Wow... Where have the years gone. I remember it was just yesterday my brothers were crying because they didn't want to go away from our mom to school. Now it's like they want to... they are both thinking military, one Marines other, Airforce. I know they will be serving my country but I don't want them to go.They're my everything, the ones that I can trust, after they leave, I only have 1 brother...

4/3/11Gosh... I feel so lonely... Everybody is leaving me. 2 of my 3 brothers... and then the 3rd soon to follow... I love them, they are my everything. I trust them more then I do my own parents. I will have nobody to talk to since I reallllyyy dislike all the people that live in my town. They're all jerks. I'll have nobody to talk to, make me laugh, cuddle into bed if I have a nightmare, or even...

Dear _______,15 more days until i get my braces off! Yipee!!! i can not wait to get these stupid things off! all they do is... give me precatutions when i eat my food! it's going to be caramel apples and carmal alllllllllllllll day! oh yes. haha watch now i won't do any of that. well... today yeah... my brother is on his period and telling me what to do. and he got in a fight with my oldest...

Dear ______,OH yes! today equals snow day! ahahahaha! most people would rather sleep in on snow days, my friends and i. we go out at 9 AM and sled!! it's the most amazing thing, even if it is only like -10 degrees out. well, might be hanging with the neighbor here soon. brother's don't really care what i do. its great (: might have a harry potter marathon (: haha we're insaine we know. i have a...

Dear ________,Ugh... haven't wrote in a while... honestly haven't felt like it either... life's dumb... one of my friends just told me he was emo and wants me to help :/ any suggestions? haven't really delt with this before and then he tells me he tried to commit suicide like last week. he knows i'm here for him, but it's weird i guess because he's my ex and i think he and i are starting to get...

Dear ____,1.10.11 Well today was eh, it was okay. it was a monday. i don't like mondays at all. they're stupid. but to explain the title of my journal, well today the teachers were all on their periods. even the male teachers. i know it's "impossible" but today it was possible. i don't know if it's because it's exam week but yeah. its stupid. but i seriously wanted to give them all a midol so they...

Dear ________,I am sooo sorry i didn't write all this week. i've been really busy and stuff. i've barely gotten on the computer. i've mostly slept and did homework after i got home from school. so i'm really sorry. i don't think you guys missed me much though. well, it snowed today and today! i'm soo happy, but i'm not happy kuz i'm going to my grandparent's house for the weekend :/ yay! not... my...

Dear ________,Well today was, eh. It was school. One of our teachers could not handle us and lets just say it was halarious. We got a new kid and i think he was kinda freaked out by us all. LOL. but that's what students are suppossed to do right? all she did was talk, and it was about nothing. it was baaadddd... we had like 4 guys fall asleep and almost half of the rest got detentions. They don't...

Dear ____,Well last night wasn't as bad as i thought i would have been. Now my grandparents want me to stay at they're house next weekend :/ yay! not. i don't really wanna go there kuz that means like NO internet for like a whole weekend! ugh... well i'm not too happy with my parents right now. they got in an argument last night after my boyfriend asked if i could hang out today and then i waited...

Dear ______,Whoah, that's a lot of ones. I don't like it. i can't wait until 11.11.11 though. I'm going to try to make a wish at 11:11 with 11 seconds. XD i know i'm smart. Well last night, i didn't get to go to my youth pastors house kuz the family that has been causing trouble with mine was there and it was crap. We weren't going to deal with them. They just like to start drama and crap. They...

Dear _______,I know this is a day late but whatever. I don't feel like not writing and combining the days. Well yesterday i didn't do much. i sat around the house complaining about my pulled muscles that i pulled the 29th playing Wii Sports Resort. I was sword fighting and yeah, i was totally into it then i pulled my arm muscle and leg muscle too i think. it hurrttt. but ya know I'll live. Then my...

Dear _____,Today was great (: i loved hanging out with the boyfriend and his step brother. he cracks me up. he's like 15 and he was proud that he matched his neon green underware with his shirt. This is a big step considering when he got in the car all he was wearing was his letterman's jacket, jeans and shoes. not that i would ask but he told us. he's not ashamed of what he does i guess. but we...

Dear _______,Well, i don't have much to write about today. i have done and will be doing absolutly nothing! i love how lazy i am. well unless my friends make plans. I only changed to do my chores now i'm just sitting here watching TV with my brothers and am on mibba. Fun Fun. not really. i mean mibba is pretty fun but i have nothing to do. We're watching Transformers. (: its great. Well i need to...

Dear ______,It's just going to be blank from now on so you can put whatever you want to in there because writing to a journal is kind of freeking me out. Yes i know i'm a scardy cat. I don't care. Well it looks like i'm going to be doing all the chores once again. My brothers are getting stuff for the barn with my dad so i can't really complain except that it's cold! I wanna do another rodeo. even...

Dear Journal,Dang i really need to come up with a new name for this or something. it's bothering the crap outta me. Anyways, sorry i haven't wrote the past two days, Friday i went to church with my grandparents and was doing chores all day to get ready for them to come over and spend the night :/ i don't understand why they stay anymore, i mean i understand when we were little but now? it's kind...

Dear Journal,I am sooooo sorry i haven't wrote in like 4 days! hm, why am i telling a journal that i'm sorry i haven't wrote? why do we even write in a journal? why don't we be like Anne Frank and write to a "kitty" instead of a journal or diary. i mean the journal can't read it. oh well. well i've been really busy, i've had to prep the barn for all the snow we are suppossed to be having, making...

Dear Journal,Ugh... today has been a long day. even though i haven't done anything at all. well besides my chores. i think it's got something to do with going to bed around 1 and waking up at 9:30. the latest I've slept in weeks. i would have slept later if my brothers hadn't came in and yelled at me to go do my chores with them. ugh... they irritate me. maybe i wanted to do my chores by myself....

Dear Journal,I'm just gonna put this as nice as possible... but I SUCK AT BOWLING! i don't understand how some people can be so good. i'm just gonna say there's a reason i play soccer (: but on the brightside i gotta spend time with the boy and bestie. I love them <3 well... i was hoping to spend more time with the boy and go play in the snow but that didn't happen ): gosh i don't know what i'm...

Dear Journal,SNOW DAY!!! Oh yes. Got out of a chorus and show choir concert my feelings are neutral on that but it's more so happy then anything. but darn ): no marian's pizza. that pizza is like the best in town. but homemade pizza makes up for it (: the kind we make is AMAZING! we make homemade crust and everything. Talked to my boy <3 the whole day and one of my bestfriends. Tomorrow if we...

Dear Journal,I'm just gonna say, i hate drama. my friend is trying to blame our fighting on me. when i honestly don't think i did anything, but oh well. wouldn't be the first time she's tried to blame things on me. Well today at school there was a HUGE fight. well not huge it was only between two african american guys but it was bad. one of the guy's girlfriend tried to break it up and she almost...