I guess I should start out with something new, something I've never said before. But to me, it just all seems the same. Everything that comes out of my mouth is something I've said before, or thought before, or someone said before. So how can I possibly begin to explain myself? Do I use words others have said about me? Do I use the words I describe myself in my head? Both vary, both contrast.
I guess I'll start with how people view me. People see me as an intelligent, sometimes dumb, person. They see this girl with red hair and changing eyes. They see this girl, who around people she doesn't know, is quiet and timid. Then there's the girl around her friends, she's loud and obnoxious, and isn't afraid to be herself. People see me as someone who tries to speak their mind, but can never get the point across right. They see a girl, who tries so hard to do something, she always sees herself as failing. They call her modest. They call her creative. They call her unique. They call me Morgan.
I guess I'll say what I think of myself now. I see myself as a failure, because I try so hard with everything and I never get to the point where I want to be. I try to dress up and be pretty, but I don't get noticed. I try being more outgoing, but I don't get noticed. I see no point in trying when nothing is going to happen. I'll always be that girl who sits in the back of the classroom and says nothing. I'll always be alone. I'll always be the girl no one even thinks twice about. And I'll never be good enough to be thought about. I'll just be here. With my dull eyes, and my dull ginger hair. I'll always be here. While everyone else is moving forward... I'm stuck here.
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