in the family cemetery in Kentucky on Tuesday. Originally, the plan was to do it on Monday because it would’ve been his 60th birthday, but Tuesday worked better. It was just a small thing right there in the cemetery with his cousins, me and two of my friends.The only one that prepared anything speech wise, was his cousin’s...

So according to Spotify, my Top Artist was Rammstein. Shocker considering that I’ve been practicality listen to them on repeat since last December, lol. Thanks PhonoBarbiDoll for your Till Lindemann saga and reminding me of their existence.My Top Song was Engel, which I also blame PhonoBarbiDoll for lol. According to Spotify, my first stream was on New Year’s Day and by March 19th, I hit my...

It's been five years since I actually gave a shit about Easter. I was hella fucking excited because my dad and I were going to celebrate together for the first time in…fuck, I don't even remember how long. But that all changed the morning of Good Friday that year, it was anything but “good”.Now, I really couldn't give a shit about Easter. Maybe, someday, I'll celebrate it again, but not this...

Ugh. Legit the only way to describe how life has been lately. I've been pulling so much overtime at work lately, it's not even funny. I work at a 24 hour store and we haven't been able to keep third shift staffed, like people start and quit within their first week. Typically within the first three days. And it's been like this for a fucking month now.We had two people quit this week alone, the...

Because I'm bored as shit, I decided to make this about the first song I ever heard from my favorite bands…not that anyone really cares.So let's go with my current obsession Rammstein. The first song I ever heard was Feuer Frei. I was watching XXX with my brother and I had no idea who they were. I thought the song was hella amazing, even though I couldn't understand what they were saying. I also...

So I've been writing a Till Lindemann, thanks again PhenoBarbiDoll for the inspiration, for awhile now. Originally it was just going to be a oneshot as a birthday present to myself (it was also supposed to be a lot dirtier in the first chapter), but I decided to make into a threeshot.I'm sure plenty of you would love to see it become a full story and I kinda have an idea for it...maybe? But it's a...

My nephew's gone. My sister took him home and I'm just so...angry and hurt. Like, it honestly feels like my heart's been ripped out of my fucking chest. I thought they would stay the entire weekend, but no. She basically drove four fucking hours to do her laundry and for my mom to take her shopping.She legitimately told me that she didn't even want to come down here, but she had told my mom that...

Suuuuuuuuper fucking pumped because my nephew is going to be here shortly! I've missed him so much. I don't get to see him that much so I'm always super jazzed to see him. The last time I saw him was before Halloween, so not that long ago. It just feels like forever ago.He came down for Family Safety Day at my mom's work and he told my sister that he wanted to sit by me on the drive down. It's...

So I want to write, so fucking badly. Like I'm not even kidding. I have all these in my head constantly and have characters talking to each other, but I try and it doesn't come out. Or it does and I hate it so I delete it and try again. Sometimes mintues after writing it or even days later.I'll just convince myself that it's retarded and erase it. It happens a lot. I hate my stories. They're all...

Ok, so I've recently decided to delve deeper into Rammstein's music. Yeah, I don't know what took me so long either. Anyway one thing that's bothering me is their song Moskau.Now, I don't get me wrong, it's an awesome song, even if the only word I understand is Moskau. No, my issue is with people CLAIMING that the Russian pop duo t.A.T.u. is on it. I thought so too, as it does sound like them, but...

Am I the only one that gets a song stuck in their head that they haven't heard in forever? And by forever I mean straight up years, sometimes decades. I've had a handful myself ranging from an oldies song to this one song from a Mary-Kate and Ashley movie (one from Winning London, if you're curious).Another song that occasionally pop into my head is one I have not heard in decades. Couldn't tell...

So I'm pretty sure I have lingering PTSD from finding my dad dead four years ago. I've never been formally diagnosed, I only got health insurance through work last October, but it only makes sense. I have made some progress, at least in my opinion, over these last four years.I am no longer afraid of waking up to find everybody (i.e. my mom and stepdad) dead.I thought I had made progress with the...

So it's now been four years since I woke up on Good Friday and found my dad dead on the couch. Four years and I'm still having dreams about him, dreams that he's still alive, like the dream I had this morning. I don't remember much about the dream, other than that he was still alive. I hate these dreams, so much. They're the absolute worst.A second runner up would be the fleeting thought of...

So tomorrow it will have been three months since I woke up and found my dad dead. And in ten more days it will be what would have been his fifty-fourth birthday. Ugh. Can I just not?I had a dream one night (read: one morning) that I was talking to him on the phone. Like, I was here at my mom's, but I was also back at his house, watching him talk to me. It was weird. I think he was still supposed...

Ugh, I really hate when people try to blame a person's taste in music for things they do or feel. Hard Rock/Metal does not cause people to flip out and go on mass killing sprees. It does not make them angry. It is an outlet for the anger and rage that has building up inside of them. No serious, think about how good you feel after you scream until your throat is raw. Yeah, your throat hurts like...

So I posted on my FB that I was listening to Lady Gaga's Born This Way in celebration of the fact that I can now marry my girlfriend anywhere I want in the country. And I've been having a good time celebrating and listening to the #LoveWins playlist on Spotify.And then someone has to go and burst my rainbow, glitter filled bubble. Who rained on my parade? On other than a family member. How did...

Well, it's Father's Day and I feel like a failure. I know I did the best that I couldn't but it doesn't help. I feel like I should have actually tried. If I had known what to do, if I could have seen how bad it was. But no, I was too blind to see it and didn't know what to do. I know now that I can't handle that type of situation. I freak out when I'm supposed to stay calm. But honestly, who...

Sometimes, it really is best to be ignorant because you can't unknow certain things.Like:Your mother staying in the house while her mother's body was rotting because she didn't know she had died and was too young to realize what the smell was.Your father confessing that he gave his father some of his Oxys before he died and that he mixed it with alcohol because he was dying from Cirrhosis of the...

When S is for Silence by Sue Grafton came out, my mom refused to let me read it. She claimed it was "too graphic" for me. I bought it myself when I turned eighteen because hello, I was an adult and she couldn't stop me. I read it and didn't think it was graphic. Being a member of writing websites for years, I had read and had written things that were more graphic than that.Looking back, it makes...

Today we're going to discuss disclaimers. If you're writing Fanfiction, you do not need to post the disclaimer. Obviously you don't own whatever it is you're writing about because you clicked "Fanfiction" when Mibba asked you the story type. Posting a disclaimer for a Fanfic is completely redundant. And really irritating to those of us who realize that you do not own it.To wrap this all up, it's...