I was thinking a lot about how to properly phrase this journal to get my point across and not offend people since it's not why I'm writing this and since I was at some point obsessing over labels and how much I hate them too.Anyway, browsing through mibba, the labels thing is the most common topic. It's on profiles (don't label me, I'm not a soup can), journals (don't label me), the forums (they...

In the past week I've experienced every emotion from happy to sad, from calm to pissed. Each emotion got his 15 seconds of fame and I do mean 15 seconds. That is what it took me to go through all of them. I didn't experienced this severe case of mood swings since 2001 when I found out periods are here to stay.But PMS isn't the cause this time. A boy is. A fucking guy.It never happened to me...

Have you ever noticed how most people handle a stapler? I did cause I love my stapler. It's blue and nice and we bonded from the get go.Anyway, ever noticed how when people run out of staples in the middle of stapling some shit together they always double check they actually ran out by trying to staple the said shit a few more times. After no shit got stapled cause obviously there's no stables...

I'm starting to think I'm not really built for this boy drama. It's too much energy consuming. All these tiny little voice in your head, and some of them are fucking evil.And is it worth it? I mean does these few days of floating on clouds, smiling like an idiot and feeling on top of the world worth all the little doubts pecking in your head? Are they really?And I always do it. I swear to myself...

These sentences keep zooming around my head for a journal and I was stalling for weeks but I want to write and since my story isn't writing itself I've decided that I should write a little of the non fiction genre.And besides I can't write by myself, I mean I can but it sucks. I think I need some input about what I'm writing.Like that 40th chapter of my story, we can settle this affair, a good...

At first I thought I'd rebel against the system and won't make this entry but what kind of fan I would be if I didn't publicly wish Gerard a happy birthday!So...Happy birthday Gerard!!! We love you! A lot!Not much to say about him that wasn't said before. A hero, a role model, a simple yet amazing man.Yeah that was probably the most noticeable change this year, he became a man. Not that he wasn't...

Seriously where have everybody went? Got a life or something?The past couple of days weren't easy for me and I thought I'll release some tension on the world wide web, you know? Read something fun, maybe chat chit (words don't control us lol)with some cool people, watch some funny shit, listen to some good music...10 hours later...AND NOTHING! No one's online, not one of my favorite authors...

I'm angry today, I'm super mad. The type of mad that burns in your stomach until you explode!And I'm so close to fucking explode!I hate my job but that's not the reason I want to kick someone's ass, I hate my co workers and there's one in particular I wish a truck would hit. yes HER.The most vain creature you'd ever meet. The most condescending bitch to walk the face of earth. The reason some...

Seriously I may be a masochist but I wanna see how they fucking deal with their hair during a windy day!True, it looks awesome in pictures but in real life wind is a bitch.Speaking of bitches, my new hair straightener sucks major ****!It won't straight shit!My hair is naturally wavy and it's soft and not particularly thick yet the next day I wake up and it's wavy again!Maybe I'm doing something...

I finally finished my fan fiction!I was writing it for the longest time! and it's my first finished and complete fiction and I'm sooo glad!People say writing can be cleansing but I say writing can be draining so I'm happy to be done with it, it stopped to be fun to write and I just found myself sighing when it was time to write a new chapter so in a way it was a relief to finish it.I'm glad I...

Because I love my job so much (not) and I want to do my best (whatever) my mind went into a fuzzy daze while some old lady yelled at me for not telling her to push the right button (what's so hard in pushing the red motherfucking button?) and her system crashed (I wish it crashed on her) I came up with a few things you don't want to hear your surgeon say during an operation :1. Oops.2. Where does...

So I just got back from buzznet and they had this poll thingy there bearing the title 'Gerard Way thinks he's perfect'.Basically they twisted one of his quotes about how he doesn't have a new year's resolution because he doesn't stick to them and that he has a strong spine at the moment and can't think of nothing to change.It annoys me how everybody twist shit around to fit their agenda, and...

I'm finally unbanned! The curtain was lifted! I'm free!*falls on knees* free at last!And so I won't be banned again, I'm gonna start making some sense if that's even possible...I got to feel what Gerard and the rest of the married rock royalty feels...I got myself my own very first teenie!Elle, I don't know if she's really a teenie cause I talk to her, I know her (and love her) but she's teenie...

You'd probably dismiss me as a stupid teenie (which I'm not!) but before we're letting the hate mail begin just hear me out!We all saw how cozy Gerard and Dave got at the EMA's (OK so Dave was probably wasted and got cozy with everyone but that's not the point)Why can't there be a place for the Derard among all the Frikey, Frerard, Bobard, Rikey, May, Bay and the rest of the couples people seem to...

I really do...I feel so sucky and moody and every little thing brings me down to tears.I just wanna sleep until everything just stop hurting so much and start making sense.I was so optimistic and then I started going down hill.I just feel that i can't cope anymore, I always run away from feeling or I just hide it but it doesn't seems to work anymore...Everything seems to catch up with me.I just...

I'm on a journal roll here so bear with me.I have the most terrible mood swings lately...It's more like having no mood at all.Like I lost interest in everything, in music, in writing, in plain old routine.I'm just not in the mood for anything and it sucks.I just feel like doing nothing, talking to nobody and sleep until my blah moods go away.Obviously I can't do it so most of my days are filled...

Yeah the writer's block evil monster hit me again!I have this thing when I go for like 5 great chapter, or at least chapter I liked and then I get hit by a severe case of fucking writer's block.And it's not like I don't know what to write, I know what's coming up I'm just not in a mood to write it.Do you know how's it like to kinda want to write and in same time not being in the creative mood for...

So in addition to me being a touring rock star (note the sarcasm) I also have 'normal' friends...You know these preppy pieces of shit you hung around with when you were 12 and don't have the guts to put it at end...So neither of them knows about me being in a band, so anyway, my whole point was that I took a sick leave from my 'normal' job so I could tour a little with my band and also told my...

My room looks like my closet threw up...I don't know what I should pack for the tour..Jamie booked us for a little festival staring tomorrow night and ending on like wednesday or maybe a little sooner.On our previous tour we were stuck in a tiny little van and I was left without clean clothes within 3 day, I had to borrow shit that was huge from the guys and I don't want this to happen this time...

Literally...I feel like throwing up!I bought a new hair dye...It sucks!My first clue to it's suckness should have been when the old lady who sold it to me giggled evilly.At the time I didn't realize she was giggling evilly, I just figured she's mad...But then again, buying shit from a mad lady isn't a good idea either...Anyway, it has the most. Horrible. Smell. Ever!I think I'm traumatized!I threw...