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Iam starting to see who are my real friends and who are not. I really do think Iam better off without her, I know I would have never said this before but seeing it now I do think Iam. That week at the beach I think I started to see our friendship starting to fall apart but I think I wouldn't let myself believe it, I just push it away. I won't let there our moments when I do kind of miss her its hard not too since we've have been friends for three years. Im going to miss going to concerts with her and things like that for a while but after a while I'll be good. We would be good if she wasn't dating him I just think later on down the road this would happen. No matter how I feel about her and everything I could never be like that, I don't even hate her I just dont wont nothing to do with her anymore. I know Im better off without her, I believe it now.


It was something about "Jeff" you were saying I need to go finish my mystery story with Jeff or something like that I can't remember what it said. Like you said it was probably another story your working on. I just saw the tweet I just thought you were taking about this story. And no I don't :/ like I said I'll be the only person who doesn't know XD haha.

Hopefully everything will go well! Don't try to worry to much. In this case your grandma is having surgery to help her life longer and get better. I know it's hard to see someone you love getting seriously sick and all but you just have to believe everything will be alright. Hopefully you can visit her on Friday and give her some support. I'll be thinking of you and your grandma! And you're right, my grandma did live a good life. I'll always remember all those Fridays all her children, one of them beeing my dad, and grandchildren came to visit. She had 7 children, my dad included, so you can imagine it was a pretty big bunch xD I am indeed gratefull I got the chance to spend time with her =)

I am totally in on the Kanye muzzle plan!! xD Haha, now we have two plans that need to be succeeded. 1) Go to jb concert with jb death wisher 2) Muzzle Kanye at VMA's 2011. We have work to do... And I agree with, I lose a lot of respect when I see artist changing as their popularity groes, when they start acting like they are better than everyone else. Some artist don't even seem to care about the fans anymore once they're famous, but it's the fans who got them famous in the first place.

It really is fascinating, that recent mcr activity! The fans are already calling it the biggest mindfuck everr xD It's gonna be stupid if all our guessing was no where near what they were trying to say.

That is ture. Honesty I dont wont her to text me if she realizes what she did was wrong, Im starting to see Im better off without us being friends, that my life is better without her in it. Back then I wouldn't have thought this but now Im seeing that its true.The sixth night at the beach when we got into a fight I think then I knew our friendship wasn't going to last, but part of me didn't wont to beleive it. Same here, when Im around people I dont know Im quiet or when Im around family Im quiet sometimes unless someone starts talking to me. But when Im around my friends Im loud haha. I wont :). That's true also. I think if she wasn't dating him we would still be friends right now probably, and then later on we wouldn't be. Im just done with her and won't nothing to do with her anymore, I dont wish anything bad on her I could never be like that.


Well I saw your tweet about your mystery story and it said who it involved, so I know (unless that was something else). Your welcome :) I really like that story.

And to add to that: my messages keep getting longer and longer o.O

Awww that's great! She'll be fine again before you know it. If you don't mind asking me, how old is your grandma actually? I don't really remember which surgery it was, I had something to do with her blatter that didn't function normal anymore. I was only 12 and I thought the situation was much worse then it actually was. But I was young and I didn't want to lose my favourite person in the world who I watched tv with and gave me lots of cookies xD When she started to have serious problems walking she went to a 'home', I don't know how you called those things were they take care of older people. My grandma was about 74 when she passed away. I still watch the old photo albums once and a while to keep the memories alive you know. I only regret not having her around anymore now I'm more grown up. When you're younger you don't appreciate things enough.

Haha, Kanye does have an annoying voice! Not singing wise to me but when he opens his mouth to say yet another stupid thing. And he really is full of himself. You can just see it when you look at him. And I agree, I've hear better remixes before.

Maybe it's better that you haven't. The mcr thread has been going crazy!! The mcr website changed a while back and they've put a tv on there with different channels with songs and statics. Really mysterious and all. And they have also created a twitter for fictonal characters and post weird stuff to us. We have no clue what it all means. But everyone is going crazy because mcr has finally come alive again after about 3-4 years of silence xD Everyone just thinks something big is about to happen. I actually quite like the name Bandit. There was no was Gerard would give his kid a 'normal' name if you ask me, being the creative one:p Haha, I know! It would be so hilarious. They'll never be able to keep that a secret, it's all over the internet. Same goes for the fanfiction. And Alicia really is beautiful isn't she. I remember when I was younger I was so jealous of her looks xD

I hated that. I'm glad thought that Supernatural moved to Fridays. I don't think my parents want it. And plus, we tried to hook up the DVR thing they sent us, but it wouldn't work. Well my brother couldn't get it to work. I'll have to find out from Comcast how much it is. I've found it on Amazon, I just don't know how to order stuff off of there.

