the non daily routine of my life.

the daily routine of my life is never the same nor do i know if it's about to go down. lmfao i had to do it. i love kevin hart. but why didn't reality hit me with some warning that your life isn't controlled by you but by someone else. i mean it is with the choices that you make but the good oppportunities that are handed to us and we turn them away. well then that's our fault. people complain...
April 2nd, 2012 at 06:49pm

what people say we are.

i was always told the things you do and say reflect who you are as a person. well i must be one messed up person. to be honest half of the things that come out of my mouth are due to no self impulse control. i can't what i say . everyone says that but if you meet me you will know why i say that. to be honest not to freak anyone out or to make them think i'm some weird homicidal manic who only...
April 1st, 2012 at 06:38am

the title that grabs your attention

you can feel it. the sensation is almost a chained reaction to every emotion chemically attached to live breathing body. it hits you instantly. you can never know when it's coming but when you do ,you realize that it's everything people said it would be. but this isn't like that at all.this is different. or at least i thought it was. in the beginning yes it was amazing and everything i thought it...
March 24th, 2012 at 08:32pm

the children that dream

he's tall. he wears a hood and he takes pictures. he's a ghost. a guardian angel if you will.he protects from the bad and keeps the good. they aren't my ghost. there my sisters. they protect her.we are dream children. me, my sisters and my dad. my dad has it more than me. he sees things in his dreams that actually come true .this is what makes us unique. this is why when i say you hurt us you...
March 24th, 2012 at 04:27pm

the smile

do you know? how could you know? people who say they can relate are the ones who been through nothing or less than the same. well for the most part. have you ever had so many bad things happen to you at once that a smile and laughter doesn't mean your happy? the smile and laughter justifies the broken girl that is hiding years or pain, tears, and hurt. this smile is fake. they said that you can...
March 24th, 2012 at 05:19am

today

the life i'm choosing to live isn't one of my own happiness but no it's for the satisfaction of others. the ones who never want to see my happy. for the one's who never know my truely feelings. they take this smile and laughter as a sign that everything is okay but in reality i'm at constant war with myself. everyone says the confident route is the way to go. how can i take if i'm being constantly...
January 23rd, 2012 at 02:46am

i'm afraid of.....

i have always wondered what it would be like to find someone true, and have it not done half fast. i mean, all i've dealt with were a-holes who's egos were too be to stay in a committed relationship, or the hoes who don't know how to count. but to actually be in a true relationship scares me because i'm not worried about him messing it up, i'm worried about me being afraid to be hurt mess this up....
January 22nd, 2012 at 05:15am

my life plan

my life plan is constantly changing the only thing that is certain is that i want to spend the rest of my life with my boyfriend. i want to join the military, the army, to be exact. i am at conflict because i will hardly be able to see my boyfriend if i do join. then, we could break up and i feel like i'm making him give up his life to be with me. even though he offered i still feel bad. and if i...
January 19th, 2012 at 11:35pm

my boyfriend

now, i could go on for hours about my boyfriend, but i feel like i need to let this out. he is willing to travel with me when i join the military. he's willing to throw away all we've planned so i can live my dream. i feel really bad because i feel selfish, that he's doing this. on the 14 of this month he proposed. he wants to be with me forever and i want to be with him forever. this year i find...
January 17th, 2012 at 07:08pm

a half a year

it's been almost a half of a year since i met the one i want to be with. i read somewhere by the age of 16 80 percent of people have met who they are going to marry. and i'm part of that 80 percent. i love how we can talk for hours through texting then talk on the phone for even longer. we never run out of things to say. we have the same personality. and everything in our relationship comes...
January 13th, 2012 at 04:34am

Life

Who ever said that life never gives you anything you can not handle, must have been on something. throughout these tests in life, i am starting to question why. why are these tests, called tests? why are they just called tests why arent they called quest. you are questing to find the lesson of forever truth. why can't this be easy. why can't i just know yes or no, without the confusion and making...
December 19th, 2011 at 01:52am

right now

as if my life couldn't get any worse. even though a small number of people are there for me, it isn't the same if you don't have a parent who loves and cares for you , the way they use to. too much is going on right now. life isn't the way it use to be. the slap of reality hit hard and i can't take it. though i am not the same as i use to be, i use to think that cutting and suicide is the only way...
December 14th, 2011 at 10:46pm

I'm sick of him

he hurt me so bad. i mean we were so close to dating and i don't know what happened after wards. i mean this year hes so confusing before a level two OK is now college level or beyond. i don't understand it, it confuses me and it makes me so mad. I'm so confused and i really need help. shall i laugh or not. or yell or not. ignore or stay friends. my head hurts just from thinking about it and the...
September 18th, 2010 at 01:08am

Ready.. Set... Question!!!

I've given him all of the right signs. i've left clues but i guess that he's slow. plus he's still close with his ex so idk who he likes... he's like reading a book that you can't understand sometimes.. plus he makes me feel like i am the only one that he likes then acts all rude then he acts kind then he acts like a jerk wad... idk wat 2 do? do i leave it and move or do i jump and ask him !!!...
April 28th, 2010 at 01:41am

I'm So Confused

okay there is this boy at my school and hes majorly sweet to me and my friends. most of my friends tell me tht he likes me but idk.. im gonna move to california at the end of the school year and i want to know what he thinks about me ... but on his status' hes sayin how hes waitin for the right girl but i wish tht he would tell me whats up. im not gettin anything from him but i guess some clues...
April 25th, 2010 at 10:16pm

me talkin

Today was a normal day but after all i hate my life. FIrst of all the guy i like is totally and completely not giving me any fee back. Then i failed my math test again woopey freakin doodle. Then my patop was bein retarded. No one to talk to and people are starting to think that something is up with me and this guy named jaff. But totally not the story, cuz i like his friend but idk if he likes me...
April 1st, 2010 at 12:14am

My freshman uear

As i got older i always thought of having my freshman year go perfect . even as i got older i always thought that freshman year would be the best year of my life. Then reality set in and i was the opposite of what i wanted to be and everyone knew. Instead of the athletic one i am the one in the corner while we are playing dodge ball. I was also the one who always had the glasses, short, and needed...
January 20th, 2010 at 03:59pm