Girls are so confusing

Ok most people make it easy to tell they like you,or they act like a friend. No,this girl acts like my girlfriend half the time and then at other times acts like shes just a friend. This wouldn't be a problem if i didn't like her back. She makes little comments and gets over protective, and shes even going to the dance with me, but i dont know if its just friends. I know the simple solution is to...
January 26th, 2012 at 12:10am

Halloween ( if you don't like cussin,don't read)

Dude f***in halloween was a blast. Me and b****es (affectionate terms in our book,so no,i'm not insulting them) and they know who they are, spent the whole night hittin almost every place in town. Mind you,we got some really odd looks from people because of our age (who says 15 is too old to trick or treat?) but it was so worth it. Most people would have assumed we were either high,drunk, or a...
November 1st, 2011 at 06:38am

You worry me sometimes.....

Well, if someone kept stumbling around acting like they were drunk wouldn't you be worried too? Freakin Noey ( the guy i like) nearly gave me a heart attack when he started stumbling and almost feel over. He ran into me and i had to catch the boy,or else he would have fallen over, but he looked up and smirked,like he knew exactly what he was doing. He has black hair that covers his eyes so i can't...
October 30th, 2011 at 01:39am

Just Because i can, doesn't mean i don't need help

I'm independent. Any who know me can tell you that much. But just because i can stand on my own two feet doesn't mean i don't need someone to lean on.Just because i can handle myself doesn't mean i don't like being protected. Just because i'm everyone's rock doesn't mean i don't need a rock too.Just because i'm independent doesn't mean i can do it all on my own.After a while i need someone to lean...
October 23rd, 2011 at 04:35am

I'm Just Me

I'm not shy, i'm just a watcher.I'm not quiet, i'm thoughtful.I'm not random,you just can't keep up with me.I'm not scary, i'm just violentI'm not spazzy, i'm just boredI'm not a bitch, i'm just don't like youI'm not mean, i'm honestI'm not angry, its a defense mechanismI'm not cold, i'm just scaredI'm not happy, i'm just actingI'm not emotionless, my hearts just tiredI'm not trusting, i'm...
October 20th, 2011 at 12:51am

Guess i could't trust you

Ok so i don't tell you who i like the first time you ask me its because eitherA) i didn't hear youB) i don't want to tell you and am ignoring you,orC) your a stranger who i don't trustI have a major trust issues when it comes to people and crushes. So i choose very carefully who i tell who i like. I thought when i told you,you understood that you don't go telling some girls who i don't know. And...
October 13th, 2011 at 04:38am

Head and Heart Never Agree

Why does the heart long for what it cannot have? Why does the head try and logic out every emotion, everything that might give a person hope? Why does your head tell you its not possible,that it'll never happen, while you heart continues to hope? My heart wants someone it cannot ever have. If someone shows the slightest interest in me or if i get told that someone likes me, theres always a way it...
October 10th, 2011 at 04:06am

Halloween ( who's dressing up?)

How old is too old to go trick or treating? Is it like 18, or is 15 too old, unless your going with siblings? Or are you never too old to go trick or treating? Anyway halloween is my favorite holiday of all time, and its not because my birthday is five days before it. OK it partially is,but i really love this holiday. I mean, come on, who doesn't love free candy, and lots of it? And don't even get...
October 8th, 2011 at 07:27am

Did i blow it?

Ok so we have a dance coming up and its one where the girls have to ask the guys. And there was a guy i wanted to ask,but he was kinda quiet and i was (and am) still getting to know him. But my friends didn't really get that so they made me (or tried to) ask him. I walked up and i asked if he was going and he said no,and i asked if he wanted to and he said no,but he was smirking at me the whole...
October 6th, 2011 at 11:50pm

I dont understand why im so curious (anyone know?)