I may have to have you reccomend me some books then. I can never find any good books to read that are my type of books. I think I'm gonna stop reading Harry Potter, I mean not completely, but just for right now.

Did you watch the VMA's tonight?

I'm so glad to hear that!! It's always hard when a close family member gets sick, especially at old age. One time my grandma had to go to the hospital for surgery and I was scared to death something would happen even though it wasn't even a serious operation or anything. Wow, I really envy the person who already knows one of the characters. She's good! Maybe she happend to be a big fan of the guy. I'm jealous now, I wanna know too! xD

Another thing we have in common :D I always read books in which there is a murder or crime to be solved. It's the only genre I read besides fanfiction here on mibba. When I go to the library I automatically look for books with a little pistol on the covers as symbol and I'm good to go :p

I get what you mean with Kanye. I really like some of his songs but to me he doesn't really come across as friendly, more arogant. I don't really believe he would be a good influence. But I bet he'll be leaving jb alone now. Their remix was just a way for Kanye to keep his career in the picture if you ask me.

Haha, well you're just a little bit behind. The twins haven't been around so long, it only happend a few weeks ago I think. An yes, Gerard also has a girl, Bandit. I don't know if you visit the mcr thread once and a while? It's a good way for me to keep up with everything. And I read somethinig funny there a while back. They imagined how the girls (the twins + Bandit) would react when they're older and find those video's of Gerard and Frank kissing on project revolution, haha, I would pay to witness that moment xD And Mikey and Allisia make a good couple if you ask me, they look really cute together =)

It sucks cause I have TNA and Nikita on at the same time. And I don't want to miss either show. :( I would go to Target, but the closet one is a 45 minute drive, and we never go to the town that it is in. Though I could probably look it up on the internet. It is. Though I still want to get it on DVD. The only movie I can't find of Jensen's is Ten Inch Hero. And I really want to see it.

lol. I have that and Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows both sitting by my bed to read.

I mean there are moments when I do wish I could change her, but most of the time I dont. I'm seeing of what kind of friend she's been. As I said ever since she started dating her boyfriend she has change, she's hasn't been the friend that she was before. And I sometimes I wish I could change her back but I know I can't. Maybe later on down the road she will realize what she did but I dont see it happening anytime soon. So many people have made fun of me for being so quit that it no longer bothers me anymore. I just don't talk when I'm around people I have always been like that, it's something I can't help. I do have fear that it would happen again but I'm going to try and not let it stop me from meeting new friends, cause I know I will make new friends soon. It happen before I had a boyfriend she didn't like and she had one I didn't like, we let it come between us but realize it was beyond stupid, we were young haha. But just other times when she no longer wants us to be friends for stupid reason but then realize she doesn't wont that. I just can't forgive her she went to far this time. Thanks for that :)


Well now I don't feel alone haha.

I'm really sorry about your grandma! I hope she gets better soon!! You don't have to worry about updates now. But just so you know you're not that late with your update yet. And this way I got the chance to re-read the other two chapters and find clues I missed the first time :p I still don't know who the mystery characters are, but I'll post you a message so you know what I'm thinking about at the moment xD

That's also quite cool, solving a murder in a story. You are letting me get to know all these new genres of stories. I should search for a story like that, sounds interesting to me! I always watch murder series on tv too. I'm very happy they're finally airing a new season of Cold Case here. One of my favourite series in that genre =)

And I understand what you mean with comparing jb with your niece. I think especially with younger stars, fans have the need to protect them because when you're younger it's harder to stand up for yourself I think. I still have that feeling with 'older' stars too. It's a fact that when you have a star who inspires you, makes you happy, ... you don't want anything bad happen to them and certainly don't want other people saying bad things about them.

For some reason Frank was always my favourite from mcr. And he and his wife are now the proud parents of twins! Would love to see a picture of them, I bet they're adorable^^ It's so weird that two members already have (a) kid(s). It feels like I've been there, seeing them grow-up xD And I loved mikey with he glasses! But maybe it was a shock because it was simply a habit of seeing him with glasses. After a while a finally saw the sexy side to mikey without glasses xD

Yeah, DVR would come in handy. There's a lot of stuff I want to watch, but I can't cause I have other shows on at the same time. Depending on if they have it at Wal-Mart and how much it is, I may get it on Sunday. I'm hoping it won't be really expensive. It was a good movie, but like I said it was really weird. I still want to get it on DVD though.

