Hey guys what is up?Rec me some stories please. I really want to read, and I want to read something that is dark and twisted. After all it is the month of October. No that's not the reason I just want to read something dark and twisted.If it is completed I would prefer that if not, that is fine too though.I would also prefer it to be original fiction of course though if it isn't that is also fine....

Skip to the bottom if you wish to read my question about the storySo a few years I recovered from my eating disorder. It's been about 2 years since I've purged or restricted....These past few months have been pure hell. I relapsed.I moved in with my sister and she knows of my ED. I found though that it is much, much easier to purge... I don't binge never have and hopefully never will.I can't stop,...

I'm annoyed... so I wanted to put up my new story after editing it... I was in the middle of moving though, so I got all my stories, songs, pictures.... whatever else off of my old computer and saved them on some hard drives I had, I packed them in my bag and we traveled to where I am now currently living.I've unpacked most of my boxes, and I tipped out all of my bags desperate to find it, but...

I'm not sure if that title is capitalized correct or not.I just wanted to write a blog it's been a while since I've been on this site.I miss writing. I love writing so much, but when I started school I kind of got too busy.I have a few ideas but not sure if it's worth to put up my stories anymore. From some of the post I've seen on here, it seems Mibba has changed quite a bit from when I was last...

The ED thoughts are like a merry go round they swirl around in my head. ED Monster has really pretty attractive statue horses you want to ride on those ones, and Healthy Mind has pretty ones too but they are much simpler, you're more drawn to ED Monsters, you look back and forth between the two, ED Monster encourages you "Come on it's perfectly safe."You take a few steps forward, but Healthy Mind...

So for the past two days I think I've been doing pretty well, I've been eating more and not really letting myself get hungry. I've been trying not to obsessively weigh myself like I would like to do, but I still do it a lot. I should probably get rid of my scale, but I want to make sure I gain but at the same time I don't want to gain, it's like torture now stepping on that scale, I'm upset if I...

So I thought I finally I had my ex out of my life, but I guess not, I mean sure I still sometimes think about him and miss him, but he was bad and well abusive, so it's good I'm not with him.Anyways he messaged my brother, asking how I was or what I was up to, it's been almost a year and I just thought I was free of him, I just want him to leave me alone!Thankfully he lives in Australia so he...

So I hung out with my friend today, and well I thought he liked me, every time we hang out when he has to leave he always gives me a kiss. Today though when he had to leave he didn't even want to give me a hug, it was like he couldn't leave fast enough.So what is up?He is leaving in a few weeks, could that be it? I'm thinking that's it, but that's a bit childish really.Either that or I got really...

I tried to talk to my mum about my eating disorder, I tried like I've tried a million times before to make her see how it really is. I even let her read my story on here, which I didn't really want her seeing, but I let her read it, she hasn't finished it, but I'm hoping it will open her eyes.She keeps acting as if it's the easiest thing in the world to 'just eat.' I wish it was easy.I told her...

So I went to therapy today, I hate the therapist. So I told her about my hallucinations and the other day I was seeing the trees move, and she says to me "Do you think maybe it's your medications causing you to hallucinate?" that's fine I say "No." Because they aren't then she says to me "You know sometimes my mind plays tricks on me the other day I was looking at the tree branches and I was...

My parents fighting is getting really old.I can't even finish my dinner because of it, I was eating and then started thinking about something my mum said to my dad, and it just pissed me off so much, I had to stop.My parents fighting is just starting to get over the top, and I really just don't want to deal with it anymore.I have to listen to my mum complain and defend her, and then my dad feels...

My mum tricked me into making an appointment with a therapist, and I don't know if I should cancel it or not. I mean I probably could use it, but I don't really want it. She wants me to go because everybody is afraid of me, little babies, how can you be afraid of a five foot two inch girl. Even my friend is afraid of me and he only knows me over the internet.I have anger issues, but they aren't as...

I'm so annoyed. So I hallucinate and recently I can add voices to the hallucinations so I was talking to my sister trying to get some support and she says to me"Do you think maybe you see things because you read about schizophrenia?"No fuck you I don't hallucinate and get paranoia and delusions because I read about a fucking disorder, I actually have an MRI where the doctor asked if I hallucinate,...

I really want to cut, I have that same feeling in my stomach that sick feeling like someone punched me in my stomach.I hate my psych and other psychs they don't really care about the people they see they just want to make them to look crazy, I've only seen one that actually cared about me. This one though is trying to make me crazy, I stopped telling him about my hallucinations, because I don't...

My friend has this idea, to do an art show for blind people, or if you can see blind fold you and instead of looking at the art you feel the different textures, and maybe smells, I really like this idea.I really want to do something for it, I know what I would do if he let me, and he when I told him an idea, that he could use, he told me I should do it, and that he was gonna make me participate,...

I want to hold a contest, but I don't want to at the same time, so if anyone wants to use my ideas and hold a contest of their own you're welcome to, just send me a message if you're interested, I just ask if I can be a judge or that you give me a link the the post so can read the entries. Which ever is fine with me.So if you're interested the first person to message me, is the one that gets to...

So I went shopping today, and tried on a skirt. You may but probably don't know I have body image issues and an eating disorder, anyways I tried on this skirt and was thinking I look pretty good in it, a thought that doesn't cross my mind often.I go out of the dressing room to show my mum and she says"Should we get the next size up?" not really a thing you want to hear when you have an eating...

I know I just posted but I was talking to my mum the other day and I was talking to her and opened up to her about me being gender queer. Which means I feel genderless I don't feel like a man or a woman. She said to me"So what are you a man then?"I said "No."Anyway so we were talking and then she says to me"Good I'm glad you don't feel like a man, it's bad enough have girls like girls and boys...

So I finally got off my anti-psychotic, lets all hope I don't go crazy, but that's not the point, I got off it and the stupid doctor won't let me wean off it, well obviously he has never had withdrawal symptoms before. I have once before stopped taking this medication without a doctors supervision, I have done this with many medications, very stupid I know and after doing it with this medication I...

My doctor wants me to get Botox. Why does she want me to get Botox? For my headaches.I don't know how I feel about it. I mean it would be nice to be off one medication. I've been trying to decrease the amount I'm on. I'm also going to try and get off another tomorrow when I see my psych, so have to see how that goes.The medication she'll take me off gives me bad side effects like blanking out...