I've started working on something. It's a poetry collection and I'm titling it Work in Progress because I feel like it's fitting to how I feel about myself. I just got out of the hospital yesterday because my anxiety and thoughts about suicide were so strong. I'm not completely 100% yet, but I'm hoping to get there soon.I'm really excited about the writing projects I am working on, though. There...

I've finally done it! I've made the call and I am now on the wait list for therapy and help. I kept having to swallow back tears when I was on the phone because I was so sad and sure that there was nothing that I wanted to stay alive for. And I was sure that I didn't deserve to live.I put it off for way too long and ended up in a week long spiral of anxiety so bad that I honestly wanted to die....

I've seen a couple of people doing these on here and I thought they were super cool. So I thought that I would make my own. I hope that's okay? I've been trying to write more and I think that this might help organize things. My big goals are to write 10,000 words (which is quite a lot for me; I actually don't know if I have ever written that much in the span of a month). And to finish a couple of...

I think I need to go back on anti-depressants. And get back into therapy.But it's also not that easy because I just got my health insurance back and I don't know if it would cover anything. Plus, I've tried to look into some of it and I just don't know how to get therapy again. Maybe I can go to the office at school, but I feel too self conscious to do that.I try not to think about it too much,...

I have mixed feelings about starting to write again. Part of me is really happy because I have missed it. And another part of me is just not happy with how anything is turning out. I haven't written anything that I have actually been proud of in a long time. But I think I might get there if I keep working at it? I deleted my prologue for my story Shared Spaces because I felt like I was too self...

I can feel far too self-conscious while writing. And sometimes it causes me to not write at all. I'm afraid people are going to judge my writing. Maybe it's not that good or maybe it's weird. What if somebody reads it and judges me for it? What if I write it, post it, and then regret posting it? What if it's full of mistakes and doesn't make any sense? Maybe there's a continuity problem or the...

Hey, you guys!I've actually been in the mood to start writing again. I think it's being forced to write so much for school that has sparked my interest in it again. I think I have an idea for a NaNo story, but that one I am going to keep to myself. However, I would really like to get back into the swing of things and I have two stories that I am hoping to update on here. One is a femmeslash and...

Good news is that I'm not feeling suicidal. Bad news is that I'm not necessarily excited about life, either, and I am just as clueless as ever if I see myself having a future as anything. As a person, really. I can't see past the next couple of months of school. It's the first week and I'm already starting to crumble because I have been depressed and it's warring with my motivation to get stuff...

The biggest thing that helps me when I'm having a bad day, usually a bad mental health day, is simply reminding myself that tomorrow is a new day and that tomorrow I will do better than today. Whether that is simply cleaning my room, finishing the late assignments that I couldn't concentrate on the day before while I was too depressed, or just making it to class on time. It helps so much.I've been...

I still have one more month of school left and I honestly don't know if I can make it. I have no hope of getting good grades this quarter because I have been getting progressively more depressed. Which means that I haven't been able to get my work done like I used to be able to. I've missed so many assignments. At this point I'm just trying to come out of this alive. I'm holding onto hope about...

It's weird because Mibba used to be such a huge part of my life and now I don't know what to do when I get on here. I still open up a tab for it out of habit, but then the tab just sits there.I've been depressed lately. What's new? I have hardly left the house in months and I'll likely be losing all of my friends soon. It's a mystery why they stuck around for so long. I've been watching a lot of...

Does anybody else have a problem with rats in their attic or basement? They're driving me crazy. We get a lot of them in the attic above my room and they keep me up at night. They're honestly really scary, especially when they're running around above my head. I just want them to go away on their own because it upsets me so much when we have to set up traps to kill them. But they keep multiplying...

I'm really stressed out about college right now and it's mostly due to the fact that I have to start filling out college applications to transfer out of community college and into university. And I don't even know where to begin. Every time I even think about the application process I start to internally panic and immediately try to distract myself with happy stuff. But that can only be done for...

Hi, guys!It's been a really long time. Hasn't it? I used to come on here every day and spend hours writing stories, reading stories, and mingling with everybody. I'm a bit sad that I don't do that anymore. I miss my Mibba friends. And I miss writing more than anything.I have been really bad at keeping promises lately, whether that's to myself or to other people. I have hardly left the house in the...

I honestly have no idea what I am doing with my life at this point. I am past the point of making any type of commitment on here, because I have proven time and time again that I am terrible at commitments. And I have issues committing to this site in general. I used to be on here all the time, even at 2 am in the morning. I honestly don't know what happened. I still come on here on impulse...

So, my birthday just passed a couple of days ago (October 6th). It was really great. I have the most amazing friends and family, and I am so grateful for them. I even got a letter from my parents in the mail with a gift card for gas, and they suggested that I come visit them in their letter. So I think I might do that, it will be really fun. I might even invite my cousins along for the ride. My...

I have been trying to cope with my weight gain for a little over a year now.Ever since I moved back in with my grandma, I have been putting on more and more weight. I just weighed myself and I have gained ten pounds in just the last month. Over the past year, I have gained over fifty pounds. And it is absolutely butchering my self-esteem. I have stretch marks everywhere, I have been picking at my...

Hey, you guys. New layout.Thought that I would tell you guys some updates about life. Even though nobody probably cares or anything. I have been in summer classes for about four weeks now. Only about two more weeks to get through! And then I am off to Oregon.I'm taking a political science class and English class. They're both pretty fun, and the professors are entertaining. Honestly, the political...

I am currently watching The Woman in Black to analyze for my English paper and hiding under my blanket.I have seen this movie several times before, but I absolutely cannot handle jump scares. Like at all. I physically jerk and make little squeaky noises. What is happening? Things are getting weird. Even though I knew they would get weird, they are still weird.Okay, okay. So The Woman in Black and...

It's been a while. And I'm really sorry that I am such a crappy Mibba friend and friend in general. Life has been really overwhelming lately. I have been trying to do well in school while on the edge of a break down. I have been become more and more depressed. To the point where I don't like to even leave the house, and I hardly respond to text messages. It sucks so much. Especially because I...