December 9th, 2010 at 03:00am
Okay, to understand why I hate love so much, you have to understand who I am. I've got..I dont know. I feel like i've lived a life that I couldnt have possibly lived. I feel like I've traveled across seas, fought battles, made enemies, made friends, gotten scars, and given a few; yet I've never left my small town. I've never done anything exciting. I think the most dangerous thing I've ever done was lie to my mom about going somewhere when I was going somewhere else.
I know I haven't, but I feel like I've had a love deeper than oceans. I know what it's like to have someone's whole being be your reason for living, yet no man has ever taken my heart. I know what it's like to look at someone with such longing that it hurts, yet no man has ever come into my radar. I know what it's like to be torn between two, I know what it's like to have to decide between good and bad.
I hate love because it makes us weak. It makes people vulnerable. It takes the shell they had created and takes it apart piece by piece. It makes them sacrafice themselves for someone who will go and leave them in a moments notice. I hate love between two different people because people are unreliable. Most people that is. Most people do not have the courage to stay by when the troubles of life are too much. Love makes a person do stupid things, it brings them to the highest pedestal available and rips them down to the Earth without mercy or remorse. It leaves an empty feeling in the pit of your soul, your being. It leaves scars on the being that no one can come back from. I cannot stand the way love is so commercialized as this thing that will make you happy when more often than not, Love is the cause of suffering. It ruins humans. Humans ruin it.
It is impure; broken; fickle; tainted.
That is why I hate love.
Why do we have to put trust in people? It is only broken! It is not fair! We put faith into a person who would rather break it than do anything seriously strenuous. It's not reasonable to think that there is some person out there, other than occasional few, would take care of someone's whole being. Especially at our age. Teenagers arent capable of love. They don't know what they're doing. They listen to the media, the pressures of society. They dont care about substance. They care about looks. They dont want to know the scars a person has because they dont have any. Teenagers dont experience the troubles that some adults face. It is stupid to think otherwise. You cant possibly know what love is when you don't know hate. You cant possibly comprehend the danger of love when you have risked nothing. Feelings are important, sure, but really? What does a person have to lose at this age that is so important? "A boy doesn't like me". Boo-hoo. You are young and there are other boys. Get over it.
People think monogomy is so great but I dont know what's so great about it. Sure, "love" is focused on one person but is that really any good? Why not share your heart with everyone? That's what I do. I'd rather give myself to everyone. (I think i've said this already) It makes no sense to devote oneself to a single person. People individually are disappointing. Well, the whole race is too but there are an occasional few who can exceed expectations but they are too rare. One in a hundred thousand. A single person cant possibly be able to love.