This entire weekend I’ve been in physical and emotional pain. I’ve been hovering in a messed up state of uncertainty. And the hovering stopped when I fell down some stairs. The bruises and scars aren’t stopping at the surface, my mental state has been torn to pieces as well.I lost the one person I had began to love.I lost the person that I didn’t dare to love.I spent meaningless time with...

(On unrelated notes.)1. Called it! I'm pretty good predicting shit.I'm pretty good at seeing what's going to happen next with everyone but myself. From a mile away I can spot that two people will date, hook up, or break up. And things like that. And no, not everyone can do that. It takes a certain kind of intuitiveness to spot things like this. Trust me. I've been wrong once. I predicted how long...

This is going to sound aweful and whoreish, but guess what?! I don't care what you think because I won. The goal was to get him, and I would say I did just that. He had always been "all talk" but no more... Things changed tonight.Okay, [Pause.]Let me explain something to you. I have this very good friend, let's call him Marc, and we have been talking for what's going on probably around 3 years....

I hate it when I feel like I can't distinguish dream from reality.I know it was real, I know it happened. But other than the subtle clues reminding me, it feels like a dream. I don't like this feeling, it makes me uneasy. It makes me feel like I don't have control of anything. It's terrifying losing all sense of time and reality. And I was completely sober, but I still woke up feeling in a dream...

I've been writing non-stop for the past week and have written so much! 10 chapters! I haven't written a story this fast since last summer when I wrote my last book for the same person who inspired this one!I'm worried I might be getting to personal, as if I'm exposing him for what he really is, but I can't help but find a story out of it. So I write and write! He's inspired so many things I've...