I normally wouldn't read the books, but I've wanted to read them for a while now. I'm the same way, if something doesn't have my full attention by the second chapter, I stop reading it.

I don't blame you. They are really funny. I had to cover my mouth when I was reading them cause I was laughing so hard.

There's nothing really you can do, you can't stop people from changing. Which you know sometimes I do wish I could change her into the old her, when she use to be my best friend but I know I can't. I'm always shy which I hate, when I'm around people I hardly talk and people always make fun of me for that. It is, you can't help but think would it happen again, that's the main reason I'm scared of meeting new friends cause I keep thinking the same thing will happen again. I mean I know some friends will come and go I learn that it happens, but I never would have thought she would be the friend who would leave. I thought we would be friends forever I really did, but things don't always happen the way we want. Haha I do the same thing, I could have a boyfriend around me that long, I would go crazy. I know and I believed her I really did I thought she would never let it happen, I know I wouldn't. I think so too I really do, I told my parents and everyone that there will be a day when she does text me and realize what she did was wrong, just this time I won't be forgiving I just can't.


Your welcome. It is hard haha, I'll probably will be the one person who will not know who it is haha. Alright :)

Oh wow, Im sorry about that. I really thought I did, I will reply to you. I keep telling myself to reply but then I forget or end up doing something else haha.

The thing about not watching Devour, I did yesterday morning on FX. It was good. Though it was strange.

I have a question...Did I comment you back? I can't remember if I did...Sorry about this.

Maybe god made a terrible mistake not making you the mother of jb! xD But you would fit the role perfectly to be honest. Haha, I bet no-one in his sane mind will ever dare pick on your future kid.

Wow, the other story you talked about also sounded interesting to me. Did you like have to try and solve a murder/crime while reading your story? Yeah, the first days of mibba were know for MCR and Green Day - fanfiction. Because mibba was promoted on a fansite of each of those groups. But now I believe you can find a lot more different stories. Maybe you should dig those stories up. I used to love MCR to death, I had the biggest crush on Frank xD Mikey always seemed like the cute, nice an quiet boy. It was such a shock when he got rid of his glasses xD I'm so turning into a fangirl thinking back at my 'omg I love MCR' days, haha.

I wish I had DVR, but the only box in the house is downstairs. :| I think I'm gonna try and get season 5 next time I go to Wal-Mart, if they even have it. I so hope they do.
No I haven't. I really wanna get it and Ten Inch Hero with him in it.

I do the same thing with books. Though right now I'm reading Book 1 of Vampire Diaries, and Elena is blonde in the book. It confuses the heck out of me cause I keep imaging the Elena on the show.

She coddles both of them to no end. Even when they are in trouble. It just pisses me off. And then when she leaves, the oldest one gets really rowdy.

Me too.

I have a series for you to read on LiveJournal. Its a Wincest, but it is funny as hell. I keep busting up laughing.
http://www.livejournal.com/tools/memories.bml?user=ash_carpenter&keyword=Anti-kink&filter=all

I love having OnDemand. lol. You can find a lot on there to watch. Though I wish that they had Supernatural on there, but they don't :| Though the free movies make up for it some what. lol.

lol. That's the same way with me. One story I'm reading I only know one band that is in it. The others I've heard of, but I don't know what they look like.

It was pretty fun. Though his other Grandma got on my nevres.

The thing that happened with her bro. That's ok. I have blonde moments too.

Haha, I don't know how but we keep getting back to the subject of ignorant people who say stupid stuff and even go as far as death wishes. I blame that stupid kid at the jb thread for our endless rant comments. How long could we keep this up? xD But I don't really have anything to add. You are totally right! But I don't know if the FBI would be interested in your idea :p However maybe you should become mibba's FBI and search the boards for death wishers xD

Maybe you're just to good at writing mistery fiction :p but I'll just try to find some clue to guess who those main characters are. I'm already so curious!
Ooooh you used to write mcr-fanfiction? In the beginning of mibba mcr-stories where practically the only one's you'd find :p

Who is your cable company? We have Comcast. I thought they were the only ones with OnDemand. Who knows. That's the same way with me.

I understand that. It is a good way to see how they want them protrayed. I've tried doing it with an Avenged Sevenfold story, but I didn't really know who the people they kept mentioning, so it confused the heck out of me. It's ok. I wouldn't have thought you were a bitch.

It was pretty busy Saturday. I had to go to my nephews birthday. So it wasn't that bad. How was yours.

BTW, that girl that I told you about is in your Top Friends list. Its the only one we have in common on it.