your my best friend, you know? your a very upbeat, and happy person. in your own twisted way. your unique, but you attract others like a light. you have no need to worry about making it in life, or being alone, or never seeing your friends again. i'm sure they'll always be there, you'll never be alone.unlike me, i just don't think i'll make it, i doubt those so called 'friends' you have, that just...

i'm not going to lie to you and tell you i'm the bravest person there ever is, and ever is going to be, because it's not, nor has it ever been, true.I've kept this locked in my head for god knows how long, not telling Anyone what i was really thinking, or telling anyone how i was really feeling, because i knew that they would see me as someone different then they know me as. YOU don't know me, YOU...

i know it seems horrible and all, but i can't really ever trust anyone. not even family. not even Erin, to see at the least, that is very sad. i've been stabbed in the back so many different times, by friends, by family, by my sister, by my own mother, and as the years went by, i found it harder and harder to forgive them everytime they messed up. after a while...i just stopped believing them. and...