ok so last night was the millitary ball..... i went with ashley of course!!! but you will never guess who sat right across the table from me.... don!!! ok so we had this long conversation with (people sitting at the table) me ashley don allyson matt jessica deeanna and jordan ^_^ it was amazing... not as much dancing as last year but still fun... i was actually a social person!!!!!! near the last...

well today i cut again... i dont know i like the feeling of a sharp razon against my skin =( but i feel like a failure. this morning i smoked but not enough to get high thanbk god because i had a midterm in global , you'll never guess what happened!! well in global me and nick sit in the same row but he sits in the back and i sit in the front ..... i had to move back a seat which was fine but...

ok so i texted nick today.... kinda figured that i couldnt go without talking to him =(... too bad he never accepted my apology... but i dont deserve his forgiveness! oh yeah and heres a kicker for you!!!!! ok remember that don kid? well him and nick are now bff's =( yeah shocker right?! well now nick decided to say that i was an asshole to him, i still am an asshole to him, and i was never really...

over the weekend i've ignored you but now im back, im going to make you a weekday thing just because its easierto tell you everything when im near the problems. and plus ove the weekend i only get sad and depressed and iwouldnt want to put those thoughts in here... theres not much going on. i've made friends with my ex-friends enemy (tanya... nick hates her) i just want to explain things to nick...

ok so today im in carpentry again!!!..... im supposed to have my unifoprm on but i decided to take it off =)... i thought i would get in trouble but they sauid it was ok as long as i didnt have that class today.. right now they are pulling out the house from the shop area... so remember don... well hestill isn't sure if he's bi or not... i really wish he was, only vause he's really cute and really...

hey:today i am in globaland its so boring not talking to nick in this class. nick seems to be really happy s no more talking about him, he is even out of my phone... os so yesterday my school had a half a day so lela, ashley (not my best friend ashley but one of them), kristina, Emily. Miranda, and i all went to the mall, istole so much stuff (now you know i really am bad news!) it was worth...

OMG!!!!!its been way too long since i've written in you. ok friday night was not exciting at all. But on saturday i went to ashley's (she is my best friend in the entire world), we were on our way to the mall, throught the snow cause ashley has to be difficult!!! sop we got high (were bad kids) and we went inside. the mall is so amazing, so many cute guys, and its so lively!!!!! me and ashley must...

ok no hello today cause i want to get straight to the point because there is a lot to say!!! first of all becky (my sister) is gone, she walked out. she said it was because of me that she was packing her bags and leaving! i know thats suppose to hurt but for some reason during that final day on alamo before we moved to gowanda my emotions just found a way to shut themselves off.... problem is,...

HELLO AGAIN!!!The dirty looks seem to never seize! but i love the attention he's giving me =) Too bad they dont know the truth! ok well i guess the looks will stop eventually. but until then i will dissapear and not attract any attention to myself.. for right now im in an akward seat cause im in school and i never usually sit here .... all i hear is someone calling "faggot!" from across the...

Hey:Sorry about yesterday but too much stuff was keeping me busy! i was waytoo high to function!!! Then i had to cook dinner, and clean UGHHHH it was way too much! but anyway, i talked about you yesterday! i was talking to tyler ( ok so i never mentioned him so here he is now, tyler is 5'11" i think kinda long black hair with a weird beard gotee thingy, i've like this kid since last year but my...

HEYToday was a long and grouling day at hell/school!!!!!!!! My friends miranda and lela decided to skip into my study hall! that made my day a lot better for some odd reason!!! today nick decided to ignore me today! it kinda stings to catch his evil glares!!!! but i guess its whatever i mean i ended the friendship with him. =( today felt like it never ended but it soon will thank god!!!! thats it...

hey buddy!So today was my return from vacation to teenage inprisonment / school. its hard being one of the only 3 school fag's =( you get picked on a lot and teased because your different! but somehow i manage!! So today i gave nick the note i talked about yesterday... but he never read it, guess im not as important as i thought! ok so i decided that i wasn't going to hide the true me anymore so i...

hey my name is justin! I'm 15, and i've decided to use you for all my inner thoughts.....So there is this boy. His name is Nick, We've been friends for almost a year and i like him... A LOT!! but it will never work out so i'm going to give him a note that will end our friendship and crush him and me! I feel horrible that i had to do this but it has to be done!!!yours: justinP.S. tomorrow im havind...