I really don't get anything in life anymore. Something fun goes on, I don't feel anything. Not happy. Not exited. Nothing at all. Something bad/ sad happens. I MIGHT, on a good day, feel a ittle bad, but I usually don't feel anything, I don't get the feeling to cry, unless I'm alone, I don't really get the feeling of hopefulness, not since I was younger. The only feeling I have is nothingness.But...

I don't really know why I'm writing this or if I should be posting this. But I've had it bottled up inside of me for some time now. I just have this thought, that I.. really don't belong here or anywhere. It's not that I don't like myself or anything that are my faults. It's the way the world is.I'm just feeling out of place because I feel that everywhere I turn there are references to drugs or...