I haven't posted a journal entry here in a couple of years, I don't know what's pulling me to do so now... I think it's because I've been wanting to talk to you but I didn't know the appropriate way how. I just went over your old profile here, read the things you wrote about us... I think you loved me more than I was able to comprehend back then. I had so much going on at the time that I didn't...

Stupid lisp... It's only been like a week, too :'( I have a whole six months to go!! D:Ugh, my tongue hurts, I can't talk properly, I can't swallow things, and I can't even sing. AND NO ONE IN MY FAMILY WILL TAKE ME SERIOUSLY XD it's hurt.I came back from England right now. It was soooo much fun!! I went in a private jet and stuff and it was soo cool!! Kenzie took me there to meet Leslie's family...

Ugh, it's harder to stop than you think. I need alcohol in my blood because it makes me feel so good, it makes me forget about the bad in my life and that's really important to me. So much is happening and I keep pretending it's not and when I go to sleep at night I feel so frustrated because it's all in my mind and screaming to get out but I can't let it out because if I do I'm dead.I don't want...

No... It's all coming back. It's coming back. It hurts me. It's hurting me. Stop hurting me Belial, stop digging your nails into my stomach. Stop shrieking in my ears, stop collecting my tears in that vial just stop it stop it stop it. You killed Stephen. You fucking killed my guardian angel, how does one even do that?You're such a bastard I'll never forgive you for that.I tried running away from...

Hi guys... Uhm, I'm sorry I haven't been on in like forever. I just... My parents...They said they're gonna file for divorce if I keep acting the way I do... I can't help it, this is just who i am!!! I don't know what's worse, the fact that the two people I should love the most and vice versa don't accept me, or that they're making me change or else they'll break our family apart...I never thought...

Baby, I must have done something wrong in the first place. But just tell me what. I must have said something to have gotten my love to walk away from me but why can't I remember? I'm losing my mind and the Devil's got a hold of my soul. Tears are trickling down my cheeks, I'm screaming your name into the forever blue sky, im on my knees and begging for your forgiveness. What else do I gotta do for...

Have you ever heard White Horse by Taylor Swift? That song helped me through the day.Say you're sorry, that face of an angelComes out just when you need it toAs I paced back and forth all this timeCause I honestly believed in youHolding on, the days drag onStupid girl, I should have knownI should have knownI'm not a princess, this ain't a fairy taleI'm not the one you'll sweep off her feetLead her...

Where do I even begin?The last month for me has been shit. I wish I could deny that but nothing good has come out of it. Nicole didn't survive the surgery, I got drunk, made out with a gay guy, learned my girl best friend likes me, got stabbed, was carried to the hospital by my ex even though I told him to never see me again, lost Stephen, Mason went to Italy for four fucking months, I was...

...I don't even know what to say. It's only been 13 or so hours since we broke up but it feels like he's gone. We spent two and a half months trying to get together. And we finally did on November 23. We had a great time.But now all this shit happened and we split apart.... Like... Fuck. I thought everything would be okay, I mean he's still around and we're still good buds but everything's still...

Yees. Today's my birthday.and like....whoa. I'm just speechless. Like, I dont even know what to say right now. My mind is entirely blank, and I should be excited or happy... But I can't even get myself to smile right now.I can't even WRITE properly right now. My improper paragraphs are irritating me, but it's kinda cool. :)My boyfriend got me the most beautiful necklace. I could cry. He's so...

Look inside my heart and you will find a special place reserved for you and you alone.Look inside my soul and you will feel my love in every moment of our sharing.Look inside my thoughts and you will see that love has etched your name on my very soul...Let's carve our names into stars. So that we can emphasize just how bright we're able to shine. Let's smile as widely as we possibly can, so that...

Sometimes when I wake up in the morning, I wonder. Why the hell should I get myself out of bed? Why should I get dressed and try to make myself look pretty? Why am I nice to people? They will never change...I always get up and go to school, in hopes that I'll see the one that makes me feel like I belong... The only place I really belong is in their arms. That's the only place I feel like I'm...

I just puked blood. It hurt. Alot. I'm very stressed. I feel like I'm about to cry. It is currently 2:19am. He is still gone. Next month is his first death anniversary. I miss him terribly. Without him, I have died on the inside. I can't write desriptive sentences. I am in shock. I puked blood. It hurt. My chest aches. I can't sleep. I'm hearing voices. They're calling my name. They want...

I'm....sitting on the floor in my room. in complete darkness, with my friend Kitara. I'm writing this journal cuz I don't know what else to do. Yes, I have no life. Thank you for pointing that out, reader.And I didn't really get to post the journals I wanted to post earlier. Which kinda sucks, so I might post those soon. Anyway, it's 2am and this was Day One without James... :/I don't think I like...

Gods, today was horrible. And I don't know how to get rid of this feeling. I probably passed out three times, and I have no idea why. I think it's just because of strees, but I've never really heard of anyone passing out that way.I was talking to my friend james and.....I don't know. Everyone's been getting so mad at me lately. His brother's realy mad at me too. Because I've been under so much...

Aiden. You always brought happiness with you wherever you went. You always smiled, and ignored all the pain. You made everyone around you feel so special. You'll never be forgotten.The last I saw you, you were strapped down onto the bed at the hospital. You wearing the paper outfit thing all patients wore, and an oxygen mask. They had removed your lip piercing, and the ring lay on the small wooden...

Sometimes, we have the worst days. Other times, we have the best. Being neither a kid nor an adult is confusing. Like we're on this...rollercoaster of love and hate. Sometimes we need to laugh until we cry, and sometimes we need to scream so loud that we shake the world. I feel like I've been screaming silently for 3 and a half months. What I did so wrong? I don't know.All I know is that tears and...