So i saw you on the first day of school. And right then i knew i had to become your friend. It wasn't how you hair covered you eyes,or that you never say anything even to your friends,and if you do talk its not for long. I didn't know that when i saw you. All i knew was that i was curious. And now,after you ran to catch up to me on the track just to talk to me,and always mess with me,i'm more...
October 3rd, 2011 at 03:24am

My Friends are Rapist Cannibals O.o

The title says it all. Freakin i refuse to be left alone in a room with any of them for any length of time lol. You have to have your back to the wall or they'll come up behind you and grab places that should never be grabbed in public. And if you let them you will end up bent over with them dry humping you. OH and did i mention that you can't let them hug you? They bite you on your...
September 27th, 2011 at 01:10am

Wth? You BIT me!

Ok so my friend forced me to run through the sprinklers at our school with her. I ran through them with her (mind you,we're freshman in high school so everyone expects this from us) ,got completely soaked, and went to go stand under the roof where it's warmer. My friend comes up behind me and BITES me. So i turn and bite her on the arm. And that is the start of an epic biting fight.Right before...
September 26th, 2011 at 04:52am

You Really Wanna Know?

You wanna know why i'm so happy all the time? Why i smile and laugh so much? Why i never seem to be upset?I smile so i don't frown.I laugh so i don't cry. I talk a lot so no one finds out. I'm never upset because whatever you say to me, i've been told/called worse.I pretend so no one worries about me.I act so they don't try and look too deep. I spaz so they don't ask if i'm ok. I write depressing...
September 23rd, 2011 at 03:07am

Happily Ever After.....Not

I'm so stupid. Even with everything that's happened and everything i've learned (most of which i wish i hadn't) i still like him. A lot. And i couldn't have him even if he wasn't in love. How the hell could i let it get so far?Frankly, i blame all those freakin princess movies they have little girls watch as small children. They tell you that love will be enough, that nothing can stop two people...
September 6th, 2011 at 03:51am

Regret

I regret the scars on my arms. I wish i hadn't put them there. Actually i wish i still didn't WANT to put them there,even though i know it only takes away the pain for a little while. I wish i didn't have to pretend to be happy and hide my depression behind a wall. I regret me ever coming to the point that i want to just die, just take my knife and slit my wrists and watch my life bleed out of my...
August 28th, 2011 at 05:53am

I feel it

I feel your pain. I've been there too. Where your so alone,it's almost painful to watch other people who have friends. Where your so lost, you fear you can never find your way back to the light. Where your hiding so much, your not sure you can find yourself among the mess. Where even when your surrounded by people and your smiling, your not really there. I feel for you, and i can because i've been...
August 23rd, 2011 at 04:33am

Stupid Boys.....

ok how do you tell if a guy likes you? Hardly any of my friends have had boyfriends,and the ones that have haven't had enough to be able to tell -_-'Which leaves me stuck between a rock and a hard place. I mean,i'm starting to like this guy, and my friend tells me she thinks he likes me,but shes never had a boyfriend (or any interest in guys for that matter) so im confused. Hell, I'VE never had a...
August 20th, 2011 at 12:29am

I like school.....Did i really just say that?

Yes apparently, i did. I think the school has brain washed me. I've never liked school, well at least not after 5 grade. But i guess i have good reason to this year. My french teacher is hella weird (she hardly ever talks in english) my english teachers funny, math is just,well,math, lunch is bitchin since im with all my people, dance is better than i expected, science is awesome, and my new crush...
August 17th, 2011 at 04:43am

Crap.......

So school starts in exactly four days. That means i have just 96 hours left of freedom. I have to use at least a little of that time to get ready for my dance class. Now i know i can't dance, but i really didn't want P.E. and i wanted to try something new. Plus,i really didn't think i'd get in the class. Now im screwed. I'm going to make a huge fool of myself in front of a bunch of people i don't...
August 7th, 2011 at 02:37am

Im Getting Published!!!!!!!

OK so i send in my poems to these international poem contests right? I never thought that any thing would come of it, i was just doing it for fun. But i got a letter in the mail that said im a semi-finalist! Im going to have my poem in a new poem book their coming out with called Stars In Our Hearts! Even if i dont place in the finals my poem will defiantly be in the book, on a page all by itself....
July 31st, 2011 at 11:23pm