Eh I don't know I think I'll get bored if I don't have many people to follow or people who follows me... if it works like tumblr from what I've been told. Same reason I stopped using tumblr.I can't believe I'm really posting journals about what I'm thinking, eh hehe. I'm so... empty minded ? o.o Eh I don't know I just realized I'm clumsier when I'm smoking than when I have my two hands empty. And...

Eh ?! I've been "insulted" by being called a girl, a fag, a good for nothing chinese, an immature jerk and other things I laughed at but eeeeh I've never been called a 14 year old looking pedophile.Hehe. I was at the store today buying cigarettes and this old lady was eyeing me up and down and said "you look like a fourteen year old pedophile". She probably said it because I was with my friend who...

Eh and people ask me why I smoke so much... Maybe because this insomnia makes me so anxious and keeps me up all night and I really have nothing to do but smoke and listen to music. Eh I really need a new hobby.I smoked a whole pack just las night and it's really showing on my face. Eh I seriously think I should lay off the smoking for at least three days... Maybe.I even made breakfast for my mom...

Why are there so many fakes on this website? I didn't notice until a friend told me all those not active accounts were probably fakes... eh I just stumbled across so many of them...I don't think I could act as someone else, uwa haha. Maybe I'm really just a terrible liar and a shitty actor. At least I can dance?This is a stupid question but how can I know who's a fake? I mean most people who talk...

I know it was a while ago... eh but I still think about how I hurt him. I hurt him the way he hurt me by not aknowledging I loved him. I don't even know why I felt like I had to let him go. I just know I hurt him so much.Eh I don't know it just eats me up inside sometimes he's looking all down and sad and I ask him what's wrong and he gives me that sad smile that says "you're what's wrong with...

Eh I realize I don't really have any writing talent. I always write according to what I feel. Like right now I updated this autobiography (kinda) I was writing and I just couldn't bring myself to write the way I wrote in the other chapters.I'm still feeling down and I don't really know what to do about it. I realize that when I feel sad I always look for ways to take my mind off of it but I...

Eh I'm still feeling bad. I hate feeling like this. I hate having to admit I'm feeling depressed. I think that by now I actually know when I'm feeling depressed and when I'm just feeling down or upset about something.I don't like admiting I feel like crying because let's face it I might be bisexual and look like a girl sometimes and model but I'm a guy and I have that stupid male pride and I hate...

Eh I think I'm just cranky. and now I'm hungry and I have a huge stomach ache. what the hell's going on today.I have to be at work in a few hours but eh.one question... why do girls like using weird fake nails ? and eh why do they like guys doing them for them ?I hate having to do nails and they ALWAYS ask me to do them. :(also if today another lady flirts with me and calls me cute i'm going to...

Eh my insomnia is back. I'm back to cutting and I've been dancing so much I couldn't walk right this morning. Ehh I think not being able to be with my boyfriend in front of other people is really getting to me but I think that knowing he's going through so much eh you know **** is getting more to me.Like two nights ago I met with him and after a while I noticed he had this purple bruise on his arm...

Ah I had a photoshoot yesterday. Usually I’m friends with the photographers but not this time. I didn’t know the guy. Since I got there he was looking at me weird. As soon as he saw what I was going to be modelling he started talking about how I didn’t have the body because I wasn’t skinny enough for one category and I wasn’t “bold” enough to look like a muscle guy. He was really an...

Aaah I just made a Facebook account :DAh, I don't know what to say, I'm just excited... eeh I have been trying to study for my German test tomorrow and I haven't been able to... Ah msn is such a distraction !Ah, I'm broke :( Literally broke. My mom makes enough money for us to live comfortable, but I can't really ask for too much especially because I keep getting fired for being too clumsy or...

My mom broke up with the guy she was dating and now she won't stay at home... Eh she keeps on going to the movies, to eat with her friends or stays more than usual at the salon.It's weird to see her sufferin like this again eh I've never wanted to punch someone so bad.Ah I realized I could use aim on my cellphone... it won't shut up and It's driving me crazy but I don't wanna sign out. School's...

aah... it's really hard to explain it but sometimes i feel so dirty. often when i feel stressed i loose weight and it actually makes me feel really good but i'm not blind enough to not notice how thin i can get. the internet is like an escape but it's also like something that just gets wrong ideas in my head i mean writing like this makes me feel free because no one sees it (at least not people i...

what's better? i've been homeschooled since i was fourteen and i think it's pretty cool but sometimes i really miss going to school. i usually take classes on the internet but sometimes a teacher comes to teach me.the only thing i really miss is being with my friends when i'm there.eeeh? too short? no japanese symbols either :(this is my favorite song then.Tooi kimi no omoide warai aeta hibimata...

in a few days it will be my father's 11th death anniversary. my mom's been crying again but now it's way less than a few years ago. maybe we're really moving on.i've grown used to watching funny movies and laughing a lot every second week of june. it really seems to help. i might be working at my uncle's store again this next month or i might model a little i don't know.i've been trying to